33. Chapter 33

Not super in love with how this chapter turned out but it was the best I could do after a hella-rough week (that isn't even over yet bleh). Keep yer eyes peeled for more soon though and hopefully it will be better.

"We get to go to the district today?" Kate looked excitedly at her father as he cut up a banana for his little girl, "We don't gotta stay home?"

"Nope, you and Mommy and I are all going to the district today, at least for a little bit. Mommy's going to do a bit of work at her desk, so maybe you could sit at mine while I go out with Uncle Al, hm?"

"Yeah!" Kate nodded enthusiastically, "Can I bring the math books too? I bet Sergeant Platt could help me."

"That is a fabulous idea," Jay smiled, sliding the plate of banana slices over to his little girl. They had been back in their apartment for a week. Although Jay and Erin had finally gotten comfortable with the idea of bringing their little girl back to school, Kate had an absolute meltdown when they broached the idea. She was convinced that being without either of her parents would lead to them being hurt, so after a conversation over the phone with both Dr. Handel and Alexa Carlson, Jay and Erin decided keeping Kate with them would be the best course of action.

While Jay had been heading into the district for a few hours every day and returning for lunch and then again in the early evening, Erin had yet to be allowed back through the doors. Hank had informed her in no uncertain terms that if she returned before Will or another doctor said it was okay, she'd chained to her desk for six months regardless of her prognosis. She heeded his words and stayed home with Kate, building elaborate fortresses on the new Lego table and listening to Kate read from her picture books. Her little girl was a welcome respite from the dull ache behind her eyes, but it was thankfully fading. Will, after much persuasion, agreed to allow Erin back at the district for a few hours in the morning, but insisted that she go back home to rest at lunch. Begrudgingly, Erin accepted his proposition and was looking forward to a day that didn't revolve around naps.

"Mommy still sleepin'?" Kate asked quietly, picking a piece of banana off the plastic plate and popping it into her mouth. She looked down at her hands, "I-I didn't mean to wake you up."

"I needed to get up anyway, Squirt," Jay reassured her, stroking her tiny fingers gently. For two nights after returning from Hank's house, Kate had spent the night in bed with Erin and Jay. After their conversation with Dr. Handel, the couple decided that putting her in her own bed first might ease her back into a routine. Unfortunately, the poor little girl hadn't made it a full night in her own bed. She woke up screaming the first night, and endured similar horrific nightmares subsequently. Both Erin and Jay had wanted to just keep her in bed with them to prevent the vicious dreams, but knew that in the long run, encouraging Kate to fight the dreams herself would be best. It absolutely shattered Jay's heart to see his baby screaming in terror. Just when he thought the little girl would make it through the night, he was awoken at four to desperate cries echoing from the baby monitor.

Erin had been sleeping far deeper than normal following her concussion, so it was Jay who rushed into his daughter's bedroom, stepping on a stray Lego in the process. He was fully awake after that, and retreated to the couch with his little girl in his arms. She dozed lightly against his chest, but was awake again by five.

"I'm gonna be with her today though, right?" Kate looked expectantly at Jay, hoping to hear that she would indeed spend the entirety of her day in close proximity to her mother. Leaving his girls in the morning was harder for Jay, now that they were back in their apartment, so he was grateful that they would be close by as well.

"All day, kiddo," Jay promised, "In the morning we'll be at the district and then come home after lunch. I might have to go back for a bit, but then maybe we could read another chapter of The Magic Treehouse after dinner."

"I finished dat one, Daddy," Kate informed him, "I readed it to Mommy so she could fall asleep, cause Uncle Will said no movies."

"You read it?" Jay looked surprised, "By yourself?"

Kate nodded and then looked nervous, "M-Mommy said I was 'lowed."

"You absolutely are allowed, kiddo, I just didn't know how good a reader you were!" Jay beamed, "How did you learn so quickly? I thought we were doing Henry and Mudge."

"We were," Kate shrugged, "But the other books are the same, just with littler letters." She smiled brightly, picking up another banana slice, "I like readin'."

"Well you're certainly very good at it," Jay mused, taking a sip of his coffee. He glanced at the clock on the oven, "It's probably a good time to wake up Mommy. Do you want to do it, Squirt?"

Kate nodded and accepted a boost down from the breakfast stool. She quietly crept into the dark bedroom, peering over the bed to see her mother, still sleeping soundly. Jay had been sure to remind Erin to not use her alarm, as the blaring beeps always aggravated her head. Instead, he was rousing her every day with gentle kisses, but since Kate had been up so early, he thought Erin would love to see her little girl in the morning.

"Mommy?" Kate whispered, lying gently atop the covers and putting a tiny palm on her mother's cheek, "Time to wake up."

"Mm?" Erin mumbled, turning her head slightly and blearily cracking open her eyes. "Hi baby, what time is it?"

"I don't know," Kate replied softly, tenderly brushing some of Erin's mussed hair off her face, "I couldn't see the clock, but Daddy said I could wake you up."

Erin smiled tiredly, putting one arm around her little girl, "Do you want to snuggle in bed for a few minutes?

Kate nodded sheepishly, moving closer to her mother, "I got scared this morning and axi-denly woke Daddy up really early."

"Did you have a nightmare?" Erin asked knowingly, threading her fingers through her baby's hair. Kate nodded sadly, relishing in the comfort her mother was providing. She snuggled closer, resting her head against Erin's chest. Erin sighed with contentment, rhythmically combing out Kate's hair in preparation for the day. While she was feeling a whole lot better, she knew in her heart of hearts that she had to take it slow. Taking things "slow" was not something that Erin was used to, or something she liked. But lying in bed with her little girl reminded her that there was another person dependent on her to get better.

"Er? Kate?" Jay poked his head into the bedroom a few minutes later, smiling widely at his two girls snuggled in bed. "Good morning."

"Mm," Erin responded, reaching a hand out to her partner, "Come back to bed."

Jay chuckled softly and perched on the edge of the mattress. "Sorry, babe. I've gotta go in to work. But if you're not feeling up for it, you should stay back and rest."

"I'm up," Erin replied quickly, resulting in snort from Jay, "I'll take a shower and we'll be out of here in a bit."

"Sounds good," Jay leant down and kissed her forehead before giving his little girl a gentle tickle, "Come on, Squirt, let's go get changed."

Kate squealed when Jay poked her in the ribs, "Daddy!" She giggled, "It's too early for ticklin'!"

"It's never too early," Jay teased, peeling her from Erin's embrace and slinging her over his shoulder. Kate shrieked in delight, waving her hands in the air.

"Careful, Jay!" Erin scolded, "Her stomach is still sensitive."

Kate squealed again as Jay flipped her over his shoulder and caught her against his chest. "Sorry, babe," He said to Erin and looked down at the little girl, who was grinning up at him, "I didn't hurt you, did I, Squirt?"

"No, Daddy, again!" Kate insisted, "I'm okay, promise!"

"Let's pick out some clothes first, how about that?" Jay placed the little girl on his hip, "Mommy's right, I don't want to hurt you."

"You won't hurt me, Daddy," Kate patted his chest delicately, "You're my Daddy. I know you wouldn't hurt me on purpose."

"That's right," Jay ran his hand over her head, "But your tummy is still a bit sensitive, so we have to be more careful. It was my fault." He looked over to Erin, who had tiredly vacated the bed, "You going to be okay in there?"

"Yeah, yeah," Erin waved her hand flippantly and proceeded to the shower. She paused in the doorway, "Unless you wanna join me?" Erin raised her eyebrows seductively and almost immediately blanched. She cleared her throat, having forgotten that Kate was in the room and now looking quizzically at her, "I mean, so I don't fall over. If I get dizzy."

Jay rolled his eyes, now unsure of what to do. On the one hand, he could take a shower with his girl. On the other, their daughter was one hundred percent awake but would be skeptical if he said no to Erin's original request. He looked desperately to his girlfriend, who shot an equally-desperate look back. "I can help Mommy," Kate piped up, "I sit by the shower in case she falls down?"

"Good idea," Jay nodded quickly, "I'm going to pick out some clothes for you today while you stay with Mommy." Since returning home, Kate had refused to open her closet door, due to the fact that the last time she did so, a dead woman fell out of it. What was once a place she sought comfort in was now a place she feared. Jay and Erin had been trying to slowly coax her back by telling her it was okay, but Jay thought that until that Jackson was behind bars or dead, Kate wouldn't be opening her closet anytime soon.

"Good to see you back on your feet, Lindsay," Atwater greeted, stirring his cup of coffee. Jay and Erin were definitely on the later side for work, but today, they knew Hank wouldn't be too annoyed, given that his granddaughter was tagging along.

"Thanks Kev." Erin patted his shoulder as she made her way into the bullpen, thankful to be back, "Feels good to be here."

"Grandpa Hank!" Kate squealed, dropping Jay's hand and running full speed to the older man who was emerging from his office. She had been buzzing with excitement over seeing her grandfather the entire car ride over. Kate had practically dragged Jay into the district, looking forward to filling Hank in on what she and Erin had been doing.

"Hi, kiddo!" Hank boosted her into his arms and set her on his hip so the little girl could wrap her arms around his neck, "How are you?"

"I missed you!" Kate told him seriously, hugging tightly, "I didn't see you for days."

"I missed you more," Hank tapped her nose lightly, and she giggled, "Did you take good care of Erin?"

Kate nodded enthusiastically, "When Daddy was workin' I read lots of stories to Mommy. And we finished the Magic Tree House so we gotta get a new book from the library."

"You finished Magic Tree House?" Hank looked at Jay in surprise, "Last week we were working on Henry and Mudge."

"That's what I said," Jay slung his coat over the back of his chair, "Hey Squirt, do you want to take your coat off and then maybe get started on a picture at my desk?"

"Okay!" Kate smiled at her father, then to her grandfather, "Where's Sergeant Platt?"

"I'm not sure if she's in yet, kiddo. How about I give her a call in a bit, hm?" Hank asked, receiving a nod in response.

"I haven't seen her in soooo many days," Kate said to nobody in particular, "Cause we've been layin' low."

"That's right." Hank set her down in Jay's chair, glancing around the bullpen for his almost-daughter. Erin was seated at her desk, already going through unread emails and shuffling files. "How are you feeling, Erin?"

"I'm good," Erin looked up from her work and smiled, "I missed being busy."

"Well, you won't be too busy today," Jay set a mug of decaf coffee beside his girlfriend as caffeine was still off-limits, "And we're going home at twelve thirty. No exceptions," He said firmly, Hank nodding in agreement. Erin scowled in response, choosing focus back on whatever she was reading on her laptop instead of arguing.

"Who's that sitting in Halstead's chair?" Platt's voice carried across the bullpen as she ascended the stairs, eyes twinkling as she caught Kate's excited gaze.

"Sergeant Platt!" Kate scrambled down from the chair and rushed to her friend. Platt knelt to the ground and wrapped the little girl in a hug, "I missed you so much!"

"I missed my favorite munchkin," Platt informed her seriously, "I heard from Hank that you've been building some big Lego castles."

"Uh-huh. Daddy calls them fort-rus-is," Kate informed her, "Cause they are so big. But I didn't bring Legos today. I brought math."

"Math, huh?" Sergeant Platt raised her eyebrows, "Do you want to help me with my taxes?"

"Okay," Kate agreed, clearly not aware of what taxes were, "Daddy said you probably know a lot about math."

"Hm, well, we'll see what I remember, how about that?" Sergeant Platt looked up to Jay and Hank, who were speaking in lower tones. "And you know what, there's going to be a few special friends of mine coming to visit later today."

"Mouch is coming?" Kate asked knowingly.

Platt chuckled, "No, not Mouch, though he is special. There's going to be a few police dogs, here, at the 21st District."

"Really?" Kate leaned back further so she could look into Platt's eyes, "There's gonna be dogs here?"

"Yep. I don't know how many and they're in training. But it might be fun to watch."

Kate nodded slowly, "I never pet a dog before," she said slowly, "Cause I was scared of them."

"Oh," Platt hadn't realized that Kate had never been around dogs before. Despite living with Erin and Jay for seven months, nobody in their group of friends had a dog, and Kate had always been skeptical of random dogs on the street. "Well, we don't have to see the dogs. It was just an idea."

"I would like to," Kate said, "You be there though?"

"Absolutely." Platt's heart just about melted at the sweet child, "I'll be right there."

While Jay set out with Olinsky working on a potential lead, Kate sat at his desk and worked on a picture. Platt had promised to return when the police dogs had arrived, so Kate chose to color a variety of dogs. Erin remained in her chair, tiredly combing through everything she had missed. "You okay, Mommy?" Kate asked quietly. The bullpen was empty, as Hank and the rest of the team headed out to meet Jay and Olinsky.

"Oh, yeah, baby, I'm absolutely fine," Erin smiled, stifling a yawn, "How's the picture coming?"

"Good," Kate held up the piece of paper that she was working on, "But one time I heard Daddy telled Grandpa Hank that when you say I'm fine, it doesn't mean you're actually fine," she narrowed her eyes slightly, "I think he's right."

Erin scoffed, not wanting her little girl to think she was annoyed at her when she really was just annoyed with Jay's incredibly over-protective nature. "Kate, baby, I promise to tell you if I'm not fine, okay? I'm just tired, but I'm doing well."

Kate was quiet for a moment, "But last time you said you were fine, you got sick at the 'quarium." She nervously regarded her mother, "I-I didn't like seeing you sick."

"Oh, I know, baby." Erin got up from her seat and crouched beside Jay's desk so that she could look up at her daughter, "And I'm sorry you had to see that. I know it's been really hard for you, but I'm getting much better. And we're going to go home once Daddy gets back, maybe take a little nap? You must be tired too, since you were up early."

She nodded slowly, "Maybe Daddy would want a nap too, cause I woke him up."

"Daddy doesn't sleep a lot as it is," Erin assured her, "He gets up way earlier than either of us most days. I think he could stay awake for days." She glanced up at the clock, "But Daddy should be getting back soon. Do you know what you want for lunch?"

Kate shrugged, "We gonna stay to see the police doggies though, right?"

"Police dogs?" Erin raised her eyebrows, "What police dogs?"

"Sergeant Platt said they coming here. For trainin'," Kate explained, "And cause I never pet one, she said maybe I could today."

"Hm," Erin thought, "Well, we definitely can wait for that. I guess we don't have any friends with dogs, do we?" Kate shook her head, "I'm not sure we're going to be allowed to pet the dogs if they're in training, but we'll try to find you a nice dog to meet soon, okay?"

"And maybe a kitty?" Kate asked, "I never met one of those e-der."

Erin smiled, "I'll ask around. I'm sure we can find a dog and a cat for you to meet," She ran a hand over Kate's head, "Maybe you should become a veterinarian when you grow up."

"A am-inal doctor?" Kate asked, eyes widening, "Like Uncle Will, only for dogs and cats?"

"Or for zoo animals or even sea creatures," Erin grinned, "I think you would be very good at that."

Kate nodded eagerly, "I've been thinkin'…"

"What have you been thinking about?" Erin asked.

"That Grandpa Hank should get a doggy. Like Henry and Mudge. 'Cause his real name is Henry." Kate said seriously, "Then there could be real-life Henry and Mudge!"

Erin chuckled, "Hank does like dogs. Maybe one day, babes. He's a bit busy right now, but maybe if he ever retires, he'll get a dog."

"You ready, munchkin?" Platt came up the stairs, smiling widely, "I got a call, the new police dogs should be here any minute."

"Yes!" Kate squealed, jumping off Jay's chair, "Mommy, you gonna come too?" When Erin didn't immediately reply that she was indeed joining them, Kate suddenly looked nervous. "They not gonna hurt me, right?" She looked up at Sergeant Platt worriedly, "They good dogs?"

"Oh, yes," Platt assured her, "They're highly trained." She glanced over at Erin, sensing the little girl's apprehension. "Come on, Detective, the paperwork can wait fifteen minutes."

"Alright," Erin sighed, smiling after seeing the relief on her baby's face, "Are you excited, baby?"

"Uh-huh," Kate gripped Erin's hand tightly as they followed Platt down the steps, "They not gonna bite e-der?"

"Nope," Erin said, "Don't worry sweetheart, and if you feel scared, we can go back upstairs, okay?"

Kate nodded as they exited through the metal cage and headed for the lobby of the 21st. There, by the sergeant's desk, sat three young German Shepherds, obediently awaiting instruction. "Wow," Kate breathed, eyes widening at the sight.

"Hey, Kate, this is Detective Richards," Platt gestured to the youthful female detective, "And this is Officer Anderson," she gestured to the male officer, "And they're in charge of training the new police dogs."

"Hi," Detective Richards smiled warmly, "Do you want to meet the dogs?"

Kate nodded nervously, holding Erin's hand tighter, "Detective Erin Lindsay, Intelligence," Erin greeted, "Nice to meet you."

"Pleasure," Richards nodded, "Now, they're still learning but they're being trained for a few different things." She pointed at the largest dog on the end, "This is Diesel, he's going to be a bomb dog."

"He gonna smell for bombs?" Kate whispered, leaning closer to Erin's legs.

"Mm-hm," Richards said, "But you don't need to worry, there are no bombs here. And next to him are Pepper and Duke, they're being trained to sniff out drugs. And this…" Richard turned to the officer, "Anderson, where's Goose?"

The young officer gasped, not having realize there was a dog missing. "Uh, he was here a minute ago."

"We have a fourth dog in training, Goose, but he's a bit of a wild card," Richard explained, gesturing for the officer to go locate the missing dog, "Not sure if he's going to end up making it into K-9."

Kate observed the three dogs carefully, still clutching Erin's hand, "Aren't they cute, Kate?" Erin asked, shaking her hand a little in an attempt to get her little girl's attention, "They're very smart."

She nodded in agreement, still taking in the large creatures. "Do you want to pet them?" Detective Richard looked to Erin, who nodded slightly. The woman held her hand out as a command to indicate that the dogs could relax. Immediately, the three dogs laid down, looking expectantly at their teacher.

"Wow," Kate whispered, reluctantly taking a step closer as Erin moved toward the dogs, "They good."

"They are," Erin agreed, reaching a palm out to the female dog, Pepper. The dog pushed her wet nose against Erin's palm, enjoying the scratches that she received. "If you reach your hand out first, then they'll tell you if they want to be petted. Do you want to try?"

Cautiously, Kate extended her tiny palm toward Diesel. The large dog immediately leaned into her gentle touch. Kate smiled widely, "He's very soft."

"They just had their bath," Richards informed her, smiling as the little girl continued to stroke the big dog, "So they're all nice and clean."

"Thank you for letting us meet them," Erin rose to her feet and turned to Platt. "Great idea."

"I thought it would be," Platt nodded, glancing down at the child who was still petting Diesel, "Quite the animal lover, this one."

"I got him!" Officer Anderson said breathlessly, being tugged along by a German Shepherd the size of Diesel, "He was chilling by the vending machine,"

"This is Goose," Richards said, the massive dog bounding toward her and jumping up against her uniform, "Down!"

Kate clung to Erin's legs as the dog jumped around Detective Richards. "Sorry about him," Richards apologized, "He's very much a work in progress." She instructed the dog to sit, which he did, appearing to be grinning widely.

"No worries," Erin assured her, "Shall we go finish up things upstairs, baby?"

Kate nodded, "Thank you for lettin' me pet the doggies."

"You are very welcome," Detective Richards replied, "They'll be around here all day going through some training exercises."

"Okay, baby, so it looks like Daddy might be a little later, so we should see what we want to have for lunch," Erin glanced up from her cell that had been resting on her desk, "How about a turkey sandwich?"

Kate nodded, "Can I have a pickle too?"

"Absolutely," Erin smiled, "What do you say if you and I take a quick walk down the block to the sandwich shop and come back here? Hopefully Daddy will be back by then so we can go home for a quick nap and to take your medicine."

"Okay," Kate said brightly, already pulling her winter coat on, "We get a sammich for Daddy too?"

"Good idea," Erin agreed, donning her gloves and coat before assisting the little girl with putting hers on, "He's going to be hungry after he gets back."

"Daddy's always hungry," Kate informed her mother, taking her hand as they headed for the exit, "Yesterday he said he was gonna eat me but that I probably wouldn't taste too good," She wrinkled her nose, "But he wouldn't actually, right?"

"No, no, he's just being silly," Erin chuckled, "What do you think, would he like a turkey club or a Rueben?"

"Woo-ben." Kate decided after thinking for a moment, "With the chips in the orange bag."

When Jay finally returned to the district around four, he hurried up the steps to find his girls. He was over three hours late and Erin hadn't been returning his last few texts. He was hoping not to find them, that they'd returned to the apartment at one as planned, but the Sierra was in the parking lot and Jay realized that he accidentally brought those keys with him. After doing a quick once over of the bullpen and not seeing Erin or Kate, Jay headed for the breakroom.

There, in the cloth lounge chair that they had gotten for Kate follow her stomach surgery, lay Erin, snoozing softly against the cotton seat. Kate was laying on her chest, her head tucked just underneath Erin's chin, and she too was fast asleep, one hand resting on the large German Shepherd who lay beside them. The dog cocked his head slightly toward Jay, unsure of this new presence. "They up here?" Hank called, walking quickly through the bullpen, "Platt said they should be,"

"They're here," Jay gestured to the breakroom, "Whose dog is that?"

Hank raised his eyebrows in suspicion and peered into the breakroom. Sure enough, there was his granddaughter and his girl, both sound asleep with a dog guarding them. "There was an email about police dog training. I guess one of 'em went rogue."

"Yo, there's an officer downstairs freaking out about a missing dog," Ruzek shouted, tromping up the steps.

"Yeah, we found him," Jay replied, indicating for the young officer to lower his voice, "He's in here."

"No way," Ruzek quickly crossed the bullpen, "C'mere, boy."

The dog let out a low growl as Ruzek advanced toward him, causing him to halt in his tracks. Both Hank and Jay chuckled, "He doesn't like you, kid." Hank informed him, "I think he's protecting Kate and Erin."

"I'll go get the guy," Ruzek scowled at the dog and retreated. Jay rolled his eyes and approached his girls slowly.

"It's okay, buddy," Jay held his hand out so the dog could sniff, "Thanks for watching my girls for me."

The dog appeared suspicious, rising to a standing position and sniffing Jay intently. After a moment, he wagged his tail. Jay relaxed and put a hand on Erin's shoulder. "Er, babe," he whispered, "Wake up, we're headed home."

"Mm?" Erin lazily opened her eyes and turned her head, coming face to snout with the dog, "Why is there a dog in here?"

"We were wondering the same thing," Hank said, leaning against the doorframe, "He was here when we got here."

"Huh," Erin sat up slightly, waking up Kate in the process, "Sorry, baby, we're heading home in a few minutes."

Kate blearily glanced around, "Is the doggy still here?" She caught sight of the large dog and smiled widely, "He is!"

"Where'd you find him, Squirt?" Jay asked, watching in amusement as Kate vacated Erin's lap and stood beside the dog, who was now sitting obediently beside the little girl and was almost as tall as she was.

"He came up here while Mommy was nappin'," Kate shrugged, "And I was still awake so I petted him and he lay down. I think he likes me."

"I think he does too," Jay smiled, "But Ruzek is finding his owner, because they probably miss him a whole bunch."

Kate nodded in agreement, continuing to stroke the dog, "He's gotta be with the other doggies. I don't know this guy's name."

"Goose! There you are!" Detective Richards quickly made her way across the bullpen and clipped a leash to the rogue dog's collar, "Sorry about that. He's been missing for two hours."

"He was nappin'," Kate explained, "And he ate Daddy's sammich." She pointed to the sandwich wrapper that was shredded over by the refrigerator, "He was hungry."

"Good thing I ate already," Jay scratched the dog behind his ears, "You've got good taste, Goose." Goose wagged his tail in response.

"Come on, Goose, we gotta go," Richard tugged on the leash, but the dog did not budge. His eyes remained trained on the little girl, who was standing beside her father.

"Bye Goose," Kate waved. Still, the dog did not move. He laid down instead, looking up at his master with a 'try me' face.

"Ugh, Goose," Richards was aggravated, "Come on, dog."

"Let's go, Goose," Erin tried, standing up and heading through the breakroom door. Goose stood as well, turning around to see if Kate would follow. He trailed after Erin, much to the surprise of his trainer. "Good boy," Erin cooed, stroking his head gently as they walked toward the steps, "Good boy."

"At least he listens to you," Richards mused, "Thanks for your help."

Erin smiled and turned back to the bullpen as the dog reluctantly headed down the steps, "Alright, so are we headed home?"

"Tired?" Jay asked knowingly, now carrying Kate in his arms. Erin nodded in response, pulling her coat off the back of her chair.

"Bye Hank," she called, "We'll see you tomorrow."

"See ya, kid," Hank replied, "Halstead, stay home with them, would you?"

"Thanks, Sarge." Jay nodded to his boss before wrapping an arm around Erin's shoulder and heading out of the bullpen.

Let me know what you think ~~~ and I'll try to get the next chapters up ASAP because I am so excited for the response to what I have in store ;)