Chapter 107

Liliana's pov

"Liliana" I hear Derek call as I hear the door to my house opening. I don't even bother to answer, I just continue laying in my bed under my comforter. I hear my room door open a couple of seconds later and I feel the bed shift as Derek sits down beside me. "I know you're under there" he says pulling the comforter from over my head

"Hey, don't mess with the comforter" I frown

"Lily, it's not healthy for you to lay in bed all day and stay secluded away from everyone" he says

"It is perfectly okay" I sigh pulling the comforter back over my head before Derek removes it again. "Would you stop doing that. How did you even get inside of the house anyways" I ask

"You gave me a key right after you got the house" he says

"Oh yeah" I sigh as I shift around in bed getting comfortable

"Lily, you've locked yourself in the house for the past week. I know you're upset right now, but hiding from the real world is not going to help you" he says

"Nothing is going to help me. I'm getting a divorce, a freaking divorce. My life is over" I sigh

"Your life is not over. No divorce papers have been filed yet and even if at some point they are, your life will not be done. You are strong and independent and hardworking. You have accomplished so much in life and you're going to continue accomplishing things in life whether you and Jackson stay together or not. He doesn't define you" he says

"Yes he does. He's my husband. We were supposed to be one for the rest of our lives and now we won't be. Any day now some stranger is going to show up and serve me with papers to end my marriage. It might not have happened yet, but it's going to happen soon, but until that day comes I'm going to lay in this bed and feel bad for myself" I sigh

"I am not going to let you do that any longer. I've let you lay here and feel bad for yourself for the past week because you are going through a rough time and it's understandable that you want to shut down, I mean I know I've did it before. After I lost that patient years ago and I blamed myself for it, I shut everyone out and stayed in the woods drinking beers all day. I didn't want to see or talk to anyone, but you know what I remember about that time? I remember that no matter how angry and mean I was and no matter how much I pushed you away, you still came to that trailer everyday and tried to make me feel better and tried to get me to return to work, so as your best friend I'm going to do the same thing for you. I will not let you continue to lay here and wallow in self pity, so you are going to get out of bed and you are going to come to the hospital and return to work today" he says as he stands up and pulls the cover off of the bed

"I am not moving out of this bed and I am definitely not going to that hospital and taking a chance of running into Jackson" I say folding my arms

"Well you kind of don't have a choice, because I have this giant tumor that I need you to help me remove" he says

"Derek, you've operated on huge tumors successfully by yourself plenty of times, you don't need my help" I say

"Are you really saying no to helping me operate on this" he says pulling the scans out of a folder and showing them to me

"Wow, this tumor is amazing" I say sitting up and grabbing the scans from him

"It is and I thought you would want to operate with me on it, but if you prefer to stay home and lay in bed instead, I guess there's nothing I can do about it" he sighs

"You're evil Shepherd. You know I can't say no to tumors after I see the scans" I sigh as I stand up

"I know" he smirks. He goes to the kitchen to wait for me and I grab some clothes before going to take a shower. Once I finish I go to the kitchen also.

"I made breakfast and coffee. I figured that you probably haven't eaten today" he says

"Thanks. You're a life saver" I smile sitting down at the table and beginning to eat my breakfast

"Oh, really? I thought I was evil" he smirks

"You're that too" I laugh. "How did you know this tumor would get me out of the house" I ask as I sip my coffee

"Because you and I are just alike and neither one of us can see the scans to a tumor and say no to operating on it" he says

"That is very true" I say. "So what should I do if I see Jackson while I'm at the hospital. I mean I haven't seen him in a week, since I agreed to the divorce" I sigh

"I made sure to check the schedule and he's off today, so there's no chance that you will run into him" he says

"Thank you" I say

"So you and Jackson haven't spoken at all since the last time you saw each other? I mean even if you two are getting a divorce, you still have a lot to discuss" he says

"No, we haven't spoken and there's really no need for us too. I mean we're done. Our marriage is over so there's nothing to discuss. The only thing that needs to be worked out is all the legal stuff like who's getting what and all of that, but we have a prenuptial agreement so that should be simple and our lawyers can handle that" I shrug

"Lily, things aren't set in stone. I mean he hasn't actually filed for divorce yet, so it's possible that he can change his mind. I feel like if he was 100 percent sure that he wanted a divorce, he would've filed for one by now" he says

"No, I know Jackson. When he's done with something he's done. There is no getting him to change his mind so the best thing for me to do is accept it and avoid him at all cost" I say as I sip my coffee

"How exactly do you plan to do that considering you two work at the same hospital" he asks

"I have not figured that out yet" I sigh. I never thought that I would be in this position. Planning a divorce from the man that I love and having to accept that my life is once again about to change for the worst. I finish my breakfast, then Derek and I leave to go to the hospital. Once I get there I change into my scrubs before going with Derek to discuss the surgery with the patient then taking her to the O.R. and getting scrubbed in.

"This is nice. Getting to operate together again" Derek says as we operate

"Yeah, it is. It's just like old times. We should do this more often now that you're back at the hospital" I say

"We will" he smiles

"How does it feel being back in Seattle and being a surgeon again" I ask

"It's amazing. You know I thought that when I decided to come back, that at some point maybe I'd regret it and wish I was back in D.C. again, but I don't. Being back here made me realize that D.C. isn't everything. I was watching my kids grow up on a computer screen, I was missing out on their life. D.C. isn't worth that" he says

"I understand that and I think that you made the best decision. You should be here with your family" I say

"I know. I can't wait until I'm here completely for good and done flying back and forth to D.C." he says

"You're almost done having to fly out aren't you" I ask

"Yeah, I just have to go to D.C. one last time next week" he says

"Then you're back for good" I smile

"Then I'm back for good" he smiles

"I can't wait. Having you around is the only glimpse of sunshine I have in my life right now. I'm so glad to have you here" I say