14. Lizard or dragon

My whole body feels heavy, my heads spinning. I had never felt this dizzy and confused before. I try to lift my heavy body, leaning on my right elbow.

'What's this…? Surely I'm intoxicated but somehow I don't dislike this feeling at all. My headache is gone and all the screaming voices in my head seem to have disappeared.'

My vision is blurry and everything around me is foreign, but I feel so at ease…

Thinking about all those restless nights, tears well up in my eyes.

'this feeling…I shall never forget…'

A beam of light enters the dark room, as if informing me of a savior's entrance. I can make up the number of people who had entered the room but I couldn't distinguish any of their faces. They all seemed like faceless shadows to me.

Two people who were walking in front whisper something, then one of them gets closer and puts his hand on my head.

A white/yellowish light and a warm sensation is all I can feel, not even able to lift my head.

Then suddenly the pain came back…the darkness I felt deep in my soul and the echoing screams of countless lives I had taken without a second thought…

"What…? What did you do to me you bastard?!"

Scarlets voice trembles in anger and hatred. The tears she had tried so hard to hold back turned into blood dripping out like a red river on the snowy mountains of her cheecks. A truly terrifying work of art.

"Why would you do this to me?! Why did you give me a moment of relief only to take it back right away?!"

She kept shouting like a mad woman till the same person put her to sleep again. Her words made no sense to anyone, but one thing for sure, was that its best to keep her intoxicated for now.

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I wake up in the middle of the night. My throat feels dry after all those yelling in my nightmares.

It's not the first time I wake up like this… Scarlets memories are too much to handle all at once. There are nights when I can't sleep at all but have no other choice but to keep trying to do so in order to get used to and adapt this world as soon as possible, to complete the mission she gave me. Even if there's no guarantee of me going back to my world, it doesn't really matter anymore. Somehow I feel indebted to all these people who have come to exist out of my boredom and wild imagination. I owe them a happy ending. How I will achieve that happy ending, I do not know yet. Is the happy ending scarlet wants from me a healthy and mentally stable mother-son relationship? And Theo… Where does he stand in this story?

All I remember writing about Theodore was his charm and his unrequired/obsessive love for scarlet. although thinking back at her memories… there's no way scarlet would simply marry him for revenge…

She combined her powers with him to fight against her ex-husband but I didn't really give my explanation of how that came to be.

Right…The drugs… The relief I felt as scarlet a few moments ago is still very vivid… Seems like the gaps in my story have filled themselves. How amusing.

My eyes feel heavy and slowly close under the pure moon light.

The sound of fire cracks? the bed feels comfy and warm…is this some sort of heaven or just another memory…?

My vision is back to normal but I still feel drowsy.

'How long did I sleep for?'

*Sigh*

'When was the last time I slept that well?'

"You're awake"

The man who made the teleportation magic circle was sitting next to the fire place, gently looking at me.

'This time his golden eyes reminded me of those of the dragons. Which side of him is the real one? The sly golden lizard or a charismatic yet gentle dragon? '

I raise my hand to rob my eyes so I could see him clearly, yet I find myself being chained by magic restriction devices.

"I'm sorry to put you in such a state however it has come to my notice that you can act quite rashly…well, one could say aggressive even…I ask for your understanding"

I can sense a hint of regret in his eyes. Considering how he has just helped the queen of a…no a wanted criminal escape… Is he wondering if he should sell me out?

'I can't have him doubt his decision now… I must show him how our deal is still on!'

"My apologies for my prior actions, it seems like I've troubled my allay from the very start."

'We're in this together don't be foolish enough to even think you can walk out of this unscratched.'

Sitting next to the fire place has given his eyes an orange tone. I might have imagined that but his eyes had a shine, like a beast waiting for its prey to give up struggling.

"Of course. Now that I know my precious guest is alright I can finally rest easily. "

With a snap of his finger the restrains disappear.

"Then I shall let you get some rest and adapt to your new place. We can talk more about our "deal" in the morning."

He holds my hand to give it a kiss like a gentleman should, but the very touch of a man made my stomach twist. I unconsciously yank my hand out- something that often pissed Fredrick off- yet he smiled at me with an amused look on his face.

"Then I shall see you tomorrow."

Only after he left I realized how he had been addressing me informally as "you".