Serene Taste

Sensing that she doesn't want to go as she didn't even move, he asked attentively thinking thay she might have been asleep, "You wanna stay here?"

She just nodded on his chest and closed her eyes as they were hurting now. He made her rest on the carpet on the ground and himself got up to open the long cupboard at the base of one wall. He pulled out a comforter and a cushiony mattress and two pillows with a room heater. He laid the mattress and quilt with pillows and plug in the heater wire into the only socket there to turn it on later if Kaya would feel more cold. Then he went over to the other side and pulled the only door of cubicle to close it when rain started pouring. The door has small holes all over it so he pulled the white curtains also which surrounded the all four walls of cubicle leaving just the glass ceiling open on which rain drops were falling and one could see the rain drop striking on the glass and then sliding down to the sides. The cubicle was little above the ground of terrace, such that water couldn't enter it.

Actually, this glass cubicle on the terrace was made after Eun Woo's wish. When once Eun Woo visited here in autumn and he just wanted to stay on the terrace and look at the vast sky with all the stars and moon but he couldn't because it was too cold and terrace was a little wet with the rain that had been pouring earlier in the day. So he ordered to made something like the glass cubicle of the now terrace, in which he could stay even in the chilly night and not even a single droplet of water could enter it.

After making sure curtains have well covered the door, he went back to where he laid Kaya down. She had her eyes closedà and soon, Kaya felt herself off the ground and she opened her eyes just to see that she was scooped in his arms and he was so calm about it like he has been doing this for ages, well actually he has been doing it for some days. She closed her eyes again and leaned in more into his touch. She didn't protest– she just let him do.

He then laid her on the mattress softly and covered her with the comforter before adjusting the pillow below her head. He then patted her head lightly. "Take rest!!" He left her there to grab himself a bottle of soju that got thrown earlier on the ground— far from the reach of Kaya.

He just removed the curtain a bit and stood to look outside at the pouring rain in the dark abysses. He lift the bottle to his mouth and drank a big gulp of it thinking about Kaya, the marriage that his family is planning for him, the disbanding of BLUE, their fans and everything. He felt that like this rain water sliding down the wall high glasses, everything in his life is also sliding down from his hand like the sand. His fans, his music, his members, his group and his girl— he doesn't know that whether he can call her as his or not but he wants to— but is it right? If possessing her as his own is right? If it ever will be? But he wants. He groaned internally. 'Ohhhh!! These ifs and buts!!!'

He looked at the bottle that was his second one — actually the fourth one since he has started with Kaya. The bottle was half empty and he didn't remember when he took another bottle. He only realised when he felt his head spinning and he decided to stop it here. He placed the bottle down at the table and turn backward just to see a sleeping Kaya– the Kaya whom he wants to be his, with whom he wants to live. He doesn't know when he developed these kind of feelings for him.

He went near her and sat beside her. He carresed her cheek when she opened her eyes, her eyes were less red than before but they were still red showing her vulnerable devastated side. On the other hand, Eun Woo was no better. The drinks have drowned him. He was also fighting with his own thoughts. "A... are you...going somewhere?"

He backed his hand from her cheek. "I'm just—" He was shutted when her hand wrapped around his wrist. "Stay with me." Kaya said in a low voice looking at him who was looking at his wrist where her fingers were wrapped.

He looked up at her and nodded instinctively. She shifted on the mattress to make space for him to lie down and he just simply lie down and looking into her eyes. He pulled the comforter over his shoulder.

They were lying face to face on the same mattress under the same comforter with her hand holding his wrist. They were silent but their hormones inside them were going violent.

They stayed in that silence and the silence was not deafening, it was soothing to them. None of them wanted this silence to break because that's what their bodies and hearts craving for– a close proximity which they both are trying to avoid but you know 'The Heart Wants What It Wants'* and his lips landed on hers gently. Showing no movement, his lips were just simply on her lips trying to remember the serene touch with his eyes closed. Kaya also just closed her eyes, loving the touch of his lips on her.

Soon his lips moved softly and gently and her lips too moved along with his while her hand was clutching his shirt. He kissed her for good long minutes and due to lack of oxygen, she parted her lips subconsciously which let his tongue enter her mouth and play with hers.

They both had already surrendered to each other and they have been tasting each other gently for god knows how long when Eun Woo turned Kaya on her back and hovered over her– all while not letting their lips apart even for a moment. He increased his pace a little more and so did Kaya as she was reacting to his invading faster than her mind could process.

*The Heart Wants What It Wants— Selena Gomez*