I'm inlove with a Popstar 2
You'll find out when you deliver the flowers yourself, Alex added. Aha!, yup, that's what I was afraid of asking, ehem!, Okay, I'll be on it first thing on Monday!, Gary said In a serious tone and now checking on his phone for Alex's schedule for the day. Okay boss, you have a meeting with the guys at....
Kat and Dean went to a restaurant after the café. Dean said he was hungry and wanted steak. K Rico American Steak House is open for a bit. Kat is indeed happy to be with Dean and her wants even those she never wanted were given to her on a silver platter. She is literally spoiled but she misses things and feelings that money can't buy. She didn't know what to feel or say but there is still something missing in their relationship, something more important than material stuff and money. Their sex is good but Dean just hovers and does his things with his thing as soon as he flashes it and shoves it in.
No foreplay, bases or romance. I miss that, I miss the romance and the orgasmic sex. I was brought up to be a charismatic and conservative girl but not all conservatives are actually that, but more keen in our feelings, wants, needs especially on love making. My parents have the most disgusting (which we could always see them smooch or make out anywhere at the house when I'm at home) but most envied love affair in the history of mankind I think. Maybe for me, but my generation is so busy with gadgets, new or advanced technology that even sex if it can be hologramed they would too. Haha!, it's funny that these things or dildos' work on me but well I have tried once yet it felt hard and unnatural. I don't care whether it's a penis or a hand but I just want to feel, to be touched the right, needy way. Like I'm desired or held passionately in bed.
To be treated a queen in my industry and a princess with Dean are some of my dreams coming true. But if I would have one chance at love and that one person to make me feel a queen, slut or even a slave in bed just to make me moan and groan, cum multiple times is my ultimate dream in my love life, now. I need awesome sex and I need it soon. Or I'll have to kill myself just to see Dean and feel him inside me which gets overrated every time we make love. And to tell you the truth, it hurts and I feel so insecure that even if I am beautiful as others say others say I am. I feel crap, alone and undesirable.
Kat no is crying a little. Her tears fell from her eyes just at Dean has finished his pump and felt orgasm coming out of him. Kat didn't cum and as if Dean didn't care, he even had the odacity to ask her for another round. Kat disagreed and asked to go to the bathroom to pee. She sat on the bowl and cried softly. She couldn't burst her sadness and disgust outright since Dean is just outside in her bed.
Kat suddenly stopped and realized what her mother told her about relationships and the guy you are with now. "You are not alone, if he makes you feel that way then maybe you need to talk to him about it and try to work it out. If all is lost and you feel that even if you can save your relationship and still feel sad about it, then let go and free yourself from the agony. True love is when you both feel safe, loved and happy inside and outside of the relationship. It is never a show, you are real and you need to be real about what you feel, you deserve happiness and good sex, eventually". Yup, my mom's own words, heck!. Errm!. Hey babe, how are you there? Are we going to give it another go???, Dean asked and laughed. Aha!, Dean, I'm a bit tired now, maybe you should go home and rest (rot!), I said and thought wanting to puke all over the place with his question. Okay, see you....Dean was waiting for Kat's decision on meeting him again.
Ah!, I'll just text you when I'm off or free this weekend maybe!. There's a lot going on at the office now that I'm really going to be busy, very busy. So, yeah okay!
Sure, honey!, see yah, mwah! Dean added and ran down the stairs, me, hearing his sports car screeched their tires before riding away.
I stayed on the bath for another fifteen minutes and decided to shower and ready the tub for my beauty and relaxing rest after the sex fail which is now more often than the usual when Deana nd I do it. Ahhh!, I was on the tub when I scrolled on my phone and saw a message from an Ali and I remembered her from the party held at my house. Oh, she's good looking thought the hood has been literally all over on her pictures. Hmm!, nice!, I liked her photos and then a minute later she messaged me on my IG. Hey, how are you Kat? Ali asked with a smiley face.
I messaged back saying hi and that I'm fine, though I am really devastated after the Dean incident. Good, so, can I talk to you now or see you maybe later?, Ali asked on the PM. Ah! Sure, where, here at my place? I asked and felt excited to do this, though I feel a bit scared since I don't know her personally, but I really need someone to talk to now. And she's the perfect person to pour my heart out on. I hope she's ready for me, I thought and smiled. Ali will be here in a few minutes and I need to get ready. I slid on to my torned short jeans shorts and white baggy sweat shirt with a cute shy bear ad up the front. I prepared hot chocolate and cheese chips with skittles on the bowl, where always been seating at the center of my living room for munching is my hobby. I was watching a soap opera when Ali arrived and her motorbike held a steady but soft tremor and it's like the sound made me feel goose bumps and they ran over my whole body electrifying me, instantly. She hadn't even touched me and she already made me feel this way. What's this about really, Kat, what? Huh!, I asked myself strangely and breathing in and out like I'm nervous to see her again. The knock came and I almost jilted out of my chair. HI!, I said after opening the glass door and Ali went in smiling at me.
HI!, here, red wine and some strawberries if you're a fan, Ali added while handing the gifts. That's so sweet of you, thanks. Okay, come in and I am watching something at the living room. Make yourself at home, please!
Ali walked and looked around at my house and smiled. You have a lovely home, pretty cozy, like I could live here especially when you're... ah!, she said then stopping when I was frowning cause maybe I didn't understand what she meant, living with me.
Ah, yeah, right, too straightforward, huh!, I mean, it's true, I like you and I could live here if things go right, you know as friends!
Ah yeah, right!, sit and I'll get some bowl for these, wow, my favorite and the wine, yup!, I replied while I walked over to the kitchen to get the stuff I need and went back immediately to see Ali sitting near the television, her feet in an Indian pose and eating the ships I have placed on another bowl. Wow!, Korean series, I love the animation ones though. But I love their films, they're more emotional and realistic, Ali said checking out on my holo DVD's. Thanks, I love them too, wow, we pretty much have in common, what else can we talk about that we aren't close to liking just the same, I added smiling and now feeling a lot better since I feel so at ease with Ali. As if I knew her ever since, like she's been part of my family and just moved somewhere and now we're reunited, I feel so happy, I don't know why.
Yes! Maybe we are soul mates or long lost best buddies in the past life. Or maybe lovers haha!, Why not!, there's always a possibility, if you're into gays or lesbians!?, Ali said jokingly but the last phrase seemed honest and a question that I think I need to answer.
Ah! Yes, well, I'm not lesbian but I never closed my doors on having relationships with one, though! I'm open-minded and if there's that one person who can sweep me off my feet, why not!, I added in a dreamy tone. Okay, then, try me!, Ali said coming over to help me with the bowl and looked me in the eyes seriously.
Hmm!, Ali, we can get to know each other first and then let's see, I replied honestly and smiled at her which she nodded outright and smiled like it's been the happiest day of her life. The odd things is Ali looks familiar to me and though on a hoodie. As if I really knew her form somewhere. You can take off your hoodie you know it's really hot and all, I said trying to help her out on taking it off but she refused. Nope, it's okay I'm comfortable with this feel. Don't worry I'm used to leather jackets when I;m in my con....erh!!! Condominium, aha, yup, there, so let's eat before the strawberries get soggy! Hewe!, Ali breathing rapidly since she almost revealed her true identity to Kat and it's going to be a disaster when that happens.