WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME

〰️ JOHNNY〰️

The more i try to get a grip on myself, the more i kept loosing it. I just couldn't figure out what to do, after seeing that girl at the hospital, something inside of me changed for sure, why can't I get her off my mind,why do I keep seeing her face whenever I close my eyes, what is happening to me.I wanted answers,i wanted to know what happened to her and why she tried to hurt herself,i saw so much suffering and pain on her face.

perhaps her dad treats her badly then pretends before everyone else, maybe he was the one that inflicted pain on her,then made it look like she tried to hurt herself, nothing was making any sense to me,he said she meant the world to him,so I don't see any reason why he would do something like that.

I didn't see her mom there either, it's probably her,why wasn't she by her daughter's side. Does she have siblings, friends, no,her dad said she has never introduced anyone to him, it's weird for a girl her age not to have friends. My thoughts were making a mess of me,i couldn't wrap my head around anything.

"Why are you just standing there staring at nothing, are you alright?"

For a moment i became perplexed, then i realized that I've been standing at the main door all these while, thanks to my mom for coming to my rescue on time cause i was already drowning in the sea of my thoughts.

"Am good mom". I started walking away rubbing my forehead,i was starting to feel a slight headache.

"Aren't you forgetting something young man".

I wondered what it was for a second,then i suddenly remembered,i started searching my pocket for it.

"Here you go". I said giving her the eyedrop.

"Is dad coming home tonight?".I asked. My mom gave me a surprised look which was quite understandable,i just came back from the hospital, obviously.

"I thought you just came from the hospital, why didn't you ask him".

"Never mind mom, I'll just call and ask him".

I went upstairs to my room to freshen up, the headache I felt earlier was gone,i decided to play some video games to ease my mind but it wasn't working,i texted my dad asking if he will come home tonight but he hasn't replied yet. I kept checking my phone occasionally, waiting for a reply from him.

I really wanted to ask him a few questions about that girl, he might know something, something vital that I can place my hand on for now.

I heard his car pulling up in the garage,i grabbed my shirt and rushed downstairs. He was standing by the main door when I got down.

"Welcome dad". I said moving closer to him.

"You should have waited for me , you know, where's your mother?" .He asked looking around.

"She's probably in the bedroom or something, i don't know".

"Alright then". He started walking away.

"Dad wait,i want to ask you something". He turned and looked at me, raising and twisting his eyebrows.

" It's about a girl at the hospital, am not sure if you know her but i think her dad knows you pretty much".

"Really, okay what's her name, what do you want to know about her".

"I don't know her name but I noticed that she slit her wrist, why did she do that, do you have any idea".

"I really don't know who are you are talking about, cause I attend to so many patients on a daily basis,i can't memories all their names or faces but for the girl you inquired about,i think she was only depressed".

"What if she was abused by someone"I said, not satisfied with the answer he gave. He chuckled

"It's definitely depression, besides why are you so invested in knowing what happened to the girl".

"It's not much dad,i just wanted to know".

On my way back to the room,i decided to visit the hospital tomorrow morning since it's weekend. Something about this mysterious girl keeps me up and preoccupied.

The next day, i waited patiently for the sun to rise,then i set off,when i got to hospital, i wasted no time locating the room,i pushed the door open only to find a nurse there, she was taking out the bedsheets and replacing it with another."Hello,umm, please where is the patient that was here last night". I asked waiting patiently for an answer.

"she got discharged this morning". I had no idea how i was supposed to feel at that moment,all i know is that, that last statement definitely broke my heart.

"What time was it?". I managed to ask

"8am,i guess".

I glanced at my wrist watch,it was just few minutes past 9.

My phone started ringing,i didn't even bother to see who it was,i picked it up and brought it to my ear.

"What's going on Johnny, where are you". The voice sounded very familiar,i took a quick look at my phone,it was patrick.

Oh shit,i totally forgot that we usually have basketball training every Saturday.

"I'll be there in few minutes okay'. I answered then patrick hung up.

I immediately called for an uber and it came in less than two minutes. I went home to get changed then i rushed to the basketball court which is just a few blocks away from my house.

"You are late again Johnny". Mr Hillary, our coach said to me the moment i walked in.

"Am sorry sir"

"Saying sorry is not enough, you have to show it with your actions, the fact that you are the best in the team doesn't make you exempted from the rules and regulations, you have to be obident at all times, just like everyone else here".

"I promise to do my best sir". Everything was resolved and the game started shortly after. I thought about the girl again,i don't even know her name to start with it, how will I find her if i want to. I decided eventually, to end the sudden obsession over a girl that doesn't even know that i exist, all i wanted was to enjoy the game peacefully and completely erase her from my memory.