There Isn't Karma

"Anything to do with you I'll always think it's something I can take it easy on, but this time I can't appear as easy going, Ci." Hearing what Akbar said, Suci was increasingly unable to guess where this conversation would lead.

And this time Akbar brought out another side that could not be clearly guessed even by Suci. 

"What are you talking about, Bar? How come I don't know where this conversation will end?" Suci asked cautiously, but this time Akbar had indeed become a stranger to Suci. 

The worst part is that Suci doesn't know what caused this to happen. But whatever it is, it's definitely not something to be taken lightly. 

"Five minutes before the trial started, Mr. Rafa called me, Ci," Akbar explained, but he still felt ambiguous about what was going on right now. Akbar will always be the most colorful figure for Suci who only has gray in her life. 

"Call you, then where did it go wrong?" Surprised maybe that's the word that Suci is currently feeling, one thing is absolutely certain for now after hearing Akbar's explanation later, Suci will definitely be far from okay.

"You want to know where it went wrong?" Hearing the intonation of Akbar's voice, which was not relaxed at all, made Suci stiffen herself.

Flashback On….

Akbar's device rang very loudly, his brow furrowed when he saw the name currently filling the screen of his device.

"Mr. Rafa?" Akbar muttered when he saw the name of the lawyer who was still his rival. But Akbar won't find the answer if he's still stuck in that question-marked situation. Akbar's finger, which looks slender, finally shifted the green icon on the screen of his device.

"Hello, good morning at noon, Mr. Akbar Maulana Bagaskara. Sorry to interrupt your time, but I just wanted to say that later I will not be able to attend the trial." Akbar's two eyebrows then knit together when they heard what the other person said.

Rafa Afif Alzani is the second child of the couple Suci Indah Ayu and Firman Afif. Currently is the highest authority holder of Agasa and Partners Law Firm.

"But today's agenda is the reading of the divorce pledge from the father." Without Akbar realizing it, his intonation has now gone up an octave when he heard what Rafa said.

"I understand and I know that my client will continue to read the divorce vows for your client, but the one accompanying him is not me, but one of my colleagues at Agasa and Partners Firm." Hearing what Rafa said did not necessarily make Akbar trust him. Still Akbar is Akbar, a person who doesn't easily trust others.

As someone who has not faced Akbar once or twice, of course at this time Rafa can understand what the person he is currently talking to is saying.

"Who?" asked Akbar who was enveloped with curiosity quite high.

"Mr. Firmansyah Satria Utama he just–"

"You're not kidding!" said Akbar quickly, for what Rafa just said. 

Akbar's intonation was loud and high-pitched, which made Rafa inevitably have to keep the device he was holding away from his ear so he wouldn't lose his sense of hearing.

"Unfortunately I'm not joking, what is replacing me in court today is Firman. No need to worry, Firman is a person who is responsible and has a fairly high dedication in his work."

BRAK!

Unexpectedly, the device that was gripped very tightly by Akbar was now in a formless state. Why? The answer is only one because the innocent object has been slammed very strongly by Akbar who is currently having trouble controlling the emotional levels in his soul.

Heavy? Nobody said it was easy either. But nothing is certain, why can Akbar be so emotional when he and Suci are only friends without love? And in the end, only time can answer this clearly.

Flashback Off….

"That's where Suci Indah Lestari's fault is, is my story still not enough to make you understand, huh?" asked Akbar who did look like someone with a beard on fire.

Controlling what became his current emotional point was not an easy thing for him to do. "You know?" Suci asked who was still shrouded in disbelief, how could she not now believe that nothing in this world is eternal.

"I know everything, Ci," Akbar replied, confirming the answer to what Suci asked. Suci could feel weakness all over her body, not only that there was a lot of sweat dripping down her forehead. And for now Suci doesn't deserve to be crowned with the word fine. 

"Ci … I've told you before that you are–"

"No, Bar. Forget it, we can't be like that. I ask you to stop wishing for that. You and I are like oil and water, one container, but not together. Close, but not hugging. Simple? Yes, as simple as that is the description of a Suci Indah Lestari and also Akbar Maulana Satria."

"No we're not like, Ci!" Akbar said firmly and he didn't agree with what Suci just said.

"So what are we doing, Bar?" asked Suci in a raised voice. Silence was all Akbar gave, he was unable to answer Suci's question. 

"Stop loving me. There is no happy ending that I can give you. Go, you made a big mistake because you love me. Save yourself, also save yourself, only Amanda Larasati can make you happy, I ask you not to be in vain. waste your time just loving me."

***

"But what if it was the other way around? What if we were meant to be together, Ci?" Akbar asked in a tone that sounded like he was begging for mercy from Suci. But unfortunately Suci is not someone who is easily provoked.

Once he says yes, it will forever remain A, it is impossible to turn into B, let alone Z. And if that happens, it is certain that he has gone through quite a long process for him.

"Isn't it before meeting the right person that we must first meet the wrong person in order to be the right person for someone in the future. Never forget this one thing, Ci, we have the best place to learn, namely the past." Suci's Tongue suddenly groaned when he heard what Akbar said.

One question that is currently raging very strongly in the recesses of his heart is whether this time has given Akbar the opportunity to grow up with a mature mindset? I don't know, maybe the answer is yes and maybe no. Only the universe can answer that well enough.

"Ci … they all know I'm close to you. They also know that my eyes look happy when the topic of conversation is you. They understand that every story I tell about us is hope for the future. They even say that I'm happy with you, And I admit it's true." Suci no longer knows what to do when she hears what Akbar said.

One thing that Suci could catch in Akbar's two eyes at this moment, was sincerity.

"There's Manda, Bar. We can't be together." At what Suci said, Akbar then shook his head very strongly. This time he didn't agree with what Suci said.

"Ci, do I need to remind you how I feel about Manda? In this world no one knows me as well as you do, from the smallest to the biggest you are the one who knows it best." Suci could only bite her lower lip when she heard what Akbar said. And this time Suci really doesn't know how to respond to Akbar's words.

Because all he could see in his eyes was the truth without the slightest hint of lying.

"But you've been walking for a long time, Bar. How can there be no love between you, huh?" asked Suci who finally chose to give up understanding the mindset of the man who had accompanied her through all kinds of points in her life.

Even when the whole world tries to bring him down, the one who is always there for him right now is Akbar, but for now the one who still reigns in his heart is Firman, not Akbar or anyone else.

Selfish? Perhaps that label is the most appropriate label to attach to Suci for now, and he doesn't mind the title either.

"Because my love is only for you, Ci." Suci has to fight as hard as she can to make it look like she's okay, but in reality when you look at Akbar's two eyes right now, there's only sincerity. of that.

"I am a woman, the same as Manda. This is not fair from my point of view, especially to Manda. And what is no less important is, I have a daughter, I don't want Mentari to be affected by the mistakes I am making." There was a tone filled with emphasis upon hearing what Suci was saying at this time.

One thing for sure for now that Suci is afraid is only one thing that she does today will affect the Sun in the future and that is what Suci doesn't want.

"Karma?" Akbar asked, emphasizing what Suci said earlier. And the mother of one innocently could only move her head up and down in response.

For the response given by Suci, Akbar then smiled the sweetest smile he had. Then Akbar's hand reached out to stroke Suci's cheek. 

"There's no such thing as karma, there's only good luck and bad luck. If in the future, Mentari has to feel hurt in the future, believe that it's because it's her destiny, instead of bearing the sin for what you did." 

"Still I can't, Bar. There's Manda, and I'm also close to her. She'll think I'll hug her later." Suci remains in her position that having a relationship with Akbar is something that cannot be justified in any way.

"Look at my eyes, do you still have Firman on you?" asked Akbar straight to the point of this conversation.

When it comes to feelings, especially when it involves a Suci Indah Lestari, Akbar will never play games.

"He is the father of my child, Bar. I'll remind you if you forget." Suci said with full emphasis. In fact, he did not hesitate to put his index finger right in front of the number two at Bagaskara and Partners Law Firm, Akbar Maulana Bagaskara. 

"I'm asking you, do you still love him or not? Isn't that who he is, the honorable Mrs. Suci Indah Lestari?"

Hearing repeated questions and in a very firm tone from her friend, Suci was really made to die. To gulp Suci's saliva it's really difficult for that.

"I'm waiting for an answer from you, Ci."