CHAPTER 46: ROSE

Me and Ryan started everything fresh. It was weird considering we're already married but Ryan didn't mind it as long as I was giving us a chance.

It's been 2 weeks. And everything has gone perfectly. Ryan takes me out, I, sometimes spend night at his place- because he makes me. He sometimes comes over to Bree's and we spend the day with them and Sarah. I love watching Ryan bond with Sarah, he talks to her like she can understand everything- just like the way I caught him before. It shocked Finn and Bree when they first saw him but it's normal now.

Ryan and I don't talk about what happened in the past, he apologized enough- he still does when the memory flashes into his mind. Sometimes, it's hard to make him stop apologizing.

Joseph tried reaching out to me. He still thinks that my relationship with Ryan won't work and I'll go to him. He only wants me because he thinks I want revenge on Ryan. I don't want. Ryan can destroy Joseph's career with what information he has about him- every illegal action. Ryan was about to but didn't when I told him not to. We've been ignoring him since then.

Aside from the weird week we had, everything is perfect. We're starting fresh. I know I told Ryan to take things slow but I don't want to anymore, I want to move back in with him, I just don't know how to ask him.

Ryan arranged a picnic today. He recreated the picnic date we had in Paris- one of my favorite moment spent with him.

"I asked Bree to teach me how she makes those sandwiches you like so much." Ryan says making me gasp.

Bree makes me the best sandwiches. Her sandwiches are one my favorite dish.

"And?" I ask, desperately

"She didn't tell me," I pout "instead, she made it herself" Ryan says taking out 2 sandwiches.

I gasp, taking one sandwich from his hand "I love her." I say

"Yeah, I wanted that compliment."

I look at Ryan to find his lips pressed into a thin line as he stares at my sandwich.

I smile and place a soft kiss on his cheeks "I love you as well."

Ryan looks at me "I know you do but I wanted to make it."

"Ryan, you and I both know Bree will never let anyone take credit for something she created." I say

"Technically," Ryan points out "Mom created it, she stole it."

"She didn't steal it. It was passed on to her." I say

"Why are you defending her?"

"She's my best friend and she made this sandwich." I say

"I'm your husband and I arranged this picnic." He says with a smirk

I open my mouth to say something back but nothing comes out, he raises his eye brow.

"Let me eat my sandwich in peace." I murmur before taking a bite, I hear him chuckle before he takes a bite of his sandwich. "It's good, right?"

Ryan nods "it is."

I smile and take another bite. Ryan takes out drinks from the basket, I thank him as he hands me one.

"I like your dress."

I look up and find Ryan's eyes roaming my body.

"Don't stare too much, my dress might rip just with your stare." I say

The corner of his lips lift up in a smirk as he looks up at my face. "I'm careful when it comes to you being without clothes, that's a view only for me to see."

His words sends a shiver down my body, I don't hide my smile.

We finish our sandwiches while asking each other about how we spent our day.

__________

"I got you something," Ryan says as I close the basket. I turn towards him and find him holding a small box.

I look at him then at the box "what's in it?"

"Open it."

I smile and take the box, I open it and a diamond ring comes into view, I gasp.

Ryan takes the box from my hand gently as he goes on one knee, I look at him, my lips parted, he chuckles.

"This is probably weird, considering we're already married but we're starting everything fresh and I want to do everything right." Ryan says as he releases a shaky breath "Rose, I say it every time and I'll say it again, I don't know what you did to me-" I chuckle "but whatever you did has made me fall in love with you hopelessly and I do not regret it." I smile at him, tears stinging my eyes.

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you, I want to make a family with you, I want to buy you as many books as you want- that's a promise." I chuckle "whatever I do in life, I want to do it with you by my side." He chuckles before saying "Rose, will you marry me-"

He barely gets out the sentence before I tackle him, throwing my arms around him and yelling "yes!" multiple times.

He wraps his arms around my waist, holding me tightly.

"I love you so much," I whisper with tears rolling down my cheeks.

He places a soft kiss on the side of my face "I love you, sweetheart."

I smile and hug him tighter.

__________

2 Days Later

"You said 'i love you' to her?" Finn says, with his jaw on the ground.

He's offended. Bree told Finn that Ryan told her that he loves her, I was so happy when Bree told me that. She wasn't suppose to tell Finn but they got into a argument and to make him jealous, she said that.

"What do I have to do to make you say that to me?!" Finn continues

Finn attacked Ryan with questions as soon as we entered the house, I can tell Ryan regrets it. We came to get my things, I'm moving in with Ryan again. Technically, I've already moved in with Ryan because when he proposed 2 days ago, he took me directly to his house- I wanted to inform Bree but Ryan said she already knows, which of course she did.

I didn't bring all of my things and finally after 2 days, I was able to drag Ryan out of the house to get my things from Bree's.

"It was a moment." Bree says, pissing off Finn

"We've had multiple moments!" Finn says

"It's not a big deal-" Ryan says but Finn cuts him off

"The hell! It is a big deal, you know best friends tell each other how much they love each other every time, you never told me that once, Ryan. I'm mad at you." Finn says.

Bree and I look at each other with our lips pressed into a thin line.

Finn and Ryan act like a married couple.

I look at Ryan who's blankly staring at Finn then I look at Finn who's looking at Ryan as he's pissed- which he is.

"Say it." Finn says

"Say what?" Ryan asks

"That you love me."

"No."

"Why?"

"Because."

"Because what."

Ryan sighs and pinches the bridge of his nose. Sarah suddenly giggles. We turn towards the couch and find her clapping.

"Someone's enjoying the show." Bree says

"Do you love Sarah?" Finn asks .

"Of course, I love Sarah-"

Finn cuts off Ryan again "if you can admit that then you can admit that you love me!"

I cover my mouth so as not to make a sound.

Ryan and Finn stare at each other for at least a minute then Ryan sighs.

Me and Bree exchange a look before we catch Ryan hugging Finn.

We both are silent, blinking at the sudden embrace. I don't think I've ever seen Ryan voluntarily hug Finn. Finn is always the one doing the bro-hug while Ryan stays still.

Ryan pats his back "thank you for everything." Ryan pulls away, Finn blinks at him multiple times then breaks into a grin.

"See? That wasn't that hard. I love you too." Finn says

I tilt my head confused.

"Now piss off." Ryan says, Finn laughs and walks away.

Ryan turns to me, I look at him as I ask "you didn't say it to him."

"What?"

"That you love him but yet he.." I trail off confused.

"We have our own way of saying it."

I blink at Ryan "you two are an old married couple."

"What." Ryan's eyes widen "what the hell- no!"

"Are you sure you don't want to marry him?" I tease

"What has gotten into you?-"

"Oh, right. He's married to Bree so you can't marry him- it's okay, Ryan." I pat his shoulder "I will try my best to be like him-"

"You don't have to be like him and I don't want to marry him. We're friends."

"Right.. just 'friends'" I nod "okay." I start walking towards the stairs, Ryan follows

"I mean it. Stop that."

"I'm not saying anything."

"You have a weird look on your face."

"No, I don't."

We reach my room and before I could open the door, Ryan grabs my waist and pulls me towards him, our bodies collide. I take in a sharp breath.

"What the hell was that?"

I grin "you like Finn- more than friends."

"That's bull-"

"It's okay to talk about your feelings, Ryan. I understand-"

I get cut off with Ryan's lips meeting mine. He kisses me hard and desperately, tightening his grip on my waist.

I grab his shirt as I kiss back. His tongue traces my lips before I part them, our tongues collide. He puts his hand on the back of my head, tilting my head so he could deepen the kiss.

His harsh kiss sends heat rushing through my veins, my knees start to give in. My head starts pounding with how harshly he continues to kiss me.

After making my head go insane, he pulls away, breathless.

I stare at him with my lips swollen and parted.

"Oh my God, you really love Finn." I say

"What-" I shake my head and pull away from him, I press my lips together while shaking my head "we have to find a way-"

"What the hell, Rose?-"

I continue to shake my head as I walk into my room, I hear Ryan say "that's what came into your mind when we kissed? That's bullshit."

I hide my smile from him.

I can't wait to spend my life with him.