May I have a one on one with you?

...I feel confused in my back of my head in the depth of my chest it feels numb I don't remember the last time I felt my heart hurt or be happy or my mind reacted to something, all it felt is empty, as my mind wondered on and on about what I have went through.. I hurt someones heart by letting them go. I hurt them to an extent I can't explain. I made them have a downfall, they mentally shut themselves and physically played with themselves. they made up excuses to see the wrong in a bright light, and now all that's left of them is a chaotic mind, a resent less heart, a soul that compromises to extents it's a suffering for others to see. The one they left was.... themselves, for the sake of someone's time, enjoyment, and to care. I made their problems mine, and I became my biggest problem. I may have got it all wrong but all to say is..

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tears don't lie when they dribble down ones eyes, and yet they smile through them. It hurts like a million shattered little glass stuck in ones body. By time they take them out, but by time some are already engraved within one's skin as they heal.

-forever