How do I smile
with happy feeling
How do I cry
with an actuall need to
How to not act mean
as immideate coping
How to not get vile
when growing older
...
I want to see the world as I saw it before
When mother and child were on the same pace
When everything was for me to adore
When mind considered body its place
Child wasn't cannibalistic
and destructive, selfharming
Mother wasn't too realistic
And in my eyes disgusting
Am I on the right track?
I wish to go back...