Chapter 5.

  After much thinking, I got tired then decided to go out for a walk, and I found myself going to the fields not like I wanted to, but see how it would feel to visit there again. 

I used a short root that I and mom normally used since it was fast following that path, I passed a mini gate to get to the back of the house cause the the field was at the back of the household, and there wasn't many house here either were the houses close by.

Crossing a small water bridge I saw Suzane standing close to an oak tree, she looked lost in thought, I waved to see whether she noticed me but she didn't.

  "hey Suzanne" I called out, running to meet her as I got close.

  "hi miss... Sorry Kelly" she corrected and waved back.

  "so what are you doing out here? If you don't mind" I said not wanting to make her feel subjected to my questioning.

  "no I don't mind, I just came here to clear my head that's all, I just like how peaceful and calm it is". She explains smiling and looking ahead like she is seeing something. I nod followed by silence as we enjoy the view. 

  " Do you need anything?" she asked unsure breaking the silence.

  "not at all I just um... came for a walk".

  "ooo ok" forming her mouth into an o shape.

  "umm... I don't mean to be nosy but your paintings are really good, you're talented". Suzanne complimented 

  "paintings?" I raise my eyebrows in surprise.

  "yes I saw a painting in the mini storehouse built for the gardeners," she said.

  "ooo yeah, I didn't paint them all, some were my mom's, she was the talented one I was just the apprentice," I chucked thinking of how I would destroy her paintwork by painting odd colours on her work with my brush and running away so it doesn't look better than mine. I do miss that moment.

  " she must have been a loving mother, well you are still talented cause all the paintings were good," she said.

  "She was the best," I chuckled at her last statement looking at her. I thought the paintings would have been thrown away, well I'm glad they didn't maybe I could take some with m,e," I said in my thoughts.

  " sorry but I have to go cause my break will soon be over" she said standing up and Dusting the dirt on her.

  "um... OK then we will go together I was also about to leave anyway, and you could show me the storehouse it will be nice to still have some of those paintings with me". I said also getting up before she smiled and nodded leaving the fields.

  Throughout our walk, we talked about things around the mansion and how some things still looked the same, we kept talking about random stuff till we reached the gate.

  " hey look what I found, are you sure we are supposed to be doing this, won't we get into trouble?" serah asked holding a painting with her and giving it to Debbie.

  "don't worry is not like it is useful anyways" Debbie said grabbing hold of the painting before she heard an angry voice directing towards her.

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  We got close to the storehouse where Suzanne said she saw my paintings, as we got close I saw Debbie holding one of my paintings wanting to through it in the burning fire trash can 

  "Debbie stop" I said quicking my step towards her as she looked at me unfazed.

  "oops my bad" throwing the painting in her hand into the fire she said with a fake concern on her face, I tried to remove it from the fire but Suzanne stopped me.

  "what the hell is wrong with you, who on earth in his normal state of mind will just get up and start burning anything they see?" I lashed out angry.

  "Nope, not just anything but a bunch of old paintings no one wants to see, why do you even care if you wanted so bad you would have taken them with you". She fired back.

  "what do you even gain in doing this? This painting means so much to me it was the only...." I stopped realising there was no point in explaining, she was kind of right if I had taken the paintings I would be here shouting at the top of my voice.

  "umm... I didn't know it was yours and" I'm so so..." serah got cut off by Debbie 

  " don't bother apologizing to her, all she does is just abandon people around her especially those who cared for her. and very soon they will all get tired of your tantrums and leave. And now you're coming to make claims?" she turned to look at me then scuffed in Irritation.

  " you are unbelievable Debbie are you doing this to get back at me because of what happened at breakfast? I can't believe you can be so petty" I said with a discus

  "umm... What's going on here ?" her male friend who showed up from nowhere asked in confusion scratching the back of his neck.

  "It's nothing Phillip, we were getting rid of some old junk," she said smiling at him

  I scuffed shaking my head as I looked at Debbie with disgust Suzanne was still by my side but did not do anything not like I expected her to, Serah was quiet with guilt written all over her face, and Debbie was just acting like nothing just happened, while she crosses her two arms to herself and Phillip was still confused even though he wasn't there he knew what happened wasn't good. I walked passed them quickly as I brushed shoulders with Debbie.

Feeling shattered I walked fast heading to the mansion, while Suzanne tried to keep up to calm me down, I was not in the mood to talk I just wanted to leave this place I squeezed the hem of my top with my fist as a cloud of tears was threatening to fall.

As I got to my room, I wanted to shoot my doors before Suzanne used her hand to hold the door from closing.

  "Please don't be upset kelly, we can talk about it if you want," Suzanne said trying to get me to listen.

  "no Suzanne I'm not upset and no I don't want to talk"I said hoping she would leave.

  "Please just give it a try..." cutting her off

  "Suzanne please I beg you I need time alone" I said frustrated before closing the door on her.

  " If you need me just call for me," she said.

  Suzanne was a nice person but I couldn't bore her with my sad life stories, I was angry not because of what Debbie did but with myself, I felt guilty about what she said. I kept on reminiscing about what she said about those who cared about me leaving, it scared me to even think about that. I stayed in my room the whole day not wanting to come out.