My names Ben short for Benjamin I live on my own even though I'm in 11th grade , that's because my family all died. Once I tell anyone that they all seemed surprised and blurt out "HOW DID THEY ALL DIE". That still hurts me if anyone says that, but they all died differently. All my grandparents died of old age, my aunt and uncle on my mom's side died in a car accident, on my dad's side my aunt died of murder and my uncle killed himself, my little sister got kidnapped but I actually don't know if she's dead, and my parents killed themselves in front of me. Now you might say how do you live I really don't well at least I don't want too. Here's the thing it sounds crazy but I think I'm cursed I've tried to commit suicide, but I swear every time I tried I freeze not out of fear but something is stoping me. So I'm stuck alive when I've seen my parents die and all my family is dead. Nothing is ever going to make me happy I say to myself until today when I met this girl. This girl Is in 3 of my classes I haven't been suicidal all week because of this girls smile. It makes me happy but I know I could never be with her and I won't find love I'm cursed. Her smile gives me hope even though I hardly know her. No one talks to me because they think I'm weird and freaky so what's the possibility she would talk to me. Apparently I was wrong today she actually talked to me