I looked away from him as I couldn't bare to look at him in this moment. We didn't say anything for a moment as he stood right in front of me. I somehow couldn't find the strength to speak.
Xavier stroked my cheek gently and then moved my face so that I was looking at him. When I looked into his eyes, it immediately made me feel calm. As soon as I remembered the reason as to why I was here, I grew anxious again.
This just wasn't fair, how could I possible look into his eyes and tell him. Tell him that we won't be parents, that he won't be a father. After all the death and bloodshed of these past few days, the worry and fear, the fighting...how could I now on top of all of that tell him this news. I couldn't bare it.
"What's wrong, Victoria, your heart is racing like crazy."
Xavier looked at me with concern now and I tired as hard as possible to hold back my tears and not show him my increasing panic. No matter how much I dreaded it, I had to tell him but not here.