BRAVE OR EMOPHILIA

Elina was a strong girl with boundaries , she never let anyone use her , she never compromised on anything , she never gave second chances either in friendship or relationship , she never let just anyone come close to her or in her heart . Elina's heart was not crowded, she may had many flings and casual dates but only 3 , 4 guys stayed in her heart and Fred was the guy she loved the most , he was everything she wanted and needed , all the other flings were like a mistake for her and that she got carried away some how . Elina never let anyone cross her boundaries or make her feel worthless or make her stay in a relationship when its toxic . Elina always thought for herself that , " i always find love even if leaves me more shattered , i dont know if i am really brave or just an EMOPHILIA " . Yes Elina knew she will not find love of her life just like that but , she always believed her gut feeling and intuition, clearly it lead her to get broken but she was happy atleast she knows they weren't for her , or she get to experience and learn alot from that , it made her who she is today , brave , strong , light hearted , feeling free , more careful . Even after all of this , she didn't gave up , she was determined that she will find her one and only one day , and that day isn't far , before that she gave her self some time , distance from all of this and just breath for a while , she knew if she start talking to someone new right mow it will be her going down again . She stopped for a while in search for love , Elina was not desperate for love , she was just trying to settle down now , she wanted to feel secure in this area of life . Yes she was incredibly happy with being alone and by herself but she wanted to share those moments and some Romantic time too with someone she loved the most in the world . She was a old school girl who always thought that getting married and settled down is all she needs , but being independent was no less priority to her , she kept studying , she studied 12 classes complete now it was time for her to go to university to study more ahead . Yes she had dreams to be a doctor but she always wanted someone who would make her feel more loved and appreciated . Yes she craved loving and loved by someone . well lets see where Elina's life takes her in the love department now .... to be continued