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[BL] Going Back All Over Again and Again

Kevin woke up in a hospital for the third time in his 17 years old body. He glanced at the mirror and saw his young and innocent face indifferently, the turn to looked at his younger brother that betrayed him on his last life. Then closed his eyes unwilling to live his days anymore. ... But once the sun rose up, he still opened his eyes just to see his childhood sweetheart already taken over by a stranger. Kevin : "..." Surrendering himself to fate, he closed his eyes again. But not even a minutes passed when he opened it again, because he heard a sound calling him from below his bed. "Meow~" He looked down to see his cat squatting down staring at him with it's big silver eyes. Then it opens its mouth. And unbelievably said a word. Ash : "Don't looked at that 'body stealing bitch', Kevin. I'm here!! Kevin : "..." He closed his eyes again, still can't believe his sweetheart turn into his cat... Worst of all... It was a male cat!! ... Ash : "It's fine Kevin. This way, I can top you whenever!" Kevin did not want to open his eyes at all! But he did not know when, but his cat suddenly turned into a big man and swiftly pushed him to bed. Ash : "It's fine Kevin. I won't be able to do this, of I'm still a girl. At least I'm taking initiative right~" And so, without opening his eyes, Kevin succumb to his fate and let his destiny follows that path that he failed to venture in from all his past lives. *** TRIGGER WARNING: ((PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!)) DEPRESSIVE CONTENT AND SOME DISTURBING SCENES AND NARRATIVE 。◕‿◕。

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Chapter 11 : Nightmare (6)*

Grasping a cell phone in hand, little Kevin hide inside the same wardrobe Ash first found Kevin before. He once again placed the phone in his ear, and heard the busy tune again.

Tut. Tut. Tut.

That sounds, little Kevin did not know how many times he heard it, but he kept on calling the same number hoping the other side pick up his call.

Ash on the other hand, sat beside Kevin, his anxiety was growing worst by the minute they spend inside this dark and constricted place.

He turned to looked at little Kevin who was busy making a call and called out loudly.

"Meow!"

But little Kevin did not look at him and just continue with what he was doing, as if he did not hear the big cat's loud meow.

Ash stared at the child anxiously. Little Kevin was still trying to make a call, his face was stoic, he looked calmed as he presses the screen of the phone. He patiently waits for the sounds in the phone to stop before making a call again.

But Ash knew, this child was not that calm as he looks. His hands were steady and his face was expressionless, but his eyes were shaking and is currently filled with fears.

'This was not the Kevin I knew.' he thought. It was the little Kevin. The Kevin Ash once found that was locked inside the same wardrobe. The helpless little Kevin, that looks frail and pitiful.

Ash was thinking about what happened. The Kevin Ash knew was always has that little smile plastered on his face. He was gentle and mature; he speaks softly and his manners and actions were always done elegantly.

But something happened suddenly, that he abruptly went back to sleep.

'And he said he was not scare anymore!'

So, Ash with a shaking silver eyes, watched the scared Kevin make phone calls repeatedly, as he ponders deeply of what happened several hours ago.

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"My mother will die today."

Ash flinched and looked at Kevin with his silver eyes. He knew little about it, Kevin's mother.

Kevin speaks little of his family, except for Adrianne, Ash never finds anyone who was closed to him. And before, Kevin told Ash that his mother died from a chronic disease when he was young. And apparently didn't remember much, even he didn't remember what his mother looked like. All he knew was that Adrian looked like his mother.

It was one of the reasons why, Ash always wanted to scratch Adrianne face whenever he saw him.

Then when Ash finally saw the rumored mother. He wanted to scream in protest.

'That jerk was not even an inch looked like their mother!'

Portrait of their mother hang all over the manor.

Their mother was a beauty. She has an innocent, with natural look. She has small face and big eyes, and plump soft and pink lips makes her looks pretty and charming.

But she was not someone who appeared to looked weak and wanted to be protected. Her long wavy scarlet hair make her look courageous and prideful, her eyes were colored brown, but it seems to sparkled like night sky, full of vitality and energy. Her skin was fair and white but it has a pinkish hue that turned redder specially in her face whenever she felt embarrassed and shy. She smiles brightly and she seems like a sun producing warm radiance.

A pretty energetic princess.

That was Ash first impression towards Kevin's mother when he saw some of her pictures in the wall. With just those pictures, Ash was able to deduced her character just by observing her expression on every photo.

At first Ash thought she looks familiar, and it turns out she was Kevin's mother.

If Ash could make a truthful comment, he will say that Kevin looks more like his mother than Adrianne did. If Kevin wears a wig with the same color and style of hair like his mother then he will surely, truly be his mother. It's just that, Kevin was more of a loner, and lean in softer side than being energetic and bright.

But right now, Ash can't make a decent and full comment just by watching the sight of Kevin's mother being brutally beaten and used like a s*x doll.

Ash actually has many questions. But the moment Kevin said that, all his questions were swallowed down his throat. He tried to speak out, he opened his mouth just to closed them again.

He apparently did not know what to say. He was speechless.

'Why did you know that your mother was going to die today? Did you see it? Didn't she die because she was ill?'

But what she was seeing threw all information he'd known before. It seems that he knew little of Kevin's life even though he was a reborn person.

Even in their last life, he knew nothing of what Kevin was doing.

His situation was helpless and he was disappointed and angry because he was repeatedly ignored and was not heard.

He lived for so long, longer than an average cat life, he had no one to turn to and no one to rely on. He watched Kevin destroyed himself every day. Ash desperately shouted and called but no one heard his voice.

He thought that he was alone and he was abandoned. Ash tried to find and looked up ways to understand the Kevin he knew nothing of. But he moved far too late.

Then he got another chance. Chance he never thought will appear, but when he saw Kevin…his word almost broke apart again. It was yet another Kevin. Different from the one he knew.

But it seems that he was mistaken.

He knew little and all he knew was just a sham. Ash just saw the surface and not the deeper part. Everything has a reason and right now, Kevin was trying to make it up to him.

He knew now. Ash didn't have to shout and called out desperately again. Kevin already knew who he was.

And for now, that was enough.

It was enough for now.

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Kevin and Ash remain in place for several hours, waiting for Alfred to finished.

Ash was attentively watching and listening like a student taking notes. He wanted to know fully well what is Kevin's past and wanted to share his burdens. And this was the best time to start on it.

This is one of Kevin's forgotten memories! And the memory he wanted to forget the most. Ash wanted to know how painful this memory is for a person like Kevin. Why did he want to forget and erased them? Of course, no one wanted bad, super bad memories. But Ash seriously wanted to know everything about this man.

However, Kevin, this little kid...

He was not watching them at all!

What painful memories!

He leisurely sat by the door, listening to his parents painful and erotic sounds like music that was terribly played. He played with Ash ears and tail with a soft smile drawn to his face. His eyes reflect the big cat's figure and he saw nothing else.

Now that he knew who was inside his cat's body, he did not even try to hide his emotions. He was acting possessively, his finger tangles with Ash grey fur as if he was thinking something dark.

'Should I just stay here? Though I'll be stuck in this memory forever. I don't mind though; I could make everything disappear living only the two of us.'

Then he saw the focused Ash moved. He pulled back from his dark thoughts and see what's happening.

The big cat shrieked a loud hissed. His claws were coming out and his tail was erected with his fur standing up.

Kevin could tell that he was angry, but why?

When he looked up, then he knew why.

Kevin's scum, trash father was already finished. He was now right in front of his child completely naked and his face was completely satisfied and satiated. He was no longer angry and was even looking at his son beaming with joy.

Alfred slowly opened the door wide as he looked down at his son, wanting him to witness what he had done and started to speak.

"Saw all that right? You should feel proud. You just witnessed one of the miracles of human bodies." He scoffed. "That's how I made you, you know. Just like that, I f*ck that sl*t for a week until she has you in her stomach. So, you should thank me for existing right now. I made you, so until you make yourself useful, don't ever think of appearing in front of me again."

Alfred went back inside without knowing or hearing any response from his child. He does not care at all, he even felt disgusted whenever he saw this son of his. This son of a b*tch really looked like his mother, and it was annoying him.

After he fully dressed himself, he exited the room ignoring the child that was still sitting there unmoving as if he did not see him at all.

Finally, the man was completely gone. Ash sighed a big relief. He wanted to check Kevin immediately, since he saw him unmoving even until his bastard father went out and disappeared.

Ash saw Kevin stoically unmoving. His gaze pointed in a specific location and he was staring at that direction unblinking.

Intrigue, Ash followed where Kevin was looking at and he was shocked. He stiffened up, cold air creep in from his head to his tail.

Dark eyes. Extremely dark and gloomy eyes looked at them unblinking. Those eyes were dull, it doesn't reflect anything and Ash even doubted if that eyes were looking at them. But those eyes were surely pointed at them.

Those dead eyes that looks extremely tired. Ash knew that kind of eyes. He saw that before.

The same eyes. Brown eyes that look totally black.

Ash squinted his silver eyes. He saw a woman, a broken woman. Her face was pale, full of bruises and tear marks. Her mouth was agape with saliva mix with blood dripping down from the corner. Her naked body looks awful, her arms lay limply on the bed. Her hands hang lifelessly at the edge of the bed, her leg was still spread wide.

She was completely used. Her body was covered with suspicious white liquid and was filled with wounds and bruises.

Ash was now certain. He now knows why they said she died with an illness.

He knew now.

Her eyes. Ash was very familiar with them. Those dark eyes, she has seen it before.

It was the same eyes.

The same eyes Kevin has before he died.

sorry, I haven't had updated for so long.

I was seduced by TCF, and I read it all over gain to the top.

fuhaa~ it was so good. Cale was the best!! I wish it was a bl though. although there's many fanfic, it was still the best if the author will write Cale's fated pair.

sigh~

oh right. I was reading 'No Time' too. though I still yet to finished all remaining updated chapters. since you know. this reader is so poor, I need to wait for free tickets Everytime.

Check it out fellow readers. It has one of novel I read with unique plot. Though I still don't have any positive feeling about ML. Check it out of you like. I bet you'll like it too..

Well, anyway. Here for the update!

Thanks for reading!!!

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