Last Day Together I

-Did you seriously ask for what you just asked?!- yells my brother, slamming the door

-Yes?- I answer, taking some clothes out of my wardrobe

Back in that small room when the Emperor left us nobody spoke...

Hua only covered his mouth as the rest of the guys stared at me with wide eyes?

So with a quick goodbye I left, we'll meet again later for a more official departing... But my brother obviously followed me

-But... You're not ready-

-Ge... We both know that's a lie- I go in front of him, placing my hands on his shoulders as he seats down on my bed

-This was going to happen anyway, it's not like I joined the army for a vacation-

-I know that... It just feels so real now... And I don't like it- He sighs looking around the room

-To think that my little sister... My own blood, who just yesterday was a baby grabbing on my shirt to gige me flowers... Is now going on a bloody battlefield to fight a real war- Finally his eyes meets mine and a sad aura is covering them -You could even be the best out there... But still human.

Just... Be careful, for how much this will change anything-

-Ge...- he circles my waist with his arms, burying his face on my clothes for a tight hug full of worry, I slowly caress his head before parting a few centimeters

-I will not die...- I reassure him, going on my knees to hold his hands in mine -I'm sure of it-

-How can you be like this even now?- murmurs him

-I... Know where to hit Ge... I don't know how difficult it might be, that's why I can't be alone out there, but... I will surely come nack victorious and alive-

-How... Do you know that?- he stares at me confused

-I... I'm not so sure myself, but I saw something while cultivating- I shake my head sighing

-I know it's not much to rely on... But I have to go and do it myself, it can't be a coincidence...-

-You always make you brother worry...- a hint of a smile appears on his lips as he caress my cheek -Of course I trust you-

-That's all that matters then- I smile back to him standing up -I'll finish packing my clothes... I'll see you later brother-

-Mhn later...- he nods and soon after he's gone, leaving me to sigh as the door closes...

-I will really try to be back, Ge...-

As I finish and take my bags outside, XianLen stops me in the hallway coming from behind a door

-So... It's already a goodbye-

-Mhn, I'm sorry... I barely stepped in this Household for what... 6 days? A week?... And I'm already leaving-

-It's fine- He shakes his head, before disappearing and comes out of the kitchen with a snack in hand

-This is not about me, my story is already closed and forgotten... Will you be alright?- he throw the sweet bun to me

I nod taking it midair -Mhn, what about you tho?-

He smiles turning to face Wan -We'll manage, right Wan?- and the fox yelp content

-Well then, the others must be waiting... Are you coming too?- but he shakes his head smiling

-I don't really like goodbyes... So let's not turn this into one and come back soon-

-I will-

I step outside but he stops me with a serious dark face -Will you... End it?-

-End what?- I turn around confused

-The imbalances-

I smile one last time -Mhn, I'll try my best-

...

I approach the little restaurant in the Capital... I can see the guys inside, having a round of laughter from a joke someone said.

My brother and Hua, my family...

And my comrades.

I have to depart for them too, I know I can help on the battlefield more than I do seating down here... I might not do much difference on the final result but I must fight for a better tomorrow.

I never knew what I wanted in life, years and years spend reading books and learning etiquette... Pleasing everyone and smiling through the anger, only to relieve it against a tree or something like that...

I always felt bored and regretful but not anymore

Were all these years meant for me to reach this day?

I know very well I could die but I'm determined to go anyway, a glorious death of a woman soldier for the safety of others will be surely a tale worth telling...

Nobody would ever be grateful for a Noble woman in a million getting married and serving tea, forever unhappy untill a far-to-come death arrives...

And for how selfish it is, I do want my sorry to be narrated.

I want other girls to be born knowing they can chose a different path from the determined one... Anything they like

But I feel like there's more... More to come and more to fulfill aside from a Story

I lean on a pilar still looking at them with a smile on my face, it's almost a shame to disturb them when they are so happy... But I guess they would like me to be present at a dinner meant for me.

I enter the building approaching them

-Lai'Er!-

-Here's our soldier!-

-The savior of the Throne!-

-Hi... My friends- I smile

...

After the dinner is done half of them are drunk

-You guys shouldn't drink and you know that well-

-As if that's the only rule we broke...- smirks Hua looking at my brother, who moves to hold his hand under the table

-Well whatever... Nevermind- I roll my eyes laughing

-Lai'Er! Lai'Er...! Be ack pro ihk! Promise?- asks Wei between an hiccup and another

-I promise-

-Nice... Cuz if you don't... Uhm... I will come slap youh!-

-Oh no! I should really keep my promise then haha- I mock him as he pours one more cup handing it to me

-Have something to drink too... To a safe journey- I bow my head to accept the cup, gulping down right after

-But seriously... Be back all in one piece- comments Shun from the other side of the table

As we leave the restaurant I say on last goodbye to everyone

Wei and Hua burst into tears coming to hug me at the same time

-I'll burn incense praying for you everyday...-

-Mhn... I'll miss you so much Lai'Er!-

-I will be looking forward to our next meeting- I pat both their heads as Hua clean away a tear z stepping back -You should be going back now, it's getting late- they stare at me one last time, worried, before letting me go

-Take care Lai'Er- hit me Kasuo with an half grin on his lips

-Uhm... This... Me and Hao did it...- Xiao pushe an hair ribbon onto my chest, looking away

I take it in my hands, An hair ribbon with silvery silk and a few words sewed on

"War Goddess" it reads, which makes me chuckle a bit -Thanks-

And so they slowly make their way to the sect...

-I will be writing often to check on you-

-You will only receive good news-

Pei grabs my shoulder looking deep into my eyes as a last warning before walking away too