Chapter 108

Liliana's pov

"Oh my God. It is so perfect and beautiful out here" I smile looking out at the ocean. Derek is flying back out to D.C. today, but he wanted to go for a ferry boat ride this morning before he catches his flight out and he asked me to come with him, which I agreed to since I don't have to be to work really early today and I wanted to see him before he flies out to D.C. I know he isn't going to be gone long, but I still wanted to spend some time with him before he leaves.

"I know. It's always so peaceful out here, but especially on days like this. When the weather is just perfect. This actually may be the most perfect ferryboat ride I've had in my life. We have to do this a lot more when I get back. You, me, Meredith and the family. We're just going to take a day and ride the ferryboats. All day if we want" he smiles

"That sounds perfect. I can't wait" I smile

"Me either. You know what else I can't wait for? The holidays this year. After being away for so long I really want them to be special. I want to go all out and cook a big holiday dinner and invite everyone over, especially for Christmas. That's the kids favorite holiday" he says

"Well I am normally not a holiday person, but in honor of my best friend being back permanently I am 100% in support of going all out this year. It's going to be nice" I say

"It will be, especially for you since it looks like you and Avery will be back together" he smiles

"Hopefully. I mean nothing is set in stone we've still got a lot to figure out, but at least we're trying to get through our problems instead of completely giving up on our marriage" I say

"That's a good thing. That means there's still hope" he says

"Yeah, it does and even though things aren't perfect I can't help, but to be happy since you're about to be back in town for good. No more flying back and forth to D.C., you're just going to be here and you don't know how happy that makes me" I smile

"I'm happy about it too. I can't wait to be home full time" he says

"I know" I smile. "Derek, do you ever get the feeling that something is going to happen, but you're not exactly sure what" I ask

"Yeah, why" he asks

"Nothing, it's just I've been getting that feeling all morning, like something big is going to happen, but I have no idea what" I sigh

"Yeah, I feel like that at times, but it always passes. It'll pass" he assures me

"Okay" I sigh, before we stand in a comfortable silence taking in the beauty of the ocean

"What are you thinking about? You look like there's something on your mind" he says

"I was just thinking about this saying that my mom used to say. She used to tell me, "People make plans, God laughs." I never really thought much about that saying until I got older and realized how true it is. I mean we plan our lives out, but we don't know what twists and turns are coming our way. I bet a year ago neither one of us would think that we would be exactly where we are now, but we are. And even though there are a lot of things from the past, especially the past year, that I would change, I realize that uncertainty is just part of life, but that as long as I have such a great best friend here for me I'll be okay" I say

"Well then you're always going to be okay, because I'm always going to be here for you" he smiles

"I know and I'm thankful for that. I know that I say it all the time, but it's only because I really do appreciate you. You've been there for me through so much, even during times when I didn't deserve it and you've not only helped me to become the surgeon I am today, but also the person I am. I honestly don't know where I would be if I didn't have you and I know that I wouldn't have made it through losing my baby without your support and everything that you did for me. You literally dropped everything to make sure that I was okay and you took me into your home when I needed to get out of Seattle. You're just always there to support me and I don't think you realize just how amazing of a person you are. I honestly don't know how I got lucky enough to have you in my life, but I do know I wouldn't make it without you, so thank you for all that you do for me and for being such an amazing person, Derek Shepherd" I smile wiping away a couple of tears that fell

"Come here" he says pulling me into a hug. "I'm glad to be here for you. You know when you're happy, I'm happy and I wouldn't trade the moments that we've had together for anything. I'm extremely proud of the woman I've watched you become over the years. You're intelligent, determined, passionate, caring, and most of all strong. I don't know many people who could go through all of the things you've went through and still keep it together and continue moving forward in life. I'm the one who is lucky to have such a strong person in my life. You've been there for me just as much as I've been there for you over the years. I mean you've supported me so many times when no one else did, like when I was Chief of Surgery and when I decided to move to D.C. and you've seen me at my worst and you stuck around even when I was jerk and I tried to push you away. I am just as thankful to have you in my life as you are to have me and I wouldn't trade our friendship for the world" he says

"Neither would I" I smile. "Gosh, Shepherd, when did we turn into these sentimental sappy people" I laugh

"I do not know" he laughs. We continue talking and enjoying our time on the ferry boat and taking a couple of pictures before the ride was over. Then we left to go to our cars.

"Do you really have to go back to D.C." I pout

"Well the President is expecting me, so I think that I do" he smirks

"But I don't want you to go. How am I supposed to make it through the rest of the day without you" I sigh

"You will make it. Just think about the fact that after this I'll be back for good. No more flying out to D.C., I will be in Seattle permanently" he says

"Okay, I will just focus on that and maybe it'll get me through the day" I say

"You will make it. I'll be back before you know it" he smiles

"I know" I smile

"Well I need to get going so I can be on time for my flight. I'll call you as soon as I get back" he says

"Okay, I'll see you when you get back. Goodbye, Shepherd" I smile

"Goodbye" he smiles giving me a hug before he gets in his car to leave, then I go to my car and I leave for work. I wasn't really looking forward to work today, just because I know it'll suck being there without Derek. I'm so used to having him around that it always feel like something is missing when he isn't around. Eventually I made it to work and I go get changed into my scrubs before taking one of my patients up for scans.

"Hey" Amelia smiles walking into C.T. where I'm looking over the scans

"Hey. You look extra cheerful today" I smile as she sits down beside me