Looking for Answers who We Never Knew

After more than a week of headaches due to office matters, Jackran finally could breathe a sigh of relief, because an unexpected problem that occurred at the office made him spend his energy and mind to solve the problem. Jackran threw his body on the bed, he immediately closed his eyes hoping he could get some rest soon after various tiring things happened.

Before he could close his eyes, he remembered that a few days ago Bian approached him to the apartment, he immediately got up and took his cell phone. Currently there are many messages and missed calls from Bian. Jackran immediately rushed to the bathroom to clean himself, he canceled his intention to rest, he had important things to finish.

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"Meet me at a regular cafe!" Jackran hung up the phone.

Without further a do, Jackran immediately contacted Bian, a figure he currently ignored due to his busy schedule. Honestly, taking care of office problems makes Jackran unable to think about anything else. Jackran is the type of person who focuses on one thing, he can't divide his mind into two different things.

Not long after, Bian came and sat in front of Jackran. "I thought you would never contact me again," said Bian with a straight face.

Jackran smiled seeing Bian's annoyance, and without realizing it he missed this figure "what do you want to drink"

"What do you want to talk about?, I'm busy," Bian still with a straight face, actually she wants to be angry but she's afraid it will only get worse. It made things worse, considering that Bian was the type of person who liked to bring up the past when she was angry, so she didn't want to do that.

"I'm sorry, in the last few days I have had an office problem that I must solve immediately," said Jackran honestly.

"Until you can't tell me," Jackran just nodded.

Right now, Bian doesn't want to ask anymore, she wants to question the reason for Jackran who deliberately ignored her phone a few days ago but Bian is not ready for all the worst possibilities. Silence covered both of them. Jackran looked at Bian who was currently busy looking at her cellphone.

Jackran really missed Bian's figure. "You want me to take you to campus," Jackran offered.

"No, it's not far away ," replied Bian.

After a brief meet with Jackran earlier, Bian breathed a sigh of relief, for some reason she believed Jackran's reasoning, she believed Jackran would not lie to her, even though she didn't really believe it.

When she arrived at the campus, Ria approached Bian,

"You're curious about that girl?," Ria pointed at the woman who was with Jackran at that time.

"She's Tiara, she's Jackran's first love, and you know, even now Jackran still likes girl, and she is too, from the start I said that you were just an escape, ok" Ria has said many times that Bian is just an escape for Jackran after leaving school abroad by his ex.

"Are you sure, I've been with him for seven years," said Bian a little sarcastically.

"Because all this time that girl wasn't here, and now she's back again to get back with Jackran," Ria said confidently,

"and you know, at first it was for an escape but maybe her feelings for you faltered a little as the time you spent together but didn't It's possible that Jackran didn't really forget that girl, because I know Jackran, if he likes one person he will never turn to another heart," Ria left Bian with a million frustrations.

Bian actually had a little influence on what Ria said, but Bian seemed to convince himself that Jackran would not be that mean to her. And all this time Bian could feel Jackran's feelings for her. She immediately opened her cell phone and called someone.

"Where are you, are you busy?" Bian said directly without greeting,

"Waiting for the lecturer," someone answered from the other side.

"Tonight accompany me to watch the movie, can you or not,"

"ok, tonight I'll pick you up,". After the connection was cut, Bian immediately rushed back to her boarding house.

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Exactly at 7 pm, Bian's doorbell rang. Ding Dong

"Wait a minute," Bian immediately jogged towards the door.

"Come on, let's go" Bian immediately left her boarding house and they immediately drove to the cinema which was located not far from Bian's boarding house.

"Today I can't stay long," said Jackran. Yes, what Bian invited to accompany her was Jackran and tonight Bian had to ask everything swanted to know, that's why she invited Jackran to accompany him.

Bian wore a navy mini dress, with her favorite sling bag, she let her hair loose. While Jackran should not be asked, in Bian's eyes he is cool as usual.

"What are you doing," Bian replied

"today I want to gather with the children,"

"Tiara's return party," Jackran only showed a flat face, he nodded and didn't look surprised at all Bian found out about the party, and Don't ask Bian how she knows, she's just guessing.

After they finished watching, Bian and Jackran sat in a cafe, it was only 9 o'clock. They ordered food for dinner.

"Why didn't you tell me," said Bian after they finished their food.

"About,"

"Tiara," Bian had gathered the courage to ask this since this afternoon. So her struggle must not be in vain, she must get her answer tonight.

"What for?" jleb, this is not the answer that Bian wanted. She wanted an answer that would make her believe that Jackran was completely her.

"You and Tiara once had love relationship and now Tiara is here, you and her will often meet right? You guys have the same group of friends," Jackran ignored Bian's words,maybe

" Or you still have feelings for her," said Bian full of suspicion, Jackran just looked at Bian, he didn't answer Bian's question.

"It's 9 o'clock, I'll take you home," Jackran immediately got up from his seat and left Bian who was still shocked by what had happened. Jackran did not answer important questions that could ruin their relationship. Jackran doesn't seem to care what Bian thinks about her feelings. Jackran just let it go.

Bian immediately followed Jackran into the parking lot. The whole way they were just silent, both of them were deep in their own thoughts. Bian looked out the window, watching every building they passed, Bian held back her tears, she wanted to get to her room as soon as possible, pouring out all her worries and anxieties, but the road they took seemed to keep her away from her room. While Jackran was driving with a straight gaze ahead, watching every street, I don't know what the man was currently thinking.

Arriving in front of Bian's boarding house, Bian immediately take off seatbelt and rushed down from Jackran's car without saying a word.

"Tiara and I are just friends," the voice interrupted Bian's steps. Bian turned her head and turned,

"My question is, do you still have feelings for Tiara," Bian asked,

"I hope you don't make Tiara a problem for us," and Jackran's answer was not the answer Bian wanted.

"Is it hard to just answer yes or no," Bian became annoyed with Jackran's ambiguity,

The two looked at each other, Bian caught Jackran's eyes, "I don't know either," Jackran immediately got into his car and left Bian.

Bian, who had been trying to defend himself, finally started to break down her defenses. Bian immediately went into her room and cried. The answer that Jackran gave was able to make her sad, Jackran still didn't know about his feelings, even though he and Bian had been together all this time.

Bian hopes that this is not the end of everything, the end of the relationship she struggles to maintain. Bian hopes that this is not the end of her patience in dealing with Jackran's unpredictable and incomprehensible attitude. Bian is not ready to leave, and destroy the relationship they have for a long time. Bian loves Jackran so much, she hopes Jackran feels the same way. She hoped that Jackran's answer was just bullshit.