Fill you with my Love

She knew the consequences of those words as he said them in her ear. His grip on her body tightened as his eyes seemed to fill with something that both scared and excited her. But something inside her that Alex thought had disappeared was still there, and the moment he said those words her body froze.

Nathan noticed it and held her hand bringing it to his lips, "You don't have to tense up love, cause I would never force you into doing anything that makes you uncomfortable" he said.

Nathan's smile and tender touch calmed her down. "Alex I love you so I will never hurt you, so no matter how long it takes I will wait until you are ready" he kissed her lips again and held her.

She was silent as he caressed her in his arms.

"Am sorry" he heard her say.

"Huh... For what you haven't done anything wrong?"

"For being like this... I know you said it was okay but I keep feeling so useless and...." he could feel her warm tears wet his shirt.

Nathan sat up holding her face close to him, "Alex why are you crying" he frowned wiping her falling tears.

"Am sorry..." she cried... "I spoiled everything but you so understanding.."

"Shhh... Alex please don't cry, I hate seeing you like this," he said hugging her, "you know I don't care about all that cause all I care about are you being happy and comfortable with this relationship between us"

"You keep saying that but I feel even worse now" she cried.

"Please stop crying love, everything is okay," he said.

Nathan let her go wiping her tears, "I want you to touch and kiss me, I do but something here keeps holding me back" she said touching her beating heart.

His hand moved over hers, "Alex my sweet girl, it's not your heart that's scared it's you. Your fear of thinking that you are always not enough gets in the way of your feelings. I can wait but am still worried about you cause it will affect everything you do".

His thumb played at her lips as he got closer, "I know you're afraid but if you trust me then let me take all that fear away and fill you with my love" he muttered. Her body relaxed as he laid them back down.

Alex's body gave in to his touch as he kissed her leaving her breathless.

He moved to pull off his shirt and then his pants. His hands then got to her jeans pulling them off. Filling her body with kisses Nathan made sure her body was calm and relaxed.

He got back down to her waiting arms claiming her open lips once more. Alex felt his fingers sneak under her knickers to her warmest part.

A moan escaped her lips the moment he touched her. Feeling herself get wet from his touch Alex bit down on his lips controlling her moans.

"You wet for me, Alex" he breathed as she held onto him. His two fingers moved to open and went deeper into her sex and pushed in, Alex cried in pain.

Nathan kissed her pulling off her bra, she felt the same sensation as before when he gripped one of her nipples in his mouth. His hand took off her knicker too.

" I need to do this love or it will hurt more," he said as he returned to her now wet part.

"Mmm," she answered. Nathan went back to work, her body was reacting to his touch, and he could feel her juices flow onto his wandering fingers.