prologue

Life... What do you think of life? When I look at life all I see is this massive black hole with no light what so ever. A black whirlpool that pulls you deeper and deeper under, keeping you prisoner in an unknown body. This black pit consumes your entire life and there is nothing you can do about it.

Think of it like a leaf blowing in the wind.

I once wrote about a leaf and I guess I never knew how real it was.

I guess I'm saying that I feel like my life is worthless and pointless. Like something that gets trampled on constantly by people. People trampling on something that they think is nothing... Just like a leaf, I guess.

In Autumn leaves constantly fall off trees and are left to die. Blowing in the wind until they disintegrate into tiny pieces.

I once said that when you're a kid, you never imagine your life to go so wrong. You just assume that everything will be fine.

I guess we lay blinded by the constant abuse and harm that the world can do to us. Unless we have some sort of abuse or harm is done to us, we remain blinded by all of this. Living happily while others around us suffer in silence.

This is what I mean, this black hole consumes you, sucks out all of your happiness and leaves you empty. Stuck in a body that you don't want to be in; stuck in an unfamiliar body.

Although I'm not a leaf and I don't fall off trees, I'm still like that. Held down by this massive anchor and trapped between this massive glass container.

If you still don't know what I mean, think about animals. We eat animals with no issue. We trap animals in cages and watch them 24/7. You think that the animals are happy because they've been saved right... What if they're not. What if they're miserable. Fed up of being watched all the time... Fed up of being trapped until they die...

We assume so many things and it blinds us...