furious she!

It's raining heavily outside. Resi Rose can't sleep at this cozy night. Oh! the rain started like crazy!

she feels so angry at this enjoyable time. "It's definitely rediclious", she thinks.

"why my life is like the hell."

She got up from her bed. She came near to the window. The road is seems like a cannel. Heavy rain changed world in a bit!

Resi suddenly feel so sad. "Oh! rain even cleans up all the dirts, but there's nothing that can wash my anixious self. As soon one hard time has gone, another cames up."

"Is this what life mean to be." she asks herself.

Resi has parents, also not. Her biological mom sent her to a orphanage as soon as she borned. She was grew up living with foster parents. from this to that. Her foster parents never treat her as their own. Even one of her foster father raped her. She said nothing after being abused. Because she doesn't have nowhere to go.

She has been living an anixious life since born. But she believes in miracles. She wish, miracles will changed her life one day.

"The sky is sad as me!" Resi thinks.

"it has been crying all day"

Resi had a hidden talent. No matter how sad she is, she can compare anything with herself.

Resi was an ICU nurse, she has been working in a hospital for two and half years. She feels better after starting living alone. But her happiness flew away as soon as it gets closer with her. She had burden on her back always. She studied by herself. She done several part-time jobs at a day while studying at nursing school. Some of her friends already got married. They're keep nagging her by telling her to get married and have babies. She just smiled on them without saying anything. But she feels disgusting while hearing about marriage. Falling in love is most difficult logic to her.

"mama got me because of her crazy love"

"but she thinks me as a liability. She sent me to orphanage as soon as I appear out here on this planet."

"She gives priority her love and ended up with having me, but she push me away when I need her, how clever she is!" Resi find her eyes wet.

"goodness me! I still do had those liquid emotions!"

She can't stop thinking that, she was crying for her unseen mother's heartless work.

"Love gifts mama a little girl, and she gifts me a hard life!" Resi says herself.

Suddenly a thunder broke her silence. She look on the sky. Noisy thunder light up the dark sky for a moment and it gone so soon. "oh the sky is like me!"

thunder flushed some light for seeing what happened on this planet, and left the world dark again.

Actually Resi hates misbehave so much. When it happens in her work place, she can't stand by it. Today the chief nurse executive scolded her, cause she was so slow as an ICU nurse.

" if you like to think your thoughts always, change your carrier, you should be a poet. An ICU nurse can't be this lazy. You seems like a sloth." chief nurse insulted her.

"go home, and sleep one month, think a lot." Mr. Nill keep insulting her.

chief nurse Alex Nill was the most rudest person ever she seen. He treats all pretty nurse like princess. But bare faced Resi was a insect to him. He always looking for her weak sight and keep insulting her.

Resi can't run like other ICU nurse. She is little heavy. She just clam her anger because of the sake of her job. But today she can't hold on her anger. She slapped him.

all ICU nurses can't believe it, Resi slapped Mr. Nill!, she was dead.

But Mr. Nill become speach less after being slapped by a new comer nurse. As soon Resi slapped him, she left the hospital for ever.

But quitting own job wasn't a solution for her, it was her only way of earn though. Worrying about job doesn't let her sleep.

another thunder appears again. Rain doesn't seems like it will stop tonight. Resi lie on her bed again. "Oh I'm so hungry" she feels hungry suddenly. She haven't eaten yet.

she come in the kitchen. There's nothing without instant noodles. She put some water in kettle. She starring on boiling water and start thinking."The water is cold at first but it's temperature changed whitin few minutes, it's seems like miracles."

once in her very early teenage she visits a fortune teller with her friends. She told that fortune teller how depressed her life was. She asked her, When will she able to get rid of her anixity?

The fortune teller woman smiled and hold her hand. "Do you know what miracles are?"she asked her.

"having unexpected thing or happiness" Resi answered.

"keep believing miracles, it will only happens to those one who always believed in it."

As a kid this quote is her inspiration. Ha, she can't become a doctor because she doesn't have any time to study a lot. She ends up being a nurse. But she always keep reciting that quote no matter what happened.

When she was a little girl, she likes to stand infront of mirror. Her reflection mades her wanting a gorgeous face feature. She was thinking about it always, what if one day in her sleep, her bare face changed into a beautiful face by miracle!

She already an adult now, those wishful dreams become a bit unbelievable to her. But still she can't just forgot that wise words of that fortune teller. She is the one who talks so warmly with her for the first time. That middle aged woman is the one, who inspired her to live a life.

"Oh! my noddles gotten cold" Resi suddenly woke up from her thought.

"instant noodles is a love" she start eating.

Resi do love instant noodles as people love their mom. An instant bowl full with warm taste, like a mom serve her child foods made by her heart.

Resi suddenly feels so wondering. She compare her instant noodles with a loving mother!

She has an own world where everything was so meaningful. She feels so better while staying alone. But she can't able to enjoy life with only stay at home all day. She have to earn money for living.

after finishing her mommy noddles, Resi wants to drink some tea. "Oh it's already midnight" she looks on clock. But she can't stop thinking about what she want. "Okay yesterday I don't have any plans, I can awake all night and sleep all day."

"life is not what happened, it is how I look on it." she comforts herself.

Resi take a sit beside window. The rain was pouring nonstop. Thunder makes angry noise. Electricity has gone several hours ago. It's so mysterious murky outside. Resi wondering about, some people do like rain a lot, some are not. Some people enjoy rainy season, some are hate it. Personally she likes light rain that doesn't have any noise of thunder. But nature mother doesn't listen anybody. She was always on her way. That's why she is so natural.

Resi take a sip of her dragon tea. This tea is not only a tea, it was a love. Suddenly Resi feels so better.

"There's still lots of good things left out here, that's why I want to live more for me." Resi smiles in darkness. "Oh! where is the candles, I should light up my candles for cheers me up!" she thinks.

***

"Oh no!"

she shouts.

She fall down on floor with her tea mug.

"it's definitely my bad luck, I'm born unlucky."

her amusement broke into pieces. "Oh god!, my ankles" she starts crying.

This tears not only for hurtful ankles. Actually falling down while in a great mood reminds her something, that's, how unlucky she is.

After crying for a bit she suddenly feels like little sleepy. "Okay time to die for a little" she was super angry now.

***

This bed is the most cozy place to her. So it can decrease her anger for a bit. As a introvert herself Resi doesn't had a lot of friends. But every thing in her tiny apartment was her friend. She can talk with them. From her hand shower to bed everything is her bestie. So seems like she own a huge friend zone in her home. "Oh! how will I'm gonna live here without paying monthly rental bill" suddenly she thinks about her job. I shouldn't slap that brat, my job is in risk now."suddenly she thinks about her job. "Okay, I did nothing wrong, he always keep insulting me, I can't let him hurt my pride" she says herself.

"I should sleep now, I have to woke up again for see my future fortune." she thinks.

Thunderstorm also seems so tired. Rain gotten little light. Now rain sounds like a mysterious music. Resi is so sleepy, her eyes are so tired. She feels like, she was falling into a peaceful world called "sleep"