Chapter 104

Liliana's pov

"You ready" Derek asks as he stands at my room door.

"Yeah" I nod, before following him into the living room. After last night I knew I definitely needed to get back to Seattle as soon as possible to find out what exactly is going on and to fix my marriage so I got a ticket for the first flight available today. I'm appreciative of my time in D.C. and it has helped me so much emotionally, but it's time to go back home and face reality again.

"Why do you have a suitcase" I ask seeing that Derek also has a suitcase with him

"I'm coming with you" he says

"Derek, you don't have to do that" I say

"I know, but I want to and I'm overdue for a trip to visit Meredith and the kids anyways" he says as he walks over to me and grabs my bags for me

"Well okay then" I nod, before he goes to put our stuff in the car

"Is that everything" he asks walking back inside the house

"Yeah, that's everything" I sigh

"Okay, you ready to go" he asks

"Yeah" I nod taking one last look around before we walk outside to the car. "I'm really going to miss this place" I say as we pull away

"Well you're always welcome back. I enjoyed having you around. I wouldn't have minded if you wanted to stay longer" he says

"I know, but it's time for me to get back home to my husband. If I even still have one" I sigh

"Everything's going to be fine. You and Jackson are going to work things out" he assures me

"I really hope so" I say

"Did he ever answer the phone last night when you tried to call him" he asks

"Nope, my calls just kept going straight to voicemail" I sigh

"He's just being stubborn because he's upset right now" he sighs

"I know, I just hope that once I'm back home we can sit down and have a civil conversation, like two people who love each other instead of arguing like we're enemies and that he has an explanation for some girl answering his phone last night" I say

"I'm sure he will. Jackson may be angry with you, but he loves you. He wouldn't cheat on you" he says

"I hope that you're right" I sigh laying my head against the window. I spend the rest of the car ride in silence looking out the window and taking in the scenery until we make it to the airport. Once we get there we get checked in before going to the waiting area to wait for our flight. I spend most of the time trying to call Jackson even though he doesn't answer as expected, so I give up and put my phone away before I go get a bottle of water so I can take my Ambien as I usually do before flights and a short while later it's time for us to board the plane. Of course I spend the whole flight sleeping because of a combination of the medication and also because I barely got any rest last night since I was so stressed about everything happening with Jackson. The flight feels super short, since I slept through the majority of it even though it was 6 and a half hours. Once we arrive we go grab our luggage before leaving the airport.

"You okay" Derek asks as we drive to my house

"Yeah, I just didn't realize how much I missed Seattle until now" I say

"Yeah, it's always nice to be back home. Are you ready to see Jackson" he asks

"I'm not sure. I mean I've missed him so much, so I want to see him, but I know that this isn't going to be some happy reunion. We have so much to discuss and work through. Just thinking about it makes me exhausted" I sigh

"That's probably the Ambien" he says

"Okay, well it's probably that too" I laugh. "Derek, I really appreciate how much you've been there for me through everything. From staying in town to keep a check on me when everything first happened to letting me stay with you for the past 3 months. I know I say it all of the time, but I am really thankful for you and I don't know what I'd do without you. You're always there for me through all of my many problems" I smile

"Well I'm just glad to be here to support you. You know that I just want you to be happy and I'll always do anything I can to make that happen" he smiles

"I know. I can always depend on you Shepherd" I smile. We spend the rest of the car ride in silence, as I try to emotionally prepare myself to see Jackson. I'm way more nervous than I thought I would be because I don't know what to expect when Jackson and I see each other. I mean he has been so angry with me since I left and I know that he still is so I doubt he'll even be happy that I'm back and even if he is, we still have to discuss why another woman answered his phone. I hope with everything in me that Derek is right and that Jackson just lost his phone somewhere, because I don't know what I'll do if it turns out he cheated. Before I know it we're pulling up to my house. The car ride felt shorter then usual since I'm completely freaking out internally. Time always passes fast when you're nervous. I let out a sigh of relief when I noticed that Jackson's car isn't home since I'm not quite ready for the confrontation that I know is bound to happen.

"Where do you want me to put these" Derek asks following behind me into the house with my luggage.

"You can just leave it there" I sigh as I stand in the living room glancing around

"You okay" he asks walking over to me

"Yeah, it's just you never really remember what home smells like until you've been away from home for a while. It's kind of like when you're a child and you go away for summer camp and when you come home everything smells new, like when you first moved there" I sigh

"I know that feeling" he nods. Derek helps me grab the rest of my stuff out of the car, before leaving to go home to Meredith and the kids. I go take a look around the house taking in everything. It all still looks exactly the same which isn't so surprising since Jackson isn't really into change or house decor. After looking around the house I begin to call Jackson again even though I know it won't do any good, so I have no choice but to wait patiently for him to get home. I begin unpacking my stuff and getting things organized before walking into the living room and sitting there to wait on Jackson. Time continues to pass and eventually I hear the door unlocking, making my heart begin to beat out of my chest. I'm beyond nervous to see Jackson, since we haven't seen each other in three months now. I mean I know we've spoken on the phone over the time, but that's completely different, but I guess I have no choice but to get ready because there's no avoiding him now.

"Liliana, when did you get back" he asks obviously surprised to see me as he walks into the house

"A couple of hours ago" I say standing up as he enters the living room

"I didn't know you were coming back today" he says

"Yeah, I didn't really expect to come back today either, but when I called your phone last night and another woman answered I figured I needed to get home and find out what's going on" I say causing the atmosphere to get even more awkward then it already was

"So that's the only reason you came back" he frowns

"No, that's not the only reason. I was always planning to come home at some point, you know that" I say

"Sure, you were" he laughs bitterly

"Jackson, can you please cut the attitude and tell me why some woman answered your phone and why you haven't answered any of my calls" I frown