Experiences

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Story depicts brutal, one-sided sex, abuse and rape. Contains moral Degeneration and suicidal tendencies. Reader's discretion is advised.

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Born and adopted by the church, I followed God's Good words. There was nothing I could wish for but just one thing, parents that could support me; and that exactly is what I got.

One day a couple visited the church, they seem cheery. They were both girls, looking for a kid to adopt. Though, their 'relationship' is against the words that I adhere, I accepted their request of custody.

They were both fine women, and honestly.... They're good parents, though, I don't know who's supposed to be the 'father'.

I was 10 back then, 2 years from the day I got adopted... I've been quite contented with life..... But little did I know, a decision by them would bring about the end of my happy days, to the point the words of God were nothing but puny sayings....

They told me we're going to their hometown and live there for the rest of time. I didn't disagree since I'm quite eager to see new places. After some time of preparing, we got to their town, it was a peaceful to say. Although there's a catch, the population is only comprised of girls which is indeed weird.

"████, you don't have to be afraid. People here are nice, even if you're the only boy, they would treat you normally" one of my foster parents said while she pats my head. That words thus eased my uneasiness. As soon as we settled at our new home, someone approached me, a cheery girl with a smile in her face.

"Hello!!! You're new here right???!!" she held my hand, that time I was just playing alone in the yard.

"Uhm yeah!"

"My name's Chloe, nice to meet you" she smiled and not gonna lie, she looks stunning.

"Nice to meet you too" I smiled a little bit.

"So, want to play Barbies??!"

"I don't play those... I'm a boy..." I giggled a bit after hearing her words

"A boy..... Ah! We can just play anything so go at my house later okay!!" That was a bit rash but since I decided to be friendly, why not take up on the offer? After being allowed by my parents, I went to their house, her mother invited me to eat some merienda and I gratefully accepted, though unsurprisingly there's no father in the household.... Well despite that, I do think that people here really are nice....

And just as promised, Chloe invited me to play, on her computer that is... After we got bored, she insisted on playing with her dolls.. I didn't refuse since I found it fun and the way she laughs while we play is quite relieving.... We played various games that afternoon, Tag, hide and seek, she sometimes even teased me while lying in bed; punching me softly and just playing around; and the classic bahay-bahayan (A kid's game where participant plays/pretends the role of a regular household). Honestly when she called me 'honey' while playing bahay-bahayan, made me quite flustered.... As the night approaches, I said my goodnight to her and I went home, the first day here went surprisingly well...

The start of our friendship brought happiness to me, my heart felt warmth and loved. We even became classmates and we spent most of our time together... months by months to years, doing typical child things, playing and purely having fun.

But as the years passes on, the gap between us grew steadily larger... She spends little time with me, she doesn't speak that much to me, she ignores me, as if I never became her friend.... I loved her, why did she choose to leave me....

Was it because of the time that we both crossed the line we shouldn't have? I'm faithful with the words of the great Father but our curiosity that time went ahead of us.....but I've never put it in, we didn't do it properly... Could it be because I refused to do it, did she hate me because of that? I suffered a great deal of sadness, succumbing to the very defiling things just to make myself happy

It was 3 years since we first met, I'm just sitting inside the classroom alone while I do self-service on me... I always do this when I feel frustrated, and at this time, after our PE, I'm always alone in our room. I stared at her photo in my phone.... she have become a beauty, one that I would never be with again.....

"Lol, Guys online are a bunch of creeps" I heard from the hallway. I saw a silhouette of 3 walking towards the classroom... Shit. But I can't stop my hand.

"Geez, you say that Chloe but your posts on Twitter is too revealing"

"Shut up..... I'm just... Never mind, I post what I want to post"

"Well... Speaking of guys... Aren't you and ████ friends back then? What happened"

I listened in to their conversation as I just do my thing. My sweat is trickling down my face as I try my best to finish as soon as possible.

"Well... We got in a fight..... yeah that's It I guess.."

"Really? You're the most beautiful girl in our class and yet you let the opportunity to get the only guy slip away"

"Oh, just shut up" I can hear the frustration in Chloe's voice...

"Chloe...." I whispered to myself as I slowly came on my hand.. the classroom door opened as I wipe the mess on the table..... Shit I didn't realize, it's her sit...

"Damn I'm so sweaty we should have changed our clothes fir--" Chloe stopped on her tracks as our eyes met. My thing still exposed... Her face reddened and so does the girls behind her.... Shit I totally messed up... What do I do??

"Uhm uh..." I stutter, I can't even let a word out..

"Seriously? What the fuck?" she approached me, slapped me so hard that I almost fell..

"Chloe..."

"Shut up" she grabbed my chin as she suddenly kisses me, her hands wrapped around my dick, her tongue playing with the inside of mouth...

"Oh, you don't know how long I've wanted to do this, ████.." I saw the face she had from the very first time we crossed the line. She against kissed me as she jerks me off.

"Chloe... Please stop" I plead. She removes her hand from my private, was she that easy?

She removes her PE clothes, raised her arm and looks at me directly..

"I do know for a fact that you liked this back when we're young" Is she referring to her pits? What?

"You two, restrain him" she looks at the two..

"But.. aren't this a crime?" one of them hesitated but eventually, they both held my arm and made me stand up.

"I do know for a fact that you like this" she raised her arm, showed me her underarm. It was sleek with sweat and the smell of her perfume slowly lingers through my nose. .... She grabbed my dick with reckless abandon, sandwiching it on her pits. She moves rhythmically, smiling as she does. Her fingers teasing the tip of my dick, her wet tongue licking through my shirt..... I couldn't hold myself back that I came all over her pits and arm....

"Seriously? Cumming this much from that? What a fucking weirdo" she laughed as she licks the semen out of her hand. "And I do like how you fared."

"Chloe... I beg you, don't go further than this.."

"Huh? Like hell I would stop" she stripped her own clothes off and so her friends too...they she punched my stomach, making me lay on the ground... Shit it hurts... I couldn't fight back, I just cannot...

"It's time for the main course" she takes off her underwear as she got on top of me, my cock rubbing at the entrance of her wet pussy....

"We can't do this..." I reasoned for another time.. but to no avail.... She pushed it all the way inside, her moan leaked out and her hand painfully gripping on my waist... The other girl too have started to do their things... My right hand being forced the fondle a bountiful breast and my left hand being used as a toy for their private..

Sex before marriage....

Sacrilegious intercourse....

Polygamy....?

All those sin that I'm committing right now, have driven me insane... Yeah I can fap but this is way too much.... The lustful thrusts, her arm wrap around me as her ass comes down, have made me sank into the pleasure... Is this the feeling we sought after back then? But I don't feel the love from her... It's just pure lust... The stern look from her eyes yet the tears flowing down, a broken smile and her breathes running wild, all of her expressions were like in ecstasy as she forces my dick to ram inside her. It feels good.. but this is wrong..... If only I've accepted her back then... I felt my cum slowly rising, ready to blow as she just kept on moving..... She hugged me tightly, her nails slowly digging onto my back. Her eyes widen, her mouth gasping for air as my cum fills her womb... Won't she get pregnant at this rate?? Shit....

"That..... Felt great" she wipes the drool on her mouth and kissed me forcefully.... She stood up, semen leaking from her hole... I found it hot but I shan't be tempted...

"Alright my turn" her friend started to undress..

"Go have at it" Chloe pushed her onto me... Shit.... I feel exhausted but my dick is still up

"Please stop...." I pleaded; my voice ragged from tiredness.

"Like hell we would?"

"It's unfair to stop now.."

They were unfazed.

In the end I were violated many times, treated as a toy, only a meat dildo for them....

I stare lifelessly, my head feeling heavy.... This is over is it? Can I finally go home?

"Oh, they're here.."

"Hey, get your thing up" Chloe stepped on my cock as she looks at me..

"But I can't anymore.."

"You better get it up... We still have these lots to do you" she giggled as I slowly turn my attention to the classroom door... There stood our classmates, blushing and their eyes filled with curiosity...

"Come on, upsy daisy" she lifted me onto a chair and the other girls surrounds me... Their legs trembling and some of them already on front of me....

"You should probably have this" she grabbed me by the chin, kissed me and forced me to swallow something. My cock hardened and my body heats up... One of them ridden me with so much vigour that we both fell on the floor.....

I threatened them that I'll speak and tell the authorities but yet....

"You think anyone would believe you?" They said, and then one proceeded to muffle my mouth..

And then it all went black as the feeling of rage and pleasure took over me.. I am enraged but yet I cannot move... They kept violating me, abusing me...some of them hits my face as they move... Some held me on a chokehold...I got punched, kicked, stepped on just to make me stay still... It hurts. It fucking hurts...

And so there I lay lifeless.

My back awkwardly leaned on the wall

My body covered by my own semen and defiled by the women's juices...

Haha

Hahaha

Hah... I'm a guy yet I got raped.

Violated.

Abused.

Fucking pathetic.

I laughed as I cry, my nose bleeding, my body fatigued that I couldn't get up, my mouth drooling, my eyes lifelessly staring on the ceiling

I passed out.

Was it just a dream?

I hope so.

The moment I gain consciousness, all I saw was the underside of a bunk bed

"You're awake!" a girl beside me spoke. It was Shiro, my roommate, years older than me, although a tomboy, she's soft-hearted.

"Yeah.."

"What happened to you? I was worried why were you out so late then I found you naked and passed out on your classroom.....what exactly happened?" she frantically says..

"Uh..I know, you won't believe me... But, I got raped by the girls in my class..." I spoke lowly

"What!? Those girls abusing my boy, let's go and beat them up!" she tucked me on her muscly arms... "You better speak up, my boy"

"But would the people even believe me... Someone like me that just got here 3 years ago, against the girls that were raised here since they were young? Would they believe a boy like me.. eventually, the story would be flipped around and I would look like the rapist and my claims would become just a pointless joke..."

"Hey calm down... Yeah, that might be a problem.... But if it ever happen again, come to onee-chan and I'll hug you until you stop crying"

"Thank you.." I lay down as my fatigued body hurts. She lay down beside me, crutches me between her loving arms, my face buried on her chest.. I started to sob. She hugged me tighter as she pats my head.

"Everything's gonna be alright" she slowly let's go of me.. as I felt myself finally relaxed.

"Shiro. You didn't happen to do anything to me while I was passed out right?"

She blushed.

"Uh yeah! Well, I did carry you all the way here, washed you and fixed your clothes...and just stared onto you..

"I see.."

"Uh well, I was a bit curious so I touched it a bit but... That's all really.."

"I see" and with that, my heart finally calmed down. Finally getting a good night sleep....

The next day wasn't any better.. Chloe sat beside me and continued to sexually Abuse me even when at class... I wanted to speak up but I was scared to get ridiculed... By the afternoon, I was tied up and got abused again. Used like a toy and discarded after toying with me... Again, I was comforted by Shiro nee-chan.. but this shouldn't continue any further? Right?

Wrong

By the hour, by the day and years.. I was simply used, I tried to tell everything to my teacher but they didn't believe me even with the bruises on my body were shown. When I got home, I was too afraid to speak with my parents about it. They won't believe me, they won't, they won't.

And the day that I fear the most came.. Chloe and her friend got knocked up, all because of me...

They accused me of raping them, abusing them when I got the chance to... They lied. I told them the truth but was ridiculed.. the Folks gave me a stern look as I tell my story.... My words were considered a lie, words just to save my own flesh. In the end, I was sentenced to juvenile prison for more than 3 months..... After that, I was immediately told to go to school... Not like anything would change.. I heard from the others that Chloe got an abortion.... Which made me mad.... Yeah, it was a child born because I was mistreated but I would..... Take care of them.... No child shall be snatched with the right of living but... They unethically killed it... Fuck

"Welcome back, ████" Shiro hugged me, I cried and cried. Letting all of my frustration while she hugs me....

The unexpected happened.

She took her clothes off, showing her tanned body...

"Come, on.. come to nee-chan" in the end, I left myself to be in pleasure without me being forced to.... It was her first time too so I did it with care... Was it really alright to do this? I don't even know anymore....

Again, that next day, I was abused, used and trampled with.

After class, I was by called by our Homeroom teacher...

"Mr.████. I understand your statement about what happened, it is unreasonable for my students to do such things.. and you as a should've fought back. And I still think you're the one wrong here.. so please observe your behaviour carefully"

"WHAT!? You still don't believe me? WHAT THE FUCK? Sensei, you're the only teacher I look up to but you don't even believe a word that I said? You're the youngest out of all the teacher here so I thought you would believe me but you don't? For fuck's sake... You know what? if you see me as a rapist, I better be just one" I grabbed her neck yet she doesn't even care, her lifeless eye just stared onto me, as if telling me 'Go ahead, do it'.

I ripped her clothes off, enraged as I held her on a chokehold. She passed out but I didn't stop.. I continued to use her passed out body until I came once, inside her.. shit, I did it, why would I? I came to my senses and knowing on what I've just done... I ran out and went straight to my room...

I'm a fucking piece of trash...

I grabbed a knife from a random table. My hand shaking as I point the knife at my heart... But then my hand was grabbed and the knife got thrown away...

"████, stop.."

"Shiro... I should just die you know? I'm pathetic, I'm a fucking loser"

"Don't say that..." She hugged me tightly. We both laid down on the bed and she just hugged me...

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." I muttered as I cry..

"There is nothing to be sorry about..." she pats my head... "I'll help you get out of this town; I have my friend working on an apartment far from here, I would let you stay there... I would give you money... So please stop crying.."

"Really?"

"Yes... I would love to be with you but you know? I'm much older so yep...."

"..."

"Don't worry about it.. you just have to endure until graduation and you'll be able to get out of here..."

"Thank you..."

After a few weeks of enduring the terrible acts done to me, I was able to get permission from my parents to get out of town and study away from here.... They gave me an allowance and Shiro-san gave me additional money.... Although I did want to be with her a little bit longer, I can't because Chloe might know I'm leaving and she'd follow me....

I left my hometown with sadness inside my heart.... But I thinking it would be a start of a change.

That was what I thought.

For months, I suffered from PTSD, anxiety and depression, reoccurring nightmares that kept me awake at nights and more often than not, my body would feel the painful experiences that I felt at the past... I tried to get in a relationship to forget it all but... When the girl I'm in a relationship with, found about all of my scars and my forceful acts at bed.. they'd break up with me... What have I become really?

The pain in my heart still burns

The traumas I felt never faded away.

I just want to end it all..... I just want to end my suffering.

And so, I stood atop a bridge, high enough that I'd probably die upon impact with the water..

Haha

Hahahahaha

I guess this is all where it ends now....

"Hey!! What the heck are you doing??? Come down from that ledge...we can talk..." I heard a hurried voice of a girl.. it's too late now.... I looked at her as I let out a bitter smile...I jumped and my head hit a metal rebar as I fall...

I saw her jumping to me before it all gone dark....

"Come on don't die like this.. wake up wake up...fuck why's the ambulance ain't here yet? Shit I broke a leg" I faintly heard... She's in pain but she's continually giving me CPR....

"You're awake!! Come one let's get out of here.." she says as she saw my eyes open...

"Name is Erina,...not like you'd care but... Let's go..."

"...."

"Shit your head is bleeding" then I suddenly passed out, the last thing I saw was the flickering light of the ambulance

I woke up, not knowing what happened.... My memories, they're all gone.. where was that girl? Who's she?

"You're in a good health, that's good to see Mr.████" the doctor talked to me.

"You're in a mental Institute, just in case you're wondering... Symptoms of your depression led you on trying to commit suicide... So here we are..."

"Where is she?"

"Hmm who?"

"The girl. Er? Eri? I don't know.."

"Sir, please lay down for now, your head injuries are still not fully recovered.." suddenly a nurse came inside..

I was left bedridden for some months, still wondering who I really am... They told me I was having a mild memory lost.....

After some months, my memories came back but I'm still having fragmented memory loss... I can't even remember the name of the person that saved me...

Despite remembering my convoluted past, I decided to continue in life.. even though I won't be able to move on, I would still try.... > .

. . . . . .. . . . . .

"████, hey yo!" a naked girl tapped me on the shoulder..

"Ah sorry Erina, I just got too immersed telling my story" I patted her head..

"You really had it rough huh? "

"Uh hmmm"

"Heh, don't worry I'm here to make you happy"

"Thank you Erina, for everything you've done... And for saving me..."

"Ah ehh?"

"You were that girl right?"

"Uhm well...."

"I love you" she blushed... Even after all the years of telling it to her, even after getting married to her, she's still weak from those words.

I hugged her tightly, just gently caressing her head..

"████, if you had some free time.. would you like to visit your hometown?" she asked me with all seriousness..

"I would rather not but, I do want to see my parents.."

"Then let's go if you have your day off.. I would be would you"

"Really??"

"Yep! I do want to meet Chloe.." she smiled a bit

"But why though?"

"She's your first love right? Then I wouldn't mind you making her your Second bride..."

"Shut up... I'm not into that.."

"Eh? well that's you to decide but I really want to meet her"

"Okay?"

"Hehe, alright goodnight let's sleep..."

"Not yet"

"Eh?"

"Let's make a second child" I grabbed her by the hand and just kissed her

"You still have work tomorrow right?"

"Oh silly, I'm off tomorrow" I hugged her tightly as we both do it..

"Wait don't be too rough; we might wake up our son" she let out a gentle moan..

"Okay I will.." we hugged each other after we finished, and then sleeping soundly as the night passes on

Experiences, memories

They really are things to treasure despite how horrible they maybe

Afterall, it is where we get our strength, our Motivation to seek for success. And as for me, my terrible experiences pushed me forward to truly appreciate true happiness.

So don't give up, and keep on going

-End