Soul searching and the monsters in human skin

When I wake back up from the helicopter ride I'm met with the pilot screaming at me to get up . I yawn and say are there he says we are there so get up . I get up and jump out of the helicopter where I soon start walking towards the building .I make my way through the building until I'm in front of a door labeled head substantive commanders office .

I know pretty long but why should I exactly care right now I have a lot of soul searching to do a lot of it . I grip my hand on the doorknob and turn I look at my comfy chair and my desk . I smile and I start walking towards it .

I sit down in my chair I connect my fingers together and I close my eyes . I just start thinking back on my emotions thoughts and all of the stuff I have done so far with the power of the system . When I hear the system say host I guess your confused about your emotions yes .

I say yes system I really am confused about all of this . I recently just hit level 100 and I'm no seeking to hit an even higher level .

I say so system what do you think could help me I don't know exactly the system says . You have to deal with these thoughts and feelings on your own . Because the system starts to say but I interrupt cause you don't know much about how it feels to be human .

I then close my eyes once again as I stop thinking and I feel like I'm pulled inside my mind . I look around in the dark void and say where am I . When suddenly I start seeing pictures of memories that I've had but these are only recent .

I then start sinking back and I look at one of the memories and see me and Tiamat . I smile and keep sinking backwards moving through . I then see a memory of the goddess of blood when she had me kidnapped. And was nearly about to torture me when someone got in her way and saved me front that fate .

I just realized the people who have tortured me so far have been women . But I've already met with 3 gods so far the goddess of greed the goddess of blood and that squirrel . I don't remember what he said he was the god of and I don't know if he said if he was the god of anything .

But he then said that most gods and goddess did make races based off of their looks and bodies . So I guess he's the god of squirrels I don't really know if he is . I laugh then that's hilarious but seriously I got to start thinking . What exactly could this place be actually I'm being stupid . I think I already know what this place it's my dark mind almost as dark as my soul . I know edgy but so I'm in my brain not necessarily my brain I think but very close my mind .

So if ignore all of that let's think about why I did this in the first place what should I do . I'm a complete and utter mess my personality mood everything about me . As a person changes so quickly and so fast you would think I'm a girl on her period .

I don't know exactly what to do how do I wanna exactly act because of this . Should I act cold cruel brutal and all of those at different times . Or should I only use one of those personality's . And if I will use one then what should I pick .

What personality shall I choose for my new personality . I must gain a new personality and decide who I want to be .

Oh I think I forgot i tell out to my system and say system do you have any idea what's going on . The system says yes host it's actually a part of your evolution .cause even though your race as a demon and your rank says middle ranked demon even though it says that . Your really a pseudo ranked middle demon so .

Even though you have the tittle you don't have the amount of power one would have . So right now we will use your mind as a waiting area where you will explore . Your mind for 2 to three days until the evolution ends .

And be aware your body and soul will be ripped apart shredded and put back together into something new . So when you finally wake up it might hurt very much . Well I say if it's an evolution good thing I won't be having to do anything for a little while .

Perfect but why didn't you tell me earlier that something like this would happen . Oops oops is your excuse system .

You can not believe how annoyed I am about that response . You basically forced me into a coma for 2 to three days straight and oops is all you have to say .

I hate you system I hate you so much how could you system I say as I pout how could you . The system says if you can still pout like this that still means you have human emotions .

And so you have not become a true monster there are many types of monsters . Monsters who take children monsters who eat dreams monsters who feed on fear . Monsters who make your worst dreams or nightmares reality. Then the most disgusting and inhuman monsters of all humanity can be counted as this monster . But if your not talking about humans then the monsters who speak only in lies monsters like this are truly a nuisance they are much more cunning .

These monsters pose as human beings even though they have no understanding of how the human heart works . They eat even though they do not know what hunger feels like .

They study even though they have no interest in academic achievements . They seek out love and friends even though they do not how to love or feel companionship .

These monsters are truly despicable they are there opposite of humans . They do not know the experiences of hunger love or any emotion . They do not have an interest in academic achievement . They pose as human beings even though they do not know how it feels to be human .

These monsters throughout human history have been referred to as monsters in human skin . Devils demons all kinds of things but most humans just call this type monsters in human skin .

There have been many type of monsters like these monsters In human skin . But the thing is that these monsters in human skin truly are human .

And some actually monsters in human skin so it's hard to know which is monster and which is human . Humanity has all ways been greedy and has always seemed materials and food and all types of things . And when there not theirs they steal it go to war for it .

But humanity isn't perfect no creature in the entire planet is perfect . But even though these bad traits are in most humans . Not all humans succumb to this and many people very nice .

It just depends who it is not all humans are saints and not all humans are fiends . But humanity is a product of nature humanity is a race of imperfect but sometimes very kind beings .

A/n back in the early chapters when I said Jake Tiamat had fun time . I meant they hugged and cuddled kinda kissed not what you dirty minded readers are thinking.

Yeah but this was created during my hiatus so I might have released other chapters . Maybe not depends on if I'm lazy or not .