Alone again

Blue 

I look at them and suddenly, my mind starts to clear out. All of the thoughts that have been clouding my mind seem to disappear and I just see what is in front of me. I see my two mates, my two men. 

They are the most important things in my life and as much as I want to keep both of them alive, there is only one way out of this. 

I take a deep breath and I look at them for the last time. I close my eyes and say a prayer for them. I hope that wherever they are, in this dream or not, they are safe and that they will be able to get out of this alive. 

I open my eyes and then I turn around to face my mother. I feel like there is a big weight on my shoulder, like the biggest burden in the world and I know that she is the reason for this. She is the reason why I am going through all of this. 

"I choose neither of them,'' I say to her, she looks at me and smiles. "You made the wrong choice Blue.''