Sweet Home

And that is how I happily got married. We spend the first day of our marriage wrapped around each other. And our 6 month long honeymoon moving from one place to the other and he kept his promise. He made me the happiest woman alive. He made me so happy I often went to bed with the smile on my face.

That is how our marriage started, happy, to me being treated like the worst person to ever walked this land all because I lied to him as he says, or in my case I omitted another painful side of my store. You see, I got pregnant during my teens, but I miscarriad that is something I don't want to remember because even though I was scared and I wasn't prepared for the pregnancy the child was still mine and I lost her.

We have trying to have a baby and it is not working stop. He blames me without any proof that I am the cause or he is not, because of my past. Whenever I ask him to go to the hospital with me for a checkup he lashes out I mean at me. I have taken so much of his insults that whenever I see him, all I expect from him is verbal abuse. He he does not love me anymore I know this because he started cheat on me . It's not trying to hide it but I don't think he knows I know because I never complain.

I still love him though. I love him the same way I loved him the day I got married to him. I wait every night by the door for him to come home but he barely does. He mostly stays with his mistress or comes very late but as I said, I'm always by the door with the warmest smile even though he frowns when he sees me.

Sometimes he comes home very drunk telling me how much he hates me in his drunken's date. I believe him because I know drunk people always thought the truth. He blames me for all his problems but I wonder how can I be the cause of all his problems when all I've done is love him with all my heart.

2 years later

Finally, he agreed to go to the hospital with me. You'll be going tomorrow morning. Please checking the money off from work to come with me which I appreciate. We are now going to find out what's wrong with us, why we can't have a baby. Monday finally came, he toke me to the hospital and we had our samples taken.

The doctor said we will have the results by Wednesday. I don't know what to expect, Jayden let me believe so much that I am the reason we can have to children and I believed him. I know he is only going to the hospital with me so as to make fun of me, to prove himself right that I'm the reason. He's already done enough damage to me and I'm not going to let him have the opportunity to make fun of me.

I just got the results today and I don't have a problem. I can give birth and I'm so happy about it but, if I am okay then that means is Jayden is the problem. Oh my God I never thought it would be him, not in a million years. If finds out that he is the cause of all our problems he will be hurt, but what can I do?

Hide it from him? Make him believe I'm the one? it wouldn't change anything since I'm leaving him anyway.

I have given him enough chances to change but he never did and I don't think he ever will. So I've got to do what does is best for me. Because this relationship have become toxic. I'm going to live with before he comes home, he wouldn't be expecting it but I'm sure we'll be glad that I'm gone.

He's always wanted me gone and I'm going to leave a letter for old times sake.,😔