I think I’m in love with you - [June 22nd, 2019]

I think I'm in love with you - Its how a relationship starts, ends, falls apart. I've never experienced a love based relationship, only family based. When I was younger I had crushes on so many people and would get that butterfly feeling in my stomach when i saw them. Now I just feel happy to see that they are still walking on this earth for another day. 

I've had friends who have seriously self harmed, thought of suicide, written notes for their family and friends. I don't want to see any of them leave this earth that way. 

I think I'm in love with you - is what i've thought to myself about another person, sure I thought more about it in grade 9, than i have been recently. Originally i thought i had found the one this year, but it turns out that they weren't the one. I've been thinking about another person, and i'm not sure how to feel about them. 

They won't ever read this, as they do not know about this account of mine, or this site really. I want to enjoy their company more - i wish i had another year… i wish i had more time.

I'm loosing many friends this year, graduating finally - but i feel empty. I have been feeling like this since grade 11 (two years ago). If i found someone to love - if the person knew i love them - then maybe i'd feel less empty, maybe id feel less alone, less left behind, less disconnected. 

I think I'm in love with you - is how this started. I think I'm in love with you - is how this ends. I think I'm in love with you - is what i want to say to you. I think I'm in love with you - is the only way i can express this. I think I'm in love with you - is my last thing i want to say to you before i leave. I think I'm in love with you - is my final word to you. I think I'm in love with you - is my heart reaching out to you - telling you that you make me feel loved, connected, together, and instead of empty - full. I think I'm in love with you - is the last thing i will say as I leave this amazing school, for the final time.