To be fair though, because I'd told my family before I went to T country that if they tried to talk about or pass messages from Xiao Nai, I would never forgive them for that. Even I'd announced that said I wouldn't be sharing the details of the reason for our breakup, do not ask.
So they respect my wishes apparently as I'd known back then, that I didn't hear anything about Xiao Nai after that. Letting him go early in our relationship had been the better choice for my happiness, even the truth was very hard. Because I had moved on to a life without him had been terrifying and hurt like hell for me, but that was better than killing us slowly.
I knew things about myself and my feelings for him. Yet, I even had them tattooed on my back, his name stands for my love for him. And I knew I'd be unable to share my love for Xiao Nai with anyone, that even his child in any meant, as his ex-girlfriend gave us her a bit of her surprise on that day.