4.20
The current Xu Jiaqi had never experienced the actual torture of that day, but this body had already gotten so accustomed and in line with the events of those days that it automatically tries to push it away.
If this was the case, then actually trying to take steps back into the music world might require some extensive efforts. Just brute force wouldn't solve it. It would mean nothing. Even if she tried to force herself and play the instruments, there was no way that she wouldn't falter and break down one day.
Before that could happen.. She wanted to look for a way to actually resolve the issue and not just play silly and act as if nothing was wrong.
Big Brother is Angry!: Goddess, you look like a ghost is chasing you down
Big Brother is Angry!: I'm sorry for wanting an encore.. It's completely up to you!