Episode 19.Mother's Agony - As a mother, as an actress, and as a woman.

The room after the predecessors left felt especially spacious and empty.

It was as if the warmth I had felt a moment ago was an illusion.

"Seonhu-ya… … ."

Unable to overcome the loneliness that tightens my heart, I call out your name.

But no answer came back.

I must have been the one who forcibly sent out the successors, but why do I have so many regrets?

"iced coffee… … ."

Now, after swearing several times to stop doing this, I was swept away by desire again.

While facing each other, I felt happy as if I was dreaming.

But after everything was over, the guilt came like a tide.

"I'm sorry, Seonhu… … ."

I am a woman who doesn't even deserve to be called a mother.

Burying my face in the clothes left behind by the emperor, I wept endlessly.

* * *

The first time I saw the seonhu was on TV news.

A child who was abused by his biological parents. He was full of mosaics, and only a silhouette was visible on the screen.

At first, my feelings were only anger at the parents who abused their son and pity for the abused child.

But the feeling didn't go away even after a week, and it didn't go away even after a month.

As if someone had forced it into my head, the news came to mind no matter where I was or what I was doing.

Eventually, when it started to interfere with my daily life, I decided to investigate the child in more detail.

Surprisingly, the child was nearby. I was able to actually meet at a child protection shelter close to my home.

And the moment I first saw the seonhu in real life, I burst into tears.

Just sitting quietly on the bed and looking out the window, I felt an indescribable pathetic feeling. It wasn't just a shaking of emotions, it was a feeling that shook the soul.

And I immediately started looking for a way to adopt that child.

Of course, my husband was against adoption. His husband is a film director 14 years older than me, and we had two daughters at the time. There was definitely some truth in her husband's statement that he couldn't afford to bring in and raise someone else's child.

However, I went ahead with the adoption, and my husband, who could not break my stubbornness, reluctantly accepted the adoption.

And the adoption of the ancestors will have a decisive influence on our couple's divorce.

Severely wounded, the seonhu was always unstable and afraid of everything in the world. In order to take care of such a seonhu, I had to devote all my time to the seonhu.

Fortunately, the two daughters understood such a mother, but the husband did not. The marital relationship that had been rare before completely disappeared, and considering the mental state of her ancestors, her family went out less.

Could it be that he couldn't stand the family situation where everything revolved around succession? Her husband became more and more irritable, and the target of his anger was always prior and after.

"You bastard! The house has been a mess since you came!"

A drunken husband who yells at his superiors. After being assaulted by his real father, the traumatized Sun Hu huddled in a corner, shivering.

I fought with my husband to keep the succession, and in the process I was punched in the face by him.

The eldest daughter, So-yeong, who saw that, brought a golf club and barely stopped her from running amok to kill her father, and the youngest daughter, Miso, who followed her father well, completely ignored her father from this point on.

As a result, the husband was isolated from the family. As the head of her family, she was treated as an outsider in an instant.

And as a result of that, my husband started having an affair. The scandal between her film director husband and the young actress was a good prey for the press. Every day in the newspapers and news reports about her husband's infidelity.

In a way, it was fortunate for me. Thanks to that, I was able to get a divorce with favorable conditions in all matters, including child custody and property division.

My husband seemed to have no attachments to the family until the end, but neither I nor my daughters had any attachments to my husband. After receiving a lot of alimony, we divorced.

* * *

After divorcing my husband.

I thought everything would work out, but I was wrong.

Even though she received a lot of money as alimony, the money quickly ran out as she raised three special children.

Not to mention the seniors who had to continue receiving psychiatric treatment, and the money spent on the eldest daughter who wanted to become a professional golfer and the youngest daughter who wanted to become an idol was not easy.

Eventually I returned to the screen to make money.

The seonhu became mentally stable when they reached middle school, and now they were rather ashamed of their mother following them around, so there was nothing to worry about.

The problem was my acting skills.

The reason why she gained popularity when she was young in the first place was because of her youth and beauty. Even if her acting skills were praised, she was only good compared to the new actors of her age, but it was true that she was not enough to play an active role as a middle-aged actress.

In the end, the comeback film failed at the box office, and I was greatly frustrated.

Can I raise my children like this? If this continues to fail... … .

Anxiety about the future shook me.

"Mom, are you okay?"

"Seonhu-ya… … ."

Seeing me depressed, the seonhu started talking to me.

At first, the seonhu, who was only trembling in fear, now calls me mother and worries about me. Something hot welled up in her chest.

I hugged the seonhu and shed hot tears. And the seonhu patted her little hand to calm me down.

He couldn't be weak even for the sake of his predecessor. Somehow I had to succeed.

I had such a strong mind, but the next work did not come easily. Because I failed in my comeback work, my expectations for myself were much lower.

"Mr. Shin Hye. Do you have any plans to play a villain?"

"A villain?"

One day I received such an offer from my agency.

"Shinhye, you haven't played a villain role until now, have you? I think it fits surprisingly well. as well as her looks. No, I don't mean that in a bad way."

"I'll give it to you because it's fine."

The agency confirmed the role by handing over the script.

This role was the wife of the president of a large company and the mother of the male lead.

A typical villainous mother-in-law who interferes with the love between her son, the heir to a conglomerate, and the heroine who runs a local bakery. She was a character that always had one in the last drama.

This is the first time he has taken on such a full-fledged villain. If she manages to survive well, a new path will open in the future, but if she fails again, she may fall completely as a third-rate actress. For me, this was the gamble of a lifetime.

"… … That would be fun. connect me I really want to try it."

I spoke with ease, but I felt the pressure in my chest crushing.

Even after returning home, I was absorbed in reading the script. Couldn't fail this time. Over and over and over and over again, I immersed myself in acting.

"mom. Is there anything I can do to help?"

Concerned about me practicing alone in my room, the seonhu asks.

"Whoops. It's ok. No, if it's okay, can you help mom?"

"huh! Is there anything I can do to help?"

It was an instant idea.

If we practice the script together, wouldn't it be helpful for the former and future generations? She seemed delighted that the seonhu could be of help to her mother.

I started to play the role of the male lead son, and I played the role of the wicked mother-in-law.

"mom. i love jiyeon Can't we just let it go?"

"love? How did I raise you, that I would marry a girl with no roots like that?! Not until I get dirt in my eyes!!"

What happened? Did the god of acting come down suddenly?

A terrifying voice came out that surprised the person who was acting.

"Uh, Mom… … ."

The seon-hu, who matched the line with the lively acting, was also shaking.

"Oh my goodness. I'm sorry, Seonhu. Smoke, smoke."

I hugged the trembling predecessor and comforted him. not even cute

No, that wasn't the problem now.

If you can do that kind of acting in actual shooting as well. If I could do that, success in this shoot was guaranteed.

The bleak future was lifted and hope began to appear.

"Seonhu. I'm sorry, but could you help me a little more?"

"Ah, yes!"

After recovering their energy, they resumed practicing again. Practice continued late into the night.

I figured out why my performance had changed. It's because the acting when I just acted and when the seonhu played the role of the son was completely different.

The existence of a son called ancestors. And a vixen-like heroine who tries to steal her son. Just typing that into her head changed her acting ability 180 degrees.

It was such a simple truth. Because the actor was immersed in the role, the acting came out with that much excitement. Rather, I was ashamed of myself for having worked as an actor without knowing that.

"Thank you, Seonhu. Thanks to the seonhu, my mother's confidence has increased."

our dear son

I hugged the seonhu tightly with an uncontrollable emotion.

"Mom, cheer up!"

The seonhu also patted my back.

okay. I have a precedent. Thinking like that, I wasn't afraid of anything.

And the drama filming started.

I had a hunch even before filming, but it became a drama that changed my life.

I became the nation's mother-in-law and the nation's villain in just one film.

And that year, she became the main character of the Best Supporting Actress Award.

* * *

Years passed.

The eldest daughter, So-yeong, proudly debuted as a professional golfer and became famous worldwide.

The youngest daughter, Miso, also overcame the days of being unknown and was active as an idol.

And Sunhu became a college student.

A normal college student. However, it was an important step for the predecessor and me.

I was more happy than when Soyoung made her professional debut, and more than when Miso first took first place on the music charts.

"My son. Thank you for growing up so wonderfully."

There were also changes before and after.

If you try to hug him like he did when he was a child, he will shy away from you.

I feel the loneliness that comes from not hugging me like before and the pride that I have grown so much before and after.

Since the ancestors are all grown up now, it must be something that can't be helped. I thought so at the time.

It was one day when I came back drunk after finishing the last filming of the drama.

He was drunk, but not to the point of unconsciousness. However, I pretended to be drunk on purpose because pretending to be drunk like this would allow me to legally cling to the successor.

"mom… … ."

He was embraced by the lord and carried to the bed. Oh, what a wonderful thing this is.

But the work did not end there.

The sergeant put his hand on my chest while I was pretending to be asleep. It was a very short time, but I could clearly feel it.

I was shocked as if the world had turned upside down.

Should I scold, Tyler, or pretend I don't know at all?

My mind was confused. I couldn't figure out which one was correct.

I decided to pretend I didn't know.

Even though it has improved a lot, it is still in an unstable state. I didn't know that if I did something wrong, it might be irreversible.

but… … Does the mother appear to be a woman too?

Nothing like the charm of my youth is left now... … .

After a few days of worrying like that, I witnessed another shocking scene.

Isn't the seonhu hiding women's panties and bringing them into the room?

It is only natural that he has a sexual desire because he is also a man.

But stealing your family's panties is wrong. If So-young or Mi-so knew about it, it might be a big deal.

I approached the room carefully. When I put my ear to the door, I heard something from inside. But I couldn't tell what it was.

After thinking about it, I decided to open the lock and go inside. The seonhu might be surprised, but it was also a mother's role to scold for wrongdoing.

"Senhu, are you sleeping?"

"Oh, no, Mom. why?"

I opened the door, talking to the seonhu as naturally as possible. The embarrassment of the seonhu inside the door reached this point.

And when I opened the door and entered the room, the scene I was imagining was unfolding in reality.

The former and the latter were masturbating with their panties while naked.

"… … After Jinseon. Where did you get those panties?"

"Uh, Mom… … ."

I pretended to be angry and asked the president.

Before and after, pitifully, he was trembling. But she couldn't help but ask. Because this is necessary even for the sake of the future.

I look at the panties in the hand of the seonhu. It was a different brand from the one I usually wear.

"Are you Soyoung by any chance?"

Why am I disappointed Maybe, deep down in my heart, I secretly hoped that the seonhu would see her mother as a woman.

However, the eldest daughter, So-yeong, was chosen by the seonhu.

Soyoung is a healthy and attractive woman even through her mother's eyes. In a way, it was only natural for her that her predecessor admired her older sister, not her mother.

However, I didn't like it. An unknown dark jealousy welled up in his chest.

I look down at the trembling predecessors. Between the legs, the genitals of the former ruler were poking out.

The first and second tried to cover it with both hands, but perhaps because of the length, the pink hair was sticking out. Her figure was so lovely that her chest was tight.

A long-forgotten woman's heart was rekindled. And that opponent was the successor and concubine she had raised thinking that she was her son.

… … From that day on, the distorted relationship between predecessors and successors began.

I maintained a relationship with the predecessors under the pretext of relieving their sexual desires and helping them to masturbate. Gradually, the intensity of the act increased, and now it was natural for her to suck her mouth and touch her bare breasts.

Where is the end of this immorality? Along with the bliss that seemed to burn the body, dark anxiety was gathering like dark clouds.

I knew from the start that this was wrong.

That one day it will collapse. And in the end, it will leave a big scar on both me and my predecessors.

Even though I thought that I had to stop doing this for the sake of my successor, I really had to stop now, I couldn't let go of my priority. Although he made up his mind to end the relationship this time, the relationship with the seonhu eventually moved forward.

"Seonhooya♡ Ah, Seonhooyaaaaa… … ♡"

I experienced an intense orgasm I had never felt before. By the hands before and after and the tongue after before.

We were no longer mother and son. It was just a man and a woman in love.

I didn't know that something like this existed in the world. And now that I knew this kind of happiness, I didn't think I would be able to give up the succession.

"Seonhu-ya… … What should mom do... ?"

It didn't matter if the destruction that would come after this was my own. If that was the case, I could accept it.

But not before and after. As a mother, I had to follow the order. I couldn't continue this relationship even though I knew that it would involve her succession.

I stayed up all night holding the clothes left behind by the president and concubine that day.