Kabanata 20

You were never like this

"You guys are fighting again?" tanong ni Gale after I sent her Riley's response to my kakulitan. Nasa bahay lang ako at walang planong gawin aalis din kasi ako bukas to spend summer with Papa, kausap ko lang si Riley kanina we had a small fight, flirty fight if I tell you.

"It's nothing kinukulit ko lang siya lumabas ayaw naman niya" I laughed while telling her "Oo tapos inuungkat mo pa past fights niyo, ikaw talaga malakas din tama mo eh" tinawanan ko nalang "Masaya kasi asarin to si Riley aalis na ako hindi pa kami nagkikita" I'm just like this because I'm gonna miss him kahit na dalawang linggo lang naman ako sa Manila.

"Wag mo na awayin aalis ka na lang inaaway mo pa"

"Oo na pagseselosin ko nalang, tutal he barely gets jealous" I laughed habang nirereplyan si Riley. Good thing Riley is always calm pag kinukulit ko siya maybe that's his nature after all hindi to magagalit sakin. I don't know why I suddenly wanted to bug him about small things like now we are talking about going on dates, sabi ko kumain kami ng pizza.

Riley hates pizza, but i can always make him eat it when his with me. "We'll go out and eat as much pizza as you want pagbalik mo dito baby" I smiled at the thought of seeing him after 2 weeks.

"Hindi mo naman ako mamimiss eh"

"Mamimiss kita, walang nag aaya sakin gumala ng 2 weeks" natawa ako he's trying to cut me off ramdam niyang aawayin ko na naman siya. "You have Yra here, idate mo"

"You know I don't like her" i'm laughing so hard right now, tama yan Riley your mine alone. "While I have Peter, that guy still likes me, he can't move on" medyo ang tagal magreply ni Riley doon sa part nayun "Depende sayo kung ipagpapalit mo ko" he told me

"No, loyal ako Riley"

"Ako din naman" he replied, my jaw dropped. Minsan lang sumakay sa mga pang aasar ko to si Riley kaya nagulat ako sa mga sinasabi niya sakin ngayon he is either cold and sarcastic minsan lang siya ganito kaya susulitin ko na. "I'm shocked" I told him him being clueless asked me why "Wala nagulat lang ako sa sinabi mo" natawa nalang siya.

I stopped teasing him at pinagusapan nalang namin buong araw ang mga gagawin namin pagbalik ko. Nang mag gabi na he was slow in replying it's almost 10 pm time of our bedtime kaya nag good bye na ako sakanya he told me na nasa labas daw sila nagdidinner kaya mauna na daw kao matulog, I said okay and Goodnight.

That was days ago, after that night gumising akong walang reply ni Riley. Iniisip ko maybe he's still sleeping but it's been two days and I'm worried sinabihan ko agad sila Erin at Gale. Gale is mad at this point, "You know what i block mo na si Riley ng matakot" I'm seriously worried he's not like this laki ng takot non na magagalit ako sakanya, then I remembered he told me ipapagawa niya phone niya ng summer "Nasira nga pala phone niya he told me before na baka ipagawa nila yun Gale baka yun lang yun" Gale laughed sarcastically.

"Ganun sana pero online siya kanina Elle and you chatted him pero hindi ka lang pinansin, wag kang tanga Elle this is not you" I know i'm being dumb at this point pero it's Riley I trust him baka busy lang siya. "Don't ever chat him again, know your worth Elle" I agreed. Umabot kila Nathan na hindi na ako kinakausap ni Riley it's been a week and I blocked and unblocked him already nag oonline din ito pero hindi niya talaga ako nirereplyan.

"Want me to talk to him Elle? yung gagong iyon kakausapin ko hindi pwedeng ganito kayo" inis na sabi ni Nathan, I'm thankful natinutulungan kao contakin ni Nathan si Riley. "He's ignoring me for a week now binilhan ko pamandin ng regalo gagauhin lang pala ako" I told him "Pumunta kao kahapon sakanila pero nag out of town daw sabi ng pinsan niya" I get it he ignores me pero bakit? the last time we talked oo nag away kami pero we ended the day okay. Or so I thought.

Second week ko na dito sa manila, I blocked Riley hindi na ako nasasaktan eh, I'm not that stupid pagmumukhain ko bang tanga sarili ko syempre hindi, galit ako galit na galit ako kay Riley. I saw Jane's insta story and guess what nasa manila din sila ni Riley in a hotel having dinner.

I sent the screenshot to our group chat, last week pa kinick ng friends namin si Riley everyone in our circle is mad at him. "Look at that bitch sabi na nga ba eh may kinalaman dito si Jane" sabi ni Gale. "I talked to her, nung tinanong niya daw si Riley tungkol sakin ayaw daw ako pagusapan nito" I told our friends. "Seriously what the fuck is his problem?" sabi ni Xiara.

"Ang sabihin niya kamo inutusan na naman niya si Riley sure talaga ako may tinatago yan si Jane eh" Gale is fuming mad habang nagiisip ako ng mga posibleng dahilan kung bakit ginagawa akong tanag ni Riley. "I asked Nathan pero iniiwasan ata ni Riley talaga pag ako ang pinaguusapan." I told them.

"Babe, I hope your okay. Let Riley fuck off you deserve better" Erin told me everyone agreed. "I know, thank you guys andito kayo para makinig sakin" I told tyem my friends have been supportive to me all along sila nalang ang meron ako, after all this bullshit Riley decides on. Wala na akong pake kung gawin niya to sakin ang akin lang, bakit? Bakit niya to ginawa?

Why ignore me all of a sudden na para bang hindi siya yung unang gumulo sa buhay ko? Aalis nalang siya ng ganun walang paalam at dahilan gusto niya lang? What does he even expect me to think na okay lang lahat to? What does he think I will do after this? Habulin siya? beg for him? magalit at ilabas sakanya lahat yun? He should have known better, I will never let myself down, kilala niya ako. Hindi ako tanga kahit na sakanya pa.

I spent my days thinking for a goddamn reason why he did this, masakit? Oo pero mas lamang ang galit ko sa ngayon. I kept on cursing his name. Babawian ko siya, he can never win in this. I won't let him just treat me like this.