Bad News - Ella POV

I woke Monday morning in complete bliss mixed with a little pain. Between my legs were achy and my muscles were sore all over my body. My mouth and throat hurt the worse though. Why did last night feel so incredible, but then the next morning have to feel like crap.

I rolled to my side watching the empty pillow next to me. I could see Eros dark blonde hair and forest eyes watching my body in hunger. The only difference between the real Eros and the one I was imagining right now is that my fantasy boy also had love in those dark lustful eyes.

I sighed rolling onto my back. What was I doing? I know this will end and I will be heart broken. For some reason my body just didn't care. I wanted to feel all the ways I knew he could make me explode.

Thinking about my naked body on his face as he slurped every drop of my soul was making me itch to have him again. I probably looked like a fool, but in my head I saw a sexy woman riding out an unbelievable high over a man that I wanted and seemed to want me just as bad.

I smiled thinking how I was at his feet. Everything inside my body was nervous and uncomfortable but it was also buzzing in excitement and curiosity. Every time he spoke to me it set my body at ease and pushed me further. I had thought about taking Eros like that before. I usually stop my thoughts before they got too naughty though. Now that I knew exactly what it felt like to pleasure him that way it was on a constant replay.

As I showered, taking my time to wash every part of my body, I thought back to how sexy I felt losing myself to him.

By the time I made it to school I decided I would let this run it's course. Who I was kidding anyways? There was no way Eros would demand my body and I would be able to say no. I wanted him and he wanted me, just not in all the same ways.

For now I could just let go of my insecurities and feel the pleasure he gave me, even if I wanted more. I wasn't stupid. I knew he wouldn't give me more and I also knew if I said stop he would. When I thought about him never touching me it made my heart sink. If I can just remember what this means then I won't get hurt too bad.

After two days went by and I didn't see even a glimpse of him I realized how stupid everything I thought was. It wasn't my fault though. I never been intimate with a guy and never dated. How was I supposed to know what this meant? Eros got what he wanted and had no intentions of coming back for more.

"Hey!"

I jumped looking up quickly about to run into a boy. I looked up to his hair titling my head.

"Pretty!" I smiled to the boy I almost bumped right into.

"What?" He looked at me weird knocking my sense back to reality.

"Sorry." I giggled. "I like your hair. It's pretty, a rainbow."

The boy smiled wide at me then grabbed my waist in his hands. This escalated fast. I really need to learn how to talk to people.

"You are fucking adorable!" The boy with short hair colored like a rainbow smiled wide as he spoke with amusement in his voice. I saw his tongue ring slide over his lips and I stared at it intently. I think I like that!

"Uh, thanks." I wiggled my hips and he let me go.

"Sorry, I just want to swing you around like a little doll. I don't think I've seen anything so cute before." He teased running his finger over my cheek. This got weird and the mention of doll had me blushing remembering how Eros called me his doll.

"I need to get to class." My thumb shot behind me and I turned and walked away. This is why I have no friends.

"Wait up! I'll walk with you. Dylan!" He jogged next to me to catch up and fell in step to me.

"Ella, it's nice to meet you." I smiled at him. Maybe we could be friends.

"God, you're cute." He chuckled making me blush.

I just introduced myself. What was cute about that?

We walked side by side all the way to my art class and actually talked like normal people. I was so excited I made a friend and completely forgot about my dilemma with Eros. Ok, not completely forgot, but Dylan was a good distraction. He was a cute boy, with rainbow hair, lip ring, and tall body toned like a runner. Which made sense since he was on the track team at college.

He was a little rough around the edges, cursed a lot, and was very blunt. He never made fun of me though and that in itself was not normal for me. Once we said bye I smiled like an idiot walking into class. I made a friend and didn't do anything stupid. I have such low expectations for myself.

Once class let out I began walking to my car seeing Dylan talking to a bunch of other kids. One of the girls I remembered from freshman year. She wanted me to come to Seth's party but dropped me for being too boring. If she only knew how creepy Seth was to me though.

Dylan had black jeans and black shirt play fighting with one of his friends. His arms were muscular and I saw the reaper tattoo he had on his forearm peaking out as he threw a punch to the boys stomach. I shook my head smiling. They all seemed to be close and it made a small part of me jealous I never had that.

I looked away knowing not to go over and say hi. That would definitely make me a weirdo and probably embarrass Dylan. I was use to people talking to me privately then ignoring me the second their friends were around.

"Ella!" Dylan called out making me stop in my tracks. He stood against a black truck smoking a cigarette with his eyes trained on me.

"Hi!" I shyly waved then kept walking. That must of looked so stupid of me.

"Come over here, Ella!"

I took a deep breath trying to hid it as I walked his way. As I did I saw the man I really wanted standing in the distance. Eros! I bit my lip raking my eyes over his jeans and green t-shirt. His dark blonde hair was hanging over his forehead and his eyes were on me. God, I want him to take me right now.

I walked towards Dylan imagining Eros walking to me. He would grab my hand and take me to his car and drive straight to his house. The second we got in his bedroom he would push me on his bed and just rip my clothes...

"Hey!" Dylan's hands came to my shoulders stopping me from walking right into him.

"Hey! Sorry." I was a total freak.

"You know Eros." He smiled knowing how I just totally zoned out watching him.

"Not really. He's my neighbor." I did know him though. I knew every part of his body but he wasn't mine.

"You're neighbors with Eros DeClare." One of the girls looked at me stunned.

"Yeah. We don't talk much though so it isn't as exciting as it seems." I looked at Shannon. The girl that was my friend for a few weeks then told me what a boring prude I was. She didn't seem to remember me though.

"I would love to be his neighbor." She bit her lip staring at him. I shook my head at her. She was gorgeous, tall, lean with dark skin, and long braided hair.

"He is definitely fuckable but I doubt he would let me suck that monster cock I hear he has." Dylan said making my eyes widened. Rainbow hair probably should had tip me off he was gay. No! That's profiling. I was right not to assume. I smiled to myself and Dylan looked at me weird. Yeah, I had inner monologue on constantly. It's to be expected when you have no friends.

"Oh!" Was all that came out my mouth. I was instantly uncomfortable.

"Relax Ella. I like men and women, preferably one of each at the same time. It's just sex, don't have a heart attack." Dylan chuckled at me as I got my breathing under control. Why was I such a freak? Everyone had sex, it wasn't something I should be hyperventilating over.

"I'm ok, just shocked. You're very blunt." I said.

"And you're adorable." He flicked his finger under my chin making me blush. God this was weird. Maybe I wasn't meant to have any friends because I didn't understand how to be around people.

"I have another class in an hour and need to get some food. It was good to see you." I waved to Dylan bye and walked away. I couldn't make out what any of them said but I heard them laughing. I assumed it was at me. I was usually the butt of everyone's joke in this city. My eyes looked Eros' body up and down one last time. God, the things I wanted him to do to me.

Then he nodded his head for me to come to him. I quickly looked behind me. Was there someone else here? Nope, no one even close to me. I played with my car keys just staring at him.

"Ella, I called you to come to me." He spoke rough as I just stared at him. He never just came over and talked to me. Not in public at least.

"I was confused." I said quickly.

"You're so weird." He shook his head at me.

"I've always been this way, Eros. Shouldn't really surprise you anymore." I looked down biting the inside of my cheek. I preferred fantasying about how he would be with me than to actually have him here acting like I was an annoying child.

"Yes, you have. Why were you talking to Dylan?" He gave me a little smirk but there was mostly anger behind his eyes.

"I almost ran into him before, and right now. We were just saying hi."

"Stay away from him. If you think Seth is bad, Dylan makes him look like a fucking saint."

My eyes looked up to Eros as I smiled wide. "Are you jealous or trying to protect me?" Where this boldness was coming from I had no idea.

"I spend way too much time protecting you. Listen or I'll make you." His words were of annoyance to me, but he was actually being protective of me. Why did he even care?

"Maybe you can spend that time with me in better ways." I bit my bottom lip and his eyes went straight to it. He licked his then meet my eyes again. The sexual tension between us was so thick you could cut it with a dull knife.

"Be good for me and listen, Ella. Stay away from Dylan. He is bad news ." So many ways I wanted to be good for him. The last part didn't even register with me I just wanted him.

"And if I don't." I teased leaning against my car with my arms folded.

He stepped closer. "If you don't then I'll teach you how to behave. You won't like it, Ella."

"Why do you assume you know what I want?"

This time he smiled at me as his lips went to my ear. "Because I do. Right now your body is begging for me to touch you, your greedy little pussy is dripping for my attention, and you want me to destroy you until you can't walk." His finger teased circles around my thighs inching closer to my core. "But I will do only that, little Ella. I'll take everything you give me and give you nothing in return. You don't want me to just use this body. Do you?" He spoke confidently but I knew Eros. Every slight change in his tone I could decipher like I was the key to his puzzle. He wanted to know if I would let him take me with no strings attached.

"And if that is exactly what I want. Would take me? Destroy me?" I whispered back with hard breaths. The confidence in my body was way too high. He was right. I wanted more, so much more, but I also knew I wouldn't get it. I just couldn't think I would never have him in any way.

Eros stepped back laughing. Great! My burning need for his body to want mine was amusing to him.

"Be careful, Ella. This isn't a game you would like."

"If you're so sure that is true then stop playing with me. Goodbye, Eros."

I turned and got in my car before I cried. I didn't want him to stop. I couldn't beg him though and I couldn't watch him just laugh at me. I had no idea what was happening inside me and he found it funny. Of course Eros found it funny. I was some stupid immature little girl that knew nothing. A toy for him to play with and I stupidly let him every time he was ten feet from me.

The second I pulled out of the school parking lot I let the tears come. I needed to let them out and stop holding back how confused and hurt I felt right now.

I've been waiting for my perfect man to come find me and I was beginning to believe it wasn't going to happened. I wanted the love my parents had when I was little. A small country house with my kids running around our feet. A strong husband that wanted nothing more than his wife and kids. It was an outdated era that I wanted to live in.

This generation was about selfish needs being fulfilled and no compassion for anyone around you. There were no die hard friends that had your back no matter what, no sweet guys that swooned over your simple existence, and Eros was never going to want more from me than my body.