What is this feeling?

Jason Davenport

"I have an announcement," Greg stated, a few minutes into the small party we were having.

It was a small thing we'd decided to have, just the three of us. Kind of like an after graduation party.

Graduation had taken place a week after prom. Dad and Ashley had been there. It'd been nice. I'd seen Amelia as well, Adrian standing loyally beside her the entire day, except when she had to give her valedictorian speech.

As I watched her afterwards taking pictures with her friends and grandma, I knew I owed her an apology. And I really wanted to. But my legs wouldn't budge.

I knew I had been unfair, a monster infact, but I didn't know how to make it right. My heart broke as I thought of how disappointed Mom would be if she were here.

And I couldn't even tell the guys about it because they'd be disappointed. Just like Adrian had been. And I wasn't sure I could handle losing anyone else close to me. So I kept it to myself.