Chapter 3 "I once hold a star" KSJ FF

5 MONTHS LEFT. That's the remaining time I have in this world. The weight of this realization presses heavily on my heart, threatening to engulf me in despair. How did it come to this? I never imagined that my journey would be cut short, that my time would be so limited.

The memories flood back, reminding me of the battles my heart has fought throughout the years. In 2021, I was diagnosed with diffuse toxic goiter, a condition that left my heart with two holes. The surgical intervention in July 2022 brought a glimmer of hope, and I believed that I could overcome any obstacle. Months passed, and I poured my heart and soul into the creation of "My Stellar," my labor of love. Sleepless nights became the norm as I toiled away, unaware of the toll it was taking on my own well-being.

Then, in 2026, it all came crashing down. Exhaustion claimed victory, and I found myself lying helpless in a hospital bed for an entire month. It was there that I received the unexpected news—the truth about my heart. A congenital heart disease, lurking in the shadows, silently threatening my existence. The timing seemed cruel, as my goiter had taken precedence in the medical spotlight. Miraculously, I defied the odds. Life-saving surgery granted me a reprieve, but the knowledge that my days were numbered remained an ever-present specter.

Returning to the Philippines, after an overwhelming book signing event, I could feel the fragility of my heart, the ticking time bomb inside my chest. A heart transplant, a beacon of hope, was cruelly snatched away by the doctor's words—it was too late, impossible. Tears welled up in my eyes, my heart breaking with each beat, as the weight of mortality settled upon me.

And then, amidst the turmoil, his voice reached me. Like a balm to my wounded soul, his angelic timbre resonated in my ears, evoking emotions I had long suppressed. A mixture of pain and joy coursed through my veins, mingling with the tears on my cheeks. If only reincarnation held the promise of a second chance, a destiny that would intertwine our paths once more. I yearned to be reborn as a devoted fan in the next life, to experience the indescribable happiness of knowing him and finding solace in the melodies of his songs. I resolved to be a fan who would support him from afar, silently cheering him on with every breath.

In the grand tapestry of life, my encounter with him surpassed all my wildest dreams. The mere acknowledgment of my existence by the one who had inspired me beyond measure was a gift I could never repay. Though time was slipping away, leaving me with a bittersweet ache in my heart, I found solace in the knowledge that, at least in this lifetime, I had the privilege of meeting him and experiencing moments that would forever be etched in my memory.