She lost her mind

[3rd POV : Komi]

That's a lie.

Komi was most of the time clueless and could sometimes be quite stupid as well when it came to dealing with people.

But she was not that clueless, she was just not that dumb.

She knew it was a lie.

Everything Yuito had said to her was a lie that seemed to come from his insatiable lust. The lust that was currently directed at her.

Komi did not actually love Yuito? She only liked him because of his good looks and her teenage hormones? She was only mistaking her fondness for him as a friend with romantic love?

Hahahaha. How ludicrous. 

She wished it was that simple.

She wished she only liked him. She wished she was only attracted to his good looks. She wished she only saw him as a good friend.

Maybe then it won't hurt this much. Maybe then she won't feel this horrible.

'I love you!!' she could only scream in her mind. And it was not only because she had trouble speaking this time, Yuito did not want to hear it.

He did not want her love.

Her heart tore itself apart in her chest just thinking about it. Love was so painful.

Love was so ugly

The worst thing about it all was the fact that it wasn't anyone's fault, it was entirely hers.

It was her, that stupidly fell in love with the boy who was nothing but kind to her and had never shown interest to her in a romantic way. It was also she who continued feeling this way after learning that he was already with someone else. And it was also she who decided to act on this feeling even though deep down she knew it wouldn't end well.

It was all her.

Love made her a horrible person. A horrible person who betrayed her best friend and loved someone she shouldn't, only to be rejected.

No one broke her heart. Her heart broke itself.

'How clumsy.' she could only laugh at herself. She was a fool, she was a clown.

On Yuito's part though, the boy was nothing but kind and caring to her. Even though it might not look like it from an outsider's perspective.

It might seem like he was lying to her and taking advantage of her feelings to have his way with her. But that could not have been further from the truth.

An outsider won't know that Komi was the one who seduced him. She had been doing so for a while now even though Yuito never really noticed it. And it only intensified when Marin was absent. 

So no, even when Yuito was using her body and his eyes looked at her like a piece of meat, she couldn't really blame him.

You can't fault a guy for eating meat shoved right in his face.

She had noticed it a long time ago, that Yuito was a really horny guy but wasn't all teenage boys like that? 

It must be remembered that a girl who was in love would do everything in her power to know about the boy she loved. She would know and gather everything about him, down to the most minute details.

That includes staring at him for an unhealthy amount of hours. Surfing through his social media accounts and observing the people he followed in hopes of finding out his type in girls. Finding out every song that he would hum when he was bored.

Guessing what he ate for breakfast by carefully smelling his breath during a conversation. Secretly checking his locker to know his clothes and shoe size. Finding out his favorite urinal in the school toilet, etc.

All the things that a normal girl in love would do. At least that's what she thought a normal girl in love do.

Anyways, because she was always so observant of Yuito and almost stared at him all the time during class, she naturally knew how he would get a boner at the most random time of the day.

She also knew that some days he was almost always hard. She had also seen him secretly taking glances at the girls in their class.

Yuito was a healthy teenage boy full of vigor she supposed.

Instead of being disgusted, she admired his self-control more than anything else. No matter what she did, it seemed to fly right past his head or he would either control himself.

Until now at least.

Now he was doing everything she imagined him doing to her and more. It felt way better than she could ever imagine.

Her usually shy and exclusive voice could not help but maon and sing to each of his touches. It was ecstasy.

The only problem was the fact that he wouldn't kiss her and wouldn't go all the way with her. He only touched and licked and allowed her to only touch and lick.

It seemed that he still had some self-control and morals. 

People might think that Komi might be happy that he was not going all the way, but people would be wrong.

Komi was not happy.

She wanted more, more of him.

She would've been absolutely aghast at her own thought if it was a day ago. Because even though she was making advances, she never wanted him to cheat on Marin. She was hoping something like he would like her back and break up with Marin and be with her.

But she didn't care anymore. 

She was hurting. She was hurt like never before.

Having no friends or being lonely could never compare to the pain she was feeling right now after getting rejected by Yuito.

His attempt at gaslighting her was only running salt in her wound.

Yes, he rejected her and it was not his fault.

He already had a girlfriend so it was natural for him to reject her love. It was foolish of her to even hope that he would reciprocate her feelings just because he was sexually aroused.

But it still hurts.

She was hurting in a way she could never put into words, and she was not coping well with the pain.

She lost her mind.

She no longer cared about her best friend Marin, she no longer cared about how wrong being intimate with someone with a partner was - not that she cared that much before anyway as she still seduced him, but they were all gone now.

Right now, she only wanted him.

He won't give himself away but she wanted everything she could get her hands on. She wanted to steal anything she could.

From his touch, his lust, his pleasure, his time, his attention, his lips. Everything, she wanted everything she could take.

Komi was currently in excruciating pain and unparalleled pleasure at the same time.

Her heart cried in pain while her body screamed in pleasure.

She had lost her mind.

.

.

.

Two people intertwined in that room that day. Each one of them were not themselves at the moment.

Both had lost their mind for different reasons.

They ignored everything in the world, even their morals and conscience as they enjoyed each other's body on that bed.

The only question was how both of them would react after this episode came to an end and both regained clarity.

How would they deal with what happened?

And what would change because of this incident?

Would it ever be the same again? Was this the beginning of a tragedy?

Or is it the beginning of another love story?

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[Img : Komi, spicy]