Games, the Internet, why I owe them my life

When I was young me and my 2 years older brother didnt have phones. When me and my brother were dropped of at the local boys and girls club, a place where they hold and entertain you till your parents can pick you up, we always say kids with the new Samsung 3 or Samsung Galaxy and the Iphone 6.

The first time I got a phone was in 2015, And I got a Flip-Phone. And I treasured it. Basically I'm saying I didn't grow up on mobile games or Pc games. I grew up on the old consoles.

I remember in the summer, I'd go upstaires and boot up our Nintendo 64 and put in the big ol' cartridge and play Super Mario 64, doing the ceiling secret where you stare at the ceiling and you get teleported into the clouds.

I also remember this weird Star Wars game, I can't remember the name of.

When I was 6 I remember getting back from Elementry and booting up our old Ps3, hearing the wherring of the fan, and playing Burnout, or Most Wanted, Gta4, and more.

When I was 8 I'd get back from school and Turning on the Wii, putting in Mario Kart, or Super Smash Bro's Melee. Or going through my third playthrough of Spider Man: Friends or Foe.

Then the Xbox360. My favorite console of all time. I think I put in atleast 10,000 hours on that thing. I played the greats, Halo 3, Farcry 3 and 4, Batman Arkham City, Call of Duty 4, Metal Gear Rising Revengance. The good ones.

But over the years I've lost these. My 64 was sold, my Ps3 broken, my Wii was given to a family friend, I dont have a controller for my 360.

It's been sad not having the old games. The only ones I have left is Metal Gear Rising Revengance and Farcry 4, all of the other getting sold or broken. Honestly I think games have saved my life in many ways.

I have... lets say severe Adhd. I'm constantly listening to music with earbuds to sate it a tiny bit. So much that my ears actually hurt. That's also why I got on this platform, because reading helped alot. So when I was introduced to games, my parents had to pry me off the controller to get me too stop.

It was amazing. One of my biggest life problems gone because of a box. It's also why I want to be a software developer, since I find it fascinating.

I also was very lonely and bored. But games sated both of those things. Those small boxes the size of my torso, somehow contained thousand if not millions of games. All at the push of a button. It's also a reason I have friends. They gave me something to bond with other people over.

the internet also helped me through anxiety. I also had something similar to this on Christmas. My family was playing poker, y'know just to have fun, no money involved. And I was crying, I don't know why, maybe happiness? I when upstaires to sleep but I kept crying, it wouldn't stop.

I started panicing, wondering why they didn't stop. Then I started hyper ventilating. But I put in my earbuds and started listening to music. And it went away, my anxiety, my sudden panic attack. Poof. It vanished, And I started bobbing my head, forgetting about what just happened. Just listening to my music and being happy.

Of course this might just be me. Most people just breathe for around 5 minutes and then calm down. But without my music it would've lasted twice as long.

I've realised in my short life that the internet is not a good thing. It's a great thing. It saved me multiple times, from myself and my emotions, tirning them from negative to positive.

Sorry for the unaturally wrong chapter. I got, nostalgic and caught up in the moment.

Goodnight or Good morning.

Void_Eagle out..