Ivan,
I want to believe it's all some sick joke, but I know it isn't.
Too much goes on for me to believe fate will show us kindness. However, I understand why, and I'm not alone in my head. That raw ancient force that sits and watches me as I take the gift from Nathxena's hand refuses to let me back down. He isn't me and isn't afraid to remind me of it when I falter. Van was tried and tested much harder and longer than I've been alive. He has no patience for stupidity, not from me and definitely not from anyone else.
The only one who gets away with whatever she wants is Vali, and because she's part of her, Nefera.