Chapter 8: Lies

I need to think before saying any word; I have to calculate every possibility. If I say something wrong, I am gonna be in a really big trouble.

"Answer me right now!" My father shouts. I have to think faster.

"She.....she is my teacher." I mutter the first thing that came across my mind.

"Your teacher? Are you lying, girl?"

"No, Father I promise."

"She looks so young to be a teacher! Why would she even be here?"

Think of another lie. Hurry!!

"The..mmm....the weather didn't seem to be good so she offered to drive me home as I don't have any friends to keep my company." Now I confirmed two lies to him, The first is that she is a kind teacher and the second is that I don't have friends.

"I think I am gonna choose to believe you this time, although I feel that you are lying, Adelina."I breathed a sigh of relief at the first part from his sentence.  "But if you were lying." He points his finger at me and I nod in fear.

He gets to the way to his office and I stay in front of the door with fright allover me.

I hate lying but if I told him the truth he would surely hit me in excuse that he is protecting me from the badness of the outer world, I had to lie; every thing in this house is based on lying, mom's and father's relationship, mum trying to hide father's cruelty and not showing it to us by lying, and even our relation with each other now is based on lies. Maybe I am going to consider it as 'keeping secrets' just not to feel guilty.

Sometimes I just wish if I can say whatever I want out loud, but I can't. It has to stay in only my mind and I can't let it out; I don't want problems. If I did so, I would end up in jail no wait I think I overreact, maybe I will be a baddie and noone will love me, but I would fulfill whatever I want and show everyone that I am not weak and I can destroy them in just a blink of an eye.....I can do this, I have the ability, but I don't have the courage to do it so..... I think I am going to be speechless like.... forever.

I am just gonna sleep; I want to escape from all these thoughts, let my mind have some rest from thinking.

*****

This was the best nap I have ever taken. Anyway, I want to help Leonor with her brother issue; she is important to me, I love it when I see her smile. I think this is because I am the oldest sister so sometimes I am acting like a mother, even with my brothers.

Maybe I can try to soften his heart so he can be nice to everyone, especially his sister. This is gonna be hard.

I tried searching but it failed so I think I am gonna try the basics, that I learned from romance books and movies.

First of all, buying flowers. This works in every book and movie I have read and seen, But it works with the female character only...Nah, it will work for him too.....hopefully it will. I mean I haven't seen a female character give the male character flowers and it work with him before, I think I will be the first one.

Well I am going to tell Leonor the plan or...maybe only tell her to get her brother tomorrow to school.

"Hi Leo." I say through the phone.

"Hey Addy." Her voice isn't good.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?"

"Yeah I am fine, what's up?" She fixes her voice. She isn't okay, I know this, I can tell from her voice. I won't force her to tell me what's bothering her.

"I have a way to make your brother nice."

"How??" Her voice sounds astonished.

"Just tell him to come with you to our school tomorrow." I wisper as I heard footsteps. Please, don't be father.

"Okay?! But make it a good one okay? You know he is short temper." She advises me.

I lowered the volume of my phone incase if it is father.

"Okay." I end the call before even telling her goodbye. I am afraid.

I open the door slowly, and it is Isabella.

I breath a sigh of relief and back to my bed. I need to prepare myself for tomorrow, perhaps I can write a little letter in the bouquet, it will help.

I can't find words, I am not good at describing what I want to say. Probably searching will help.

***

After a whole day; searching on the internet for a good speech to soften him, I finally managed to make a good one and added some sentences from me; from my heart, my mind. That I really want to tell him.

I finally.....I finally confessed my love for him. I tried to speak up several times but this is the first time I manage to do it, I succeed.... I put all my effort in this card hopefully he will like it.

I am really tired, now I can finally sleep peacefully.

******

I got the bouquet, the card and prepared everything. The only thing that is still missing is him. I keep waiting for him and Leo to come, I have hope that this will probably change him.

I sit with my head facing the floor under me and the bouquet is still in my hands, I should call Leonor to know where are they. I will text her.

'Where are both of you Leonor?'

'We are on our way, give us just five more minutes.'

I wait more five minutes and then she shows up, and Mason is behind her. He doesn't seem happy, as always. I am going to turn this frown to a smile.

Lucy keeps looking at him as he is approaching to me; behind Leo, he is following her.

"Hi hottie." She speaks but he ignores her. "Are you in love with me?" She stops him and says to him.

"Yes..." He says and I feel my heart drops to my toe, he loves her?  "If I am in love with you I will be in love with a toad.....no wait being in love with a toad is better." He continues and leave her behind.

I try to keep the laughter and I manage to do it. I am still sitting on the bench, I stand up and go to his direction.

I gather my courage and push myself towards him to give him the bouquet, but instead I wave hi.

"Hi.....mmm.....I want to give you something." At last I split these words out.

"Hi whatever your name is, what is it?" His voice is so deep.

I hand him the bouquet with my head facing the floor. He takes it from me and I keep playing with my fingers, still haven't raise my head; I don't want my eyes to meet his.

"What the hell do you think I am?? Barbie?? You bought me a stupid bouquet with a dumb card!!" He shouts at me while throwing the bouquet away, and rolls his eyes at the last part of the sentence.

I can't speak I don't know why but all I feel now is.... is that my heart hurts and my eyes burns.....I was just trying to help..I tried to tell him that I love him but he made fun of my love.

"No of course not." I sop. "I just wanted to....make you kind.....I mean to soften your heart." I mess it up.

"And who gave you the right to try to do it.....do you want me to be like you." I begin to cry in silence, his words are so harsh; he is so cruel.

"Hey bro, I told her to help me that's all. Now stop shouting at her." Leonor comes and hits his shoulder.

I need to be alone, I don't want to be here.

I run to the bathroom. It is the best place where I can be alone.

I missed everything up, I am a disaster. Maybe if I just left him alone and didn't try to make him like.....me; a loser like me, weak, pitifull, unloved, without a personality and....and lonely.....maybe I should give up, it's just all in vain, But Leonor needs his love and caring...maybe another try won't be bad, but this time no lying or hiding something, I am gonna tell Leonor everything.

This isn't gonna be easy; try to soft someone's heart like him is really hard and maybe impossible.

I think he should taste his own medicine. He is cruel, I can be cruel, too. I am gonna show him how to treat me well, I won't let him be like my father; if he treats me bad I will be the baddie and show him how to be good or I will beat him as every time I got beaten from dad. Leonor deserves a brother better than this stupid, coward rat, who is afraid to show his emotions....or perhaps doesn't even have any.

I will show you Mason what I can do, you will wish to be like me, you loser.

I hate you, Mason. I hate you.  I hate the moment that I thought I loved you, I was a fool to think that one day you would be a kind person.. but I will keep trying, I am only doing this for Leonor.