Ruby - If I were a Boy

March 15

This morning the atmosphere was very different. There is no more Emmy activity in the kitchen like she did in the morning yesterday. There is also no warm treatment like the one Emmy showed Ruby yesterday.

Now ... There is only a cold and lonely atmosphere in this house.

Emmy lay in bed limp, because last night she lost a lot of blood after trying to cut her vein with a knife. Fortunately, Ruby immediately came and took Emmy to the doctor's clinic which is open 24 hours. If not, maybe this time Emmy will not be helped.

Ruby doesn't know what made Emmy commit suicide last night. What is clear, Ruby is very disappointed and very angry with Emmy.

All this time, just to make her mother happy, Ruby was willing to work hard and earn money. Always put the interests of the Emmy above her own interests.

She never once showed her sadness in front of Emmy, so that Emmy would not feel burdened.

But now, what does Emmy do? She even dared to cut her veins with a knife. She was willing to die and did not appreciate the struggle she had so far.

Ruby looked at Emmy with red and teary eyes. There was disappointment in her eyes.

"Mom, I'm leaving now!"

Right now she didn't want to talk to Emmy. Her fear last night when she saw Emmy's miserable condition in the kitchen, made Ruby feel shocked. She was also annoyed and angry because of Emmy's stupid actions.

"Eat the medicine." Ruby reminded briefly.

"Ruby, I'm sorry!" Her voice sounded low and a little hoarse. Emmy was so weak, she couldn't even get up.

Ruby was just trying to be calm about it. This is all because of a creature named man. Why would a man like her father be so cruel to her mother and make her mother suffer like this.

If only Ruby were a man, Ruby would show everyone how to love a woman.

Ruby just heard her. There is no intention to answer or even respond to Emmy's words anymore.

Ruby opened the bedroom door, after which she closed it again. Ruby came out and got ready to go to work immediately. She didn't want to waste any more time, because it was almost 8:30.

When Ruby came out, she saw Juan coming to pick her up in her proud old car.

"Ruby! Come on up."Juan immediately asked Ruby to get into the car.

Juan was also almost late for work. He didn't want to buy any more time with small talk to Ruby. He was afraid of being scolded by his boss – who was his best friend.

Ruby hesitated a little. Even though she already brought his motorbike keys and was ready to take her motorbike back to work. But... Juan is already here.

"Hurry up, we're almost late." Juan was impatient.

"Fuh.... Okay!" Ruby took a deep breath.

Ruby immediately got into the car, she sat next to Juan.

After Ruby sat down, Juan suddenly approached. Juan looked at Ruby from a very close distance. Even the gust of Juan's breath touched and warmed Ruby's face.

"Ah, Ju-juan!"

She doesn't know what Juan wants to do. This action makes Ruby uncomfortable.

"I miss you so much, Ruby!" Juan said quietly.

Yes, one day did not see her, he really missed her.

Juan drew closer. Even now their bodies are almost attached.

Ruby tried to dodge. She turned her face to the left. Didn't want to be this close to Juan, and didn't want to face Juan.

The car seat is narrow, making it difficult for Ruby to dodge. She could only continue to shift her sitting position, and move her body away from Juan.

Ruby closed her eyes, just as Juan was about to land his lips. She felt her heart beating very fast. Even her palms felt wet with sweat. Anxiety and fear is now reappearing.

Ruby knew she was always like this when dealing with a man. Especially when the man will do intimate things to her. She couldn't be calm and indifferent at all. Even she can not enjoy intimacy like men and women in general.

She just can't!

"Aaaaaaaa ...." for a moment Ruby screamed.

She pushed Juan with full force, until Juan was pushed and his back touched the dashboard of the car.

"Aww...." Juan grimaced.

"Ruby! What are you doing? Why are you pushing me?"Juan looked at Ruby in surprise.

At this moment, Juan saw Ruby with cold sweat all over her face. There was even a blush on her face, but it wasn't red from nervousness and embarrassment, but it was from fear.

Why should Ruby be afraid? Wasn't he just going to kiss her? Not doing anything indecent.

Why is she scared?

Juan saw Ruby's breath that felt fast. He immediately approached and took a tissue to wipe the sweat off his face.

"Ruby, what's wrong? Why are you like this?"

"No! I'm fine!" Ruby shook her head quickly.

She didn't want Juan to find out that he had psychological trauma. Just let her know this. Others, don't!

"Let's go! We could be late." Ruby tried to divert the conversation, calming himself down.

It's not Juan's fault. Even though Juan had intended to kiss her earlier, Ruby couldn't blame Juan for that.

"Are you sure? Are you all right?" Juan hesitated a little.

He also felt sorry for Ruby. Maybe because of his actions just now, Ruby didn't like him until she was scared like this.

"Sorry!" Juan said quietly.

He was a normal grown man. There's nothing wrong, right – if he does something like that to the woman he loves? But right now, he had to apologize to Ruby, because Ruby didn't like his actions earlier.

"Never mind! Let's go. It's not your fault." Ruby didn't want to explain anything to Juan.

Because if it is explained, Juan will be more curious.

"Okay!" Juan started the car engine and didn't ask any more questions.

He started to drive his car towards the shop where they worked.

The highway is very congested, especially on a Sunday like today. Ruby and Juan end up late for work.

After arriving at work, Ruby got out of the car and entered the tavern. She immediately went to the back to change her jeans for a short skirt and sexy, typical maid uniform for women.

As for Juan, he first talked to a man who was at the front door of the shop.

As Ruby was clearing one of the tables, she caught a glimpse of the man Juan was talking to. It was seen that the man had a handsome face but had an unfriendly cold expression, making anyone who saw him reluctant to approach.

However, the man was tall and burly, with a skin tone that wasn't too dark, making his charms look seductive.

"Aishh.... What was I thinking?" Ruby said softly, patting herself on the head. It was as if she had made herself aware that she couldn't think like that.

Ruby went back to work, ignoring Juan who was still talking to the man.

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