Chapter 34

   This can't be happening, not when the two people I will prefer to kill over a million times are seated in the same car with me. Worst still, Xavier was seating right beside me, our bodies can literally touch and no matter how I try to move away, I feel he does come close to me on purpose.

  My head was still against the chair I was seating on but was turning on the inside together with my mind.

   Inside the car was really annoyingly loud; listening to the music James had on the car's radio, Xavier's loud headset, and his android sending and receiving messages.

   It was 7:17 and I wasn't feeling too relaxed in the car even though I was calm.

  Looking at my phone for a time now and then made me think we were going backward in time. Still in all that shit, to me, the vehicle was as silent as ever until James made a remark that got my attention.

   I first pretend not to hear him or notice him even saying anything at all but when I looked up, I found him staring at me through the front mirror.

  "I had always felt like driving whenever I found myself in this car, but not with Xavier", James rolled his eyes " Tell me one reason, just one why I won't drive us off a cliff now".

   Since James came back, life had been going wrongly and mom wouldn't even think about my well-being or upbringing.

    It's just a day, just a fucking day and all I care about is doing what will not make my regrets for the rest of my life. Dammmmmmm! Why can't killing be legal, I have lots of people to kill.

   All I care for was for me to be that dummy they had always known.." but no!", I screamed aloud in my mind slightly holding my head to avoid questions from anyone.

     Xavier and I almost looked at each other but were stopped by dad's voice.

   "I wouldn't want to be caught in a vehicle with that brother of yours called Xavier, you know why baby", James asked looking at the main road referring to me.

   I looked at him and then back to Xavier who didn't look up but seemed to be most interested in the matter dad had on the table. Before I can couch that I saw him, clearly from the corner of my eyes staring at me till this son of an arrogant annoying shit hole opened his big mouth.

   "Your big head-small brain bro makes it a crime for me", he said stealing a glance at me from the car's front mirror.

  "What for James?  He's not just a...uhmm. Fact, he's my bro even if we are not biological he's always got my back", I said feeling pissed already without letting it seen on my facial expression.

    I felt like stabbing myself immediately after I noticed that sly smirk on Xavier's face. I can bet you he looks like an over ripped pineapple.

   "You think so?".

    Uhmmm, what was that?

I looked at James who just said something questionably. My brows lifted as my lips gave me the best expression with their twisted look.

   "You think this...Xavier always has your back?" James asked looking both at Xavier and me this time feeling pissed even though he was trying to hide it from showing.

    Those thin lines on his forehead, disappearing and appearing again.

   "I don't think you know what you are saying, sweetheart" James scoffed "I don't even think you mean it either".

   He paused for a few seconds, clear his throat then glared at Xavier through the front mirror. Looking at Xavier and James, the only thing that kept coming into my head is to jump out of the moving car.

    "The fact alone that you look more like..." He hesitated as he looked at me "You are hot with what a man would always want, that dummy back there wants you to feel his forbidden urge" James snapped, sharply turning the steering to his left.

   Xavier wouldn't still speak up, maybe for the fear he had for my dad or...for the hate. I felt so irritated and ashamed of myself and this man said to be my father. Another fact hit me and all I kept seeing is the truth, the fact that Xavier always wants me because he thinks I am hot.

     After all, he has seen my body and there is nothing he has not seen.

   "You know what... I'm out! Stop the damn car", I said in fierce anger waiting for him to stop the car.

   "You've gat to be joking, Sweetheart", James said making me feel like hitting him with the under of my iPhone I was already holding too tight to subdue my anger.

   "Stop the damn car Mr.!", I yelled holding the door's handle trying to force it open but gently yelling at the top of my voice.

   It then seemed as though my yelling brought Xavier back to reality from his phone.

   "Open the door and let me out of here or else!", I yelled almost in a piercing scream banging the door and threatening to jump down if he won't stop the car.

   "What's the matter with you guys?", Xavier asked.

   I only looked at him from the car's mirror from the corner of my eyes. He should be kidding! He can't just act like he just came back from the space...oh, his goddamn headphone.

   "Ok fine" James said calmly "Is that what you want right?" He said in a silly low tone looking straight on the road.

    Since school wasn't far, I felt extremely grateful that he stopped the far. Even if I walk for twenty minutes, I won't die.

   Coming down from the car wasn't hard afterall, I slammed the car's door behind me forgetting it was only a car and not our house wooden door.

   Maybe I wasn't supposed to leave the car at that very moment as I noticed a familiar figure from afar.

   "Hey".

   His bass voice weakened me to my bones. For a while I felt so disoriented that all I did was swallow and gasp after some seconds.

      He began to walk towards me, fast. Fast enough as if he had been waiting for me to come down or had being waiting to see me alone for a long time.

      "Emily, I can explain what you saw" Devin said.

   As I set my eyes on him everything everywhere was slowly coming back to normal in my mind all at once, but I was still furious in the inside.

   I turned to rush into the car,but I only walked few steps backwards slowly to the car and opened it, got in, and  slammed it immediately after.

   "Let's keep going", I said immediately I entered the car.

   "Come on,keep driving!", I yelled this time pathly looking through the window trying to avoid Devin meeting up with us.

    Xavier looked even more confused as I entered the car immediately breathing hard but slowly,as little sweats came rolling down my cheeks.

   James wouldn't listen to me as it seemed as though he was also waiting for something to happen.

   "I think I've seen that kid somewhere around your school once" James said looking through the window straight at Devin who was almost at the front of the car.

   "Hey boy," James sounded politely looking at him seeming to scan his face behind his hoodie and fist.

  "Hi sir", Devin replied dad without taking a look at me but looked back at Xavier who glared back at him.

   "Anha, I remember you now boy!", James said to Devin in a manner of them been seven miles away from each other.

   "At the school packing space when some holes were trying to make a better use of your battery",Devin sounded in a likely student's manner.

   "Oh yeah,you would like to come along with us",James said to him then looking back to Xavier and then to the empty seat next to him.

   Devin looked at me for once since he had been with us since he was closer to me standing by my window from which he was talking to dad.

   "You would mind filling in with us right",James said to Devin trying to open the door from where he was seating.

   "Can we just stop the drama and keep moving?!", I yelled in frustration.

   Dad, Xavier and Devin couldn't help but looked at me at once all in different facial expression and question.