Chapter 17 TOO MUCH LOVE WILL KILL YOU

TOO MUCH LOVE WILL KILL YOU

How can something be defined as too much? When it hurts too much the pain starts to feel numb? When too much happiness hurts big time? As song once said too much love will kill you, and maybe it's fucking true because that's how I feel whenever I love too much and it didn't end up well. In any aspect. To anyone.

My chest became so heavy as I was sobbing repeatedly. It was as if my heart was being torn apart over and over again. I feel like a cigarette that slowly goes out and is trampled on just to die. It was as if I was being killed over and over again and I had no opponent. I could hear my sobs all over that room as my chest throbbed because it hurt so much. I feel like I want to take my heart away from me so that I don't feel anything at for a while because I'm so tired. Ever since then, everyone has made me feel how tiring life is.