Chapter 2- Who do you think you are?

~~~~Jasper's POV~~~~

"Jasper, I know it's difficult to control... bla, bla, bla" I zoned out of the conversation, this was the 3rd 'chat' me and Carlisle have had in two weeks, and its all to do with me drinking from humans.

2 months ago, I killed a man in Seattle, he was about to stab a waitress from the bar across the street, looks as if he dragged her down the alley way, that they were now in, from her ruffled clothes and messed hair, she was shaking, and putting of emotions of fear, I couldn't just let this happen. So I sauntered up to him, silently stalking my prey. Not knowing I was behind him, the man kept taunting the poor woman, but that all stopped when he felt my ice cold hand wrap around his throat. I pulled him back into me and I commanded the now extremely relieved, bordering on joyous, woman to run, she didn't even look back as she wobbled her way into the alley way with her high heals on.

'Mine, kill him, my blood, kill. NOW!' The Major screamed inside me, but i wanted to have a little fun first, I grabbed the man's knife and ran it along his left cheek, the blood that pooled to his face, almost made me lose control. 'Keep it together Whitlock, we will have it soon' I gave myself a small prep talk.

"Do you want to tell me why you thought it was acceptable to hurt that innocent woman?" I questioned him. I was absolutely seething, my mama brought me up to be a gentleman, and in my opinion anythin' less is scum. The little pile of shit just remained backed against the wall whimpering and crying. I dropped him to the floor and got right up in his face, his vomit green eyes looking into my black ones "NOW" I roared at him, and that's when he lost control over his bodily functions, and he peed right on my new boots. Oh joy

That's what tipped me over the edge, what can I say? I love me some leather boots. Pulling him up harshly by the arm, breaking it in the process, I muffled his scream by crushing my hand to his mouth, im pretty sure I heard a couple of teeth shatter with that move. Oops, my bad. I tilted his head to the side and sniffed at his jugular. 'oh sweet heavens above, its been 12 years, I need it now, I can't wait any longer' I placed my razor teeth at the pulse point and dug in, I feasted on his life source, relished in the feel of the hot sticky liquid sliding down my burning throat, I was in overdrive, the blood invaded my every taste bud, eliciting new firework sensations to form in my mouth, the sweet nectar was steadily gulped down my throat, and I gave one last long pull, and the life of this man, this scum, was gone.

Searching his pockets, I found a lighter 'perfect' and his wallet, inside was $562 and his ID and credit cards, i didn't bother finding out his name, that's like a human trying to find out the name of the pig his bacon had come from. Lifting the mans body up as if it were a feather, I threw him in the dumpster conveniently located in the alley way we were in. But not before taking the money, he owes me a new pair of non-urine smelling shoes. I flicked the lighter and flew the flame in the dumpster, now to be the man's grave.

Since then I have fed twice a month of the scum of the earth, I have more control around other humans, because I don't constantly have the burn in the back of my throat that comes with the animals diet.

"Jasper, are you even listening to me?" Carlisle's grating voice brought me back to the present.

"Sorry Carlisle could you say that again?" He rolled his eyes and started talking again, damn why didn't I just say I heard him so he would shut up?

"I said, you're creating problems for everyone when you drink humans, including yourself, I could even create a list! Number 1, what about school, im not sure students would take too kindly to bright red eyes, number 2, the shapeshifters, do you not remember the treaty?" He started checking them off on his fingers

"Number 3, the police may get suspicious, and if you're not careful, we will all have to move house because of you, number 4, Edward and Alice, do you realize that they have to see in the visions and in your thoughts, you killing humans? And number 5, your killing innocent people ,Jasper. They don't deserve to die, I thought I raised you better than this!"

I sat there in shock, shock that a vampire such as Carlisle could say such stupid things, he was over 300 years old, yet everything that just came out of his mouth was complete and utter trash.

"Carlisle..." I spoke slowly as if speaking to a 5 year old, I hoped it annoyed him, and from the strong feelings of irritation and agitation he was givin' off id say my hopes were not dashed."I'm afraid to say, that everythin' you just said to me is garbage, and you know it, you have been reduced to thinkin' up inadequate excuses for me to stop my current behavior, and it's just not workin' out for you so why don't i give you a list of why all the things you just said are wrong hmm?" My Southern drawl was coming out a lot stronger as i got angrier, that tends to happen a lot.

"OK number 1, in school I can easily wear contacts, and ill be under more control because I wont have the burn, number 2, the treaty was with the Cullens, im not a Cullen, number 3, all the people I drain are low lives who no-one will miss, so the police aren't likely to start a case on them, number 4, if Edward and Alice don't like it, then they can stop looking into the future and invading my privacy, and number 5, the people I kill are rapists and murderers, I probably save more people than I kill. Would you rather I become less and less in control and hurt an innocent? and lastly, im over 100 years old, you didn't raise me, I raised myself!"

God it felt good to have all that off my chest, its been weighing me down for a while now, all the disgusted glances of the golden couple and Carlisle, it can take a lot out of you. They think they are so much better than me, that they are high-class society just because they refuse to drink from our natural food only reason I ever stayed with the Cullens was because they offered me control, they helped me out of the dark and into the light. When I was stuck being the Major, and I was severely depressed from the emotions of the innocents that I killed, Peter and Charlotte didn't know how to help me, they had just gotten out of the wars and only knew one way to live, but the Cullens, they came to me and told me of a way of feeding without feeling emotions, and I took the opportunity gladly, it didn't occur to me back then that I could feed off of the bad guys. Even though I knew they were doing it for their own personal gain, having the god of war in your coven can really up your reputation, I stayed, mostly because usually it had a calm environment, and with Peter and Char, i've always felt like a third wheel.

"well Jasper" Carlisle said my name with a sneer held on his face, as if it hurt to be within 2 meters of me. "I can see you are set on your new way of feeding, I don't approve, and neither does the rest of the family, but we will allow you live and to stay with us."

I couldn't help it, the Major came out in the next words said "Let me live?... LET ME LIVE? I don't think you understand boy, I am faster, I am stronger, I am more powerful, I an better than you, and I could end every single life in this 'ere house in 3 seconds flat if I so wish. So you will not allow me to do anything, you have no say in what I do or where I go, this conversation is over!" during my harsh words I had picked up the skull replica on Carlisle's desk and crushed it to a pile of dust on his carpet, the irony is, this is probably what Carlisle's head would look like if I fully let the Major out.

I stood up and headed out his office door.