Endings

"I think it time to close the curtain and let go" Danny said, I look at him wondering, who talks like that, I felt like my heart was being torn to shred, I adjusted my self, and held my head up high, I refuse to let him see me cry, "I hope we can still be friends" I heard myself saying, I was wondering where the strength came from, he looked devasted, but I knew he was only pretending, he had to keep the appearance, of being hurt too, I knew him all too well, after all we had being dating for, 5 years and 11months 26 days, I stood up and motioned for a hug, he wasn't expecting the reaction he was getting from me, he was hoping I would cry and beg him like I usually did, but like they say" when the pain gets too unbearable, death becomes a blessing" I had been living in hell for the past couple of weeks, the break up was a blessing, I walked out of the restaurant, and someone bumped into me, "I am sorry, I said even though, I had done nothing wrong, I looked down and saw a petite girl, staring angrily at me," are you trying to crush me with your big body" she said angrily, I apologized again and walked to the road, it was dark outside, I looked at my phone screen and it was 9:30pm, I couldn't go home cause Danny and I lived together, and I had left my purse at home to meet him in the restaurant, I was calm outside, but inside my heart was shattered, *ring, ring*, "please pick up and be at home, hello Prisca, are you home? "I asked," yeah I am "she replied " I am on my way" I said, "are you okay, is something wrong" she asked "I'll tell you when I get there" I ended the call and took the long way to her house, i walked on auto pilot, I got to her apartment 30 minutes later, she was outside waiting for me, as soon as she saw my face, she, hugged me and the tears, which I had been holding in fell, I cried as she took me inside, "Prisca, Danny broke up with me," I said wailing, she let me cry, when I calmed down, she said, "will you eat noodles, let me prepare some for you", I burst into laughter, because she couldn't cook to save her own life, " don't worry, I'll cook, all this crying has made me hungry" I said, "watching you cry, has made me hungry too" she said, we both laughed. When we had finished eating, she asked "babe, tell me what happened, why did he Break up, I thought you guys were good,". I looked at her and smiled sadly, "we have been having issues, for about a month now, remember, when I told you about a girl that was always calling him in the night," she nodded "well I confronted him about it two weeks ago, and would you believe he, got angry and stopped talking to me, he said I was insecure, I told him he was giving me reasons to be insecure" I paused, thinking back the signs well all there, why didn't I see it, the late nights, him getting angry for no reason, and criticising everything I did, the insults, fresh tears started spilling out, "Prisca, five years, I cut off all my male friends, for him, because he was feeling insecure, I supported him, I was faithful to him, I was committed to him, I gave him everything, Prisca, Everything, and guess what he said, that I was not good enough to show to mama, " damn it hurt so much, it hurts, I kept on crying, till I passed out, when I woke up it was 2am, Prisca was asleep, I picked up my phone, and decided to watch Anime, *ping* a WhatsApp message popped on my screen, it was a message from Jenna, my partner, I clicked on it, it was a photo of Danny holding hands and smiling with a pretty girl, I zoomed in on the photo, it was the rude petite girl, I was shocked, cause Danny said he didn't do PDA, apparently he did, he just didn't want to do it with me , my self esteem took another blow, I closed my eyes and tried to think of happy thoughts, I quickly removed the message and went on to watch the anime that always made me laugh, Inuyasha, and soon enough I was laughing and crying at the same time because Inuyasha was hurting Kagome, i remembered I had a client coming over to try out cakes for her wedding tomorrow, and Jenna would not be happy if I screw it up.