Amanda (2)

I sat by the ice pod that Emma made for Liv, it's been about a week since she fell asleep, I whispered to her, "hey Liv, when are you gonna wake up, it's already been a week and I just miss you so much even though you are right here, I can talk to you but I don't even know if you can hear me or if your even listening, I just want to be able to tell you that I love you" I marked off another day on the calendar until she was projected to wake up, I went back over the pod and slammed my fist on it crying, "you idiot, why did you have to go and use blood magic and put yourself to sleep like that, don't you know how lonely I am without you? why do you keep leaving me on my own it's not fair, it was like this when you left and joined that cult, is it too much to ask for you to stay for a while or do you just have to keep going and leaving me." I looked up and saw a crack on the pod where I slammed my fist into, "oh my god, I'm sorry please say your ok." I looked into the pod and there was no damage to her. "thank god, I thought I hurt you for a second, when you wake up please don't leave me again I just want to be with you all the time and when you leave I just feel an empty feeling and I hate it so please just stay with me." I sat there for a few hours occasionally whispering to Liv until it was late at night, I went to bed but I couldn't sleep, all I could think about was Liv, what if she doesn't wake up and I'm stuck on my own forever what if she used the wrong spell and used one that killed her. I was frantic with everything that might have gone wrong. please just wake up Liv, I want to be able to hug and kiss you just like before. wake up, wake up, wake up, that was all that I could think of, will she wake up on time, will she wake up at all, what if she doesn't wake up. It was all just the same loop of thoughts going on inside my head, I couldn't let myself think of anything other than if Liv would wake up or not. what am I going to do if she doesn't wake up, do I just wait forever or do I go on with my life and maybe forget about her, but if I forget about her then everything she did would be for nothing. I went back down my stairs and cast an awakening spell on Liv but what happened next I never expected, a demon made out of what seemed to be blood came out of Liv's body, I prepared to cast spells at it but then it started to change shape, it was Liv but she was all beaten and she was fatally wounded, "no, no, no, no, no, no, this is an illusion, if I touch it my hand will go right through." I reached out and touched liv's face but it was solid, no this can't be real, Liv isn't actually dying is she. I watched as the life drained from liv's face and then the room went white and empty leaving me there alone. This isn't real, I'm not alone, I'm not alone,I'm not alone. I got into the fetal position and started rocking back and forth not realising that the room had returned to normal. I'm not alone, I'm not alone, I'm not alone. I started to suck my thumb trying to calm myself down but I couldn't. I'm not alone, I'm not alone, I'm not alone. I started crying, Liv didn't actually die did she, this is all just a bad dream, right? I'm not alone, I'm not alone, I'm not alone. I sat crying there for hours. I am alone.