Chapter169: promise me

I looked at my mom not knowing what to do. The look she was giving Sheebalie was strange and I was not liking it at all. Sheebalie was giving her the same look too and my heart started racing so fast. Please God don't let anything bad happen. I prayed for everything to be fine.

I cleared my throat and I looked at Sheebalie who looked at me." Sheebalie, can we talk in a more private place please?"I asked and she nodded giving Mom one last look. We left and we went somewhere private where nobody especially my mom would hear but it's more like where she can't see Sheebalie.

"So what do you want to talk about?"she asked and I looked at her.

"I just wanted to ask if Anderson came home. Did he ummm... come?"I asked avoiding her eyes. I can't bring myself to look at her in the eye because I'm scared, like really scared.

"Why would you ask me to come here in private then? It's not like it's a secret or I'm planning it to be a secret."she said and well it's true. I had asked the same question in front of everyone. But I want her away from my mom.

"Well, I don't want people knowing he's my dad. I haven't told anyone and our tongues can slip and say something like that."I gave an excuse chuckling awkwardly.

"So...the woman there is your mom huuh?"she asked and my heart beats increased even faster and louder that I bet she could hear them.

"Yep. She... I mean we look alike so of course you would recognise her."I said and she smiled.

"Of course, my brother looks like her in so many ways."she said and I looked at her.

"What?"I asked and she chuckled.

"Kidding, you look like you have seen a ghost. Anyway, Anderson didn't come home and Alex called saying he will help."she said and I frowned.

"Help? Wait, why would he need to be helping? Where is Anderson?"I asked panicking. I don't want Alex getting involved in this Anderson shit. It seems like a dangerous world and I don't want Alex getting anything to do with it.

"I don't think I'm allowed to say any of this shit. Alex said that I shouldn't tell you about this."she said and I frowned.

"Why would he tell you not to tell me this? Is there some kind of danger he's getting himself into? What did Anderson do? Did he get himself in trouble and now he wants to get my husband in trouble? Answer me right now, why are you quiet?"I asked getting angry.

"Please calm down, it's not what you think."she said and I scoffed.

"I hate it when everyone is telling me to calm down. I hate it when I can't get the satisfaction of getting mad. Why the hell did you come looking for Alex when you literally talked on the phone? The moment you called him that's when he came downstairs all dressed up for office. Does Anderson's disappearance also affect Alex's job?"I asked this time angrily. Everything is really irritating me right now.

"Shit!!"she said and I looked at her intrigued.

"What is it?"I asked her and she looked at me.

"Go sit at the sitting room with the rest of the people I will be back. Just relax nothing is wrong, Alex is not entangled with this at all, so you can rest assured. I just remembered something that I need to take care of."she said and I looked at her.

"Is it true?"I asked her and she frowned at me.

"What is true?"she asked.

"That we are sisters?"I asked her and she stiffened. There.. I said it. I better say it once and for all instead of it eating me up and messing with me. At least I would have one thing off my shoulders. No matter how scared I am, I think that it's better to get this done now I have a chance. I'm not ready of course but at least it would be less burden on my back.

"What do you think!"she asked back.

"You shouldn't answer questions with questions, it's not nice."

"What if I said...yeah.. that we are sisters. Would there be a problem?"she asked and I looked away. Would there be a problem? Hell yeah, a big one at that because I am not ready for this sisterhood thingy and whatever it comes with it. This is something that I have never ever dreamt of having so coming unexpectedly is kinda of a burden.

"I don't know."I didn't say what my mind thought about the situation. Instead it said, I don't know, lying in between yes and no because I'm a coward and I admit it again, I'm a fucking coward.

"Look, Kimberly, right now I need to go. Let's catch up later. I need to do something super important so please go and sit down and you relax."she said and I sighed. Sweet, she has something so important to do. More important than our sisterhood conversation. Great... it's not that I expect her to be happy about it anyway. If she really wanted us to be sisters she would have said she's my sister long time ago anyway. 

"Okay."I said and I turned around without giving her another glance. I shouldn't be feeling bad because it's not like we even have a sisterhood connection or something, but to be honest, I feel bad, lost, and more importantly, disappointed.

I didn't go to the sitting room, I went upstairs to the bedroom. I don't want to face anyone right now. I want to cry in beneath the sheets alone now that Alex Alex is not here to lend me his chest to cry on.

I laid on the bed tears flowing down my cheeks and I couldn't stop crying. I could smell Alex's scent in the pillows and I really missed him. It's been hours but still, I feel like I haven't seen him in ages. I stood up and looked for my phone. It was supposed to be on the night stand but it wasn't, it was on the coffee table in our bedroom.

I frowned because as I can remember correctly, I didn't take it there. I dialed Alex's number and he picked up after two rings.

"Baby..."he called and I felt like now sobbing loudly and I did.

"Alex...."I said and I felt like a car screech on the other end. It's like he stopped the car immediately making to make a screeching sound.

"Are you crying? What is wrong?"he asked and I sniffed blowing my nose with his shirt that I was wearing.

"I can't stop crying. I just really want to cry even more right now."I said.

"What happened?"he asked calmly.

"Sheebalie came here and I really feel hurt."

"What did she do?"

"Do you think I'm being dramatic Alex?"I asked him because right now my emotions are all over the place and I can't think properly.

"Not at all baby. My baby is just fine. Now breath in then you calm down and you slowly tell me what happened."Alex said and I followed his instructions then I told him about my conversation with Sheebalie, about the sisterhood thing. Not the whole conversation of course.

"Don't think like that baby, Sheebalie has always loved you and she has always you to be her sister. Please...do me a favour?"she asked and I nodded but then I remembered he's not around so I said yes."please just keep a positive vibe. Don't let the negative energy consume you okay? Now promise me."he said and I stayed queit for a few seconds.

"I promise."I finally said.