My Vent

.. I hurt you I played you,

But why do I feel the same?

I didn't mean to be the one to break you, i couldn't be your forever,

I never wanted to say no, I only did cuz I was told.

I didn't listen to my self and i let my self go.

I betrayed the one happiness and now they're crying in silence.

I have no chance in asking them to forgive me, I was in the wrong but blaming went all on them.

Now I am pointing fingers to my self, I can feel the reassurance that Im not worthy of someone else.

Fingers were pointed to you while I trusted someone else.

Now they lie to my face, and I act as if it didn't hurt.

Breaking me to piece's while I stay cheered up.

I know your doing the same while I see you smiling in the corridor, trying to hide away the pain.

I wish I could be better, I wish you to be stronger.

I never meant to hurt you, we just went the wrong way.

Losing you was losing a part of me, I truly can't find another piece.

I neglected you in the words of others.

I realized when it came to you I was willing to lose all self respect.

Thought as if, neglecting you would help me find peace, I was wrong those were the imaginary lies of the people I trusted.

Hasn't been I night I haven't thought of you, thought of regrets.

Though i know i hurt you, is there a door? A small crack? I can creep through? Maybe an entrance there for me to leave a note? In hopes to be yours again? These goes to both of you.

We weren't more than friends, yet I miss your loss like you were me.

Like they say "friends are one soul in two bodies"...

Knowing you I could assure that statement hit more than anything.

Though.. If I could ask for one wish it would be for you to read this..