The Kind of Women.

Two years later (In Kingdom Timing, 'In Normal World its been two months')

It no longer matters whether spring comes or not, as the winter in our hearts never ends, the days and years never end. We repent for sins that are not ours, and here comes the wedding of my first love. I would not say my first love frankly. I would like to deny my past feelings. But. To be honest, it made my mouth hurt from smiling. I was hurt, but to get happiness you have to have some pain. This is what I knew, and now, I know something else, that there are human beings, who live in a family that thank them just for being alive, loyal friends who do not judge you, and a lover. It makes you long for tomorrow, so naturally, I decided to have it all, but the most important thing is that those people be understanding and happy. If I couldn't be that person, how could I hope to have everything mine? I knew that you should not accept a lifetime of pain just for a moment of happiness.

I used to feel proud because I endured the pain, but now I cannot bear the breeze of the air, the chirping of the birds, the room is dark, I am under the moonlight, playing the Qin. Like it can make me more alive.

My fingers dance on the strings, and it's just me and the music alive tonight. Today he is getting married, and the past me, she must go to sleep crying, praying that he would be hers one day, but I too, soon, will be another man's woman...

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Weddings are held in the City of Eternity, since I will marry Tian Yang, so I attended his brother's wedding. Everyone stood in front of the hall, carrying red flowers, while the bride and groom drank wine in the hall, and recited a pledge of eternal love and loyalty. They recorded their wedding with their blood. They left the hall and went downstairs. To cross from the middle of the audience to their carriage, while everyone throws flowers at them like rain. I knew then, you can tell your heart to stop, but it won't.

They were slowly approaching me. I looked at the woman I saw for the first time in my life today. I had always wondered what kind of woman he might marry. His wife must be so perfect.

That girl was looking at everyone but I could feel her eyes on me, her hair black as the color of the dark night, her eyes drawn and small, her nose high and sharper than a knife, confident steps, confident looks, confident smiles, she is definitely the kind of woman, which men adore but don't approach Because they know she will surely win over them, and the kind other women fear so much, perhaps because they fear their quiet life will be robbed when she passes by, and perhaps because some really know, that she will do anything to get what she wants, no matter the cost and no matter the loss. She is the beauty that people are afraid to discover, is she kind, unlike her appearance? Or worse than monsters? Only time can answer..

When they approached me, he stood up and looked at me, that the man I knew, even when he was happy, was trying not to show his happiness, he did not show his sadness and did not show his happiness. his look is sad, but I knew that there is no use in sadness, and that even if I loved him I would have to leaving and moving away from him, so I looked at him trying not to cry and smiled, although my facial features were not what I wanted them to be, when he saw me smiled, he smiled a little brokenly and went away, he is the man who lived years feeling me and I feel him, even without the curse, He lives in my blood and my body forever, but she looked at me with a mysterious look out of the corner of her eye, and despite the crowd of people in the street and the crowd of their voices, I could clearly hear the sound of her light laugh, then when I looked at her walking from behind, I knew that she would be dangerous. At that moment, when her face turned towards me, and she smiled maliciously, my body shivered, the whole world was laughing and happy as I stood here, thinking about what kind of demons I was facing.

I was confused when a hand was placed on my shoulder. I turned around to find Hong. She smiled at me, "Have you found happiness?"

I laughed in confusion, "Happiness? It hasn't even been that long.. It's not something easy to find."

"Shushin."

I looked at her, "Yes?"

"Letting him go. means that you have become happier and lighter like a feather."

I smiled, then looked back and pointed, "Who is that anyway? I've never seen her before."

Her features changed, she looked at me, "Oh.. she? It's Ning. The daughter of the Lu family, a powerful family in our city."

I nodded to her, "Really? Great."

She approached me, "It's been a long time, you and Tian Yang were engaged, when is your wedding?"

I sighed, "Why do you remember this? He was following me around, to the point that I regretted choosing him. I have a bad past with one of them. One is obsessed, and the other's abilities could lead to my death. Am I destined to not be comfortable in this life?"

Hong laughed, "Spring is coming, your heart must move a little, oh, didn't you say you have a mission? Have you finished it or not?"

I sighed deeply as I walked towards my cart, "That's right.. You reminded me.. I was really busy that I forgot."

I got into the car, Hong got in with me, "So, when is your wedding?"

I opened the window, "Next month? Maybe. Ta Jin should get married, but they want me to hurry up first."

"That's a little fast, really."

I called the driver, "Please take her to the hotel, I will stay here."

Hong grabbed my hand, "Where are you going suddenly? Take me with you!"

I smiled at her lightly, "It's okay, I have to find this person on my own. My heart tells me, he's close."

I got out and walked into a dark alley.