Chapter 7 - Burning memories

Lucian watched his house landscape with blank mind while sit on his king size bed. He's smoking; silent. It's Thursday night, and it's raining heavily. The sounds of the rain felt like a therapy chant for Lucian to calm down. He blew the smoke away as he remembered the memories a few years ago.

The most painful memory ever…

Few years ago….

Yuu and his roommates was tidying up their room together. It's the usual schedule that they need to follow at Jyuu's orphanage. He was cleaning the table, the others was sweeping the room, some cleaning the windows and so on. He lived there since he was a baby, he didn't know who his parents is but still living at orphanage not so bad as they took care of him. Then, their caretaker, Masamune came, together with a young boy.

"Everybody please gather here. I want to introduce you to someone."

The kids then gather in front of Masamune and the other.

"I want to introduce your new roommate, his name is Haruki kun. He will live with us starting today. Everybody please be friends with him okay?"

The kids replied back okay like obedient children. They introduced themselves to Haruki including Yuu. Yuu was a very friendly kid. He made friends easily even with someone who didn't talk much, and that's how Haruki can be friends with him.

They became best friends almost immediately.

And time goes by, Yuu already 16 years old and Haruki was 18.

It's Christmas, there were not so many people at Jyuu orphanage. Some of them went back to their home as there were certain parents sent their kids there because they were poor. In coincidence, all Haruki and Yuu's roommates went home; leaving only two of them alone.

"It's lonely, they still have their families and relatives to celebrate Christmas; unlike us." Yuu said with a sad tone. Haruki held the other's hand.

"Don't be sad, you can celebrate Christmas with me." He smiled back. Yuu smiled back.

"You know, I already 18, soon I will be 19, I wanted to leave here, finding a job and I want to take you with me; far from here." Haruki kissed Yuu's hand, "I wanted to say this for so long, I lo-" before he could finish his words, Yuu already kissed his lips. He was surprised but he kissed back his love one.

"Since when you like me?" Yuu asked.

"Since we started to become friends and when I realized I started to like you more than friends. I was scared to tell you about this. You said it was weird when I said I wanted to make you as my wife before."

"That you said if I was a girl."

"It doesn't matter to me now, even if you're a man, I still gonna love you. No matter how much you changed, this love wouldn't fade away. You're someone so important in my life after my late mum. Honestly, I really wanted to kill myself before but you saved me… I can't live without you." He hugged Yuu, sobbing. Yuu hugged him back.

"I love you too. I'm scared to tell you, because we're both men. But hearing you like me back makes me happy. Even though we love each other, but people would think we are weird."

"I know, it's the best we hide about this, so that they wouldn't hurt us. No, I'm ok if they hurt me but not sure. I will protect you with my life." Haruki made a statement.

"It's not fair if only you get hurt. It's not fair too we have to hide about our relationship."

"I know, the world is cruel. But it's okay, as long we held each other's hands.

He looked at Yuu and slowly kissed the other's soft lips. The kisses slowly became intoxicated, they laid down on the bed. Haruki started to touch his lover's body. Yuu moaned, as he felt so hot when he's being touched. It makes both of them wanting more and more; it wasn't enough for them. Both of them helped pleasuring each other. Then, Haruki's entered into his lover's most sensitive part, it's painful yet it made Yuu felt the ultimate pleasure, doing with someone he's love was a whole brand new experience for him. He felt so addictive with the pleasure.

That night, two of them made love; the night they both lost their virginity.

And that night also was a turning point of their life; from good to worse.

Even though it's a memories Lucian wanted to forget, but his body felt burning hot as he remembered how Haruki made love with him. It's been a long time since he felt this way. Without he even realizing, he started to touch himself up to lower part. He moaned louder as he was into pleasuring himself. He never did this even after he slept with other men, he supposed not feeling anything when Haruki did him. Is this because he still wanted to embrace by Haruki?

"No, there's no way… Hnn.." As he speed his hand stroking that part, a milky white substances came out, making him moaned so loud.

"Shit… What you have done to me Haruki?" He looked his sticky hand.

Meanwhile….

"Young master Haruki, what makes you like that Lucian guy the most? I'm curious." Eris asked while she wrote her report.

"It's weird to hear you called me young master Haruki."

"Well, it's preparation for the ceremony."

"Heh suit yourself."

"So, what's your answer?"

"Everything."

"Can you please elaborate? I don't get it because I heard he's not nice at all, plus like I said before, he's a man."

"Humans wore a mask, Eris. Everybody got it. There's a lot of masks they have. They choose what they wanted; to present their fake self to the world. Same as Lucian, he wore a lot of fake masks because he was hurt so badly, so that's why the one you saw and knew is not him. But even so, that doesn't bother me at all. I told him before; even if he's a girl, I still gonna love him. No matter how much you changed, this love won't fade away." Haruki explained while drank his coffee. Eris looked at her boss, as she didn't understand it.

"I guess I won't understand about love at all since I am an assassin after all. Assassin didn't love, they killed."

"I believe everyone has love inside themselves, no matter who they are. Wait I guess someone won't"

"Who? Me?" Eris asked.

"No, my father." As Haruki mentioned about his father, his fingers pressed the cup handle till it gets broken.

"You broke the cup. I guess you couldn't wait for that ceremony then."

"Of course; I've waited so long to gain his trust, at least ten percent."

"Well that's something to be proud of." She chuckled.

"Anyway, tell that person to standby. I might need his help after all."