Chapter 11. HIS POV[4]

He woke up early and wear a black suit for her burial. While staring at the mirror looking at himself, a tear escape from his right eye but he didn't bother to wipe it and just stood right there.

His eyes are void of happiness together with the dark circles under his eyes.

' Pathetic! '

' You can't even find the culprit yet you dared to plan to go there. '

That's what his head are full of that moment.

' Don't look at me like that!! '

Then the sound of glass breaking is what the room are filled with. It was Sean, he broke the mirror after slamming his fist where his face was reflecting.

Blood drip down the floor and some slid inside his sleeve.

After hearing the noise a butler rush inside his room only to find Sean crying while staring at his reflection in the broken mirror as his fist is still attached to the wall. That was it, Sean can't hold the tears that he's been stopping from flowing since the day he found out about her death.

He became the child that he is and the persona where he's been hiding finally broke only to reveal the kid who's only desire was to be with her.

'What do I do from now on?'

I keep asking myself that question then I remembered something, that I am still a teenager who didn't even had a happy childhood memories. That I can't even remember when was the last time I played with other kids or if I actually played with them.

I was busy earning money that I have forgotten that I was still a young kid who need to play and have fun too. I carried all the heavy responsibility that a child shouldn't even need to care at a young age.

'How do I keep living if she's not here?'

'Do I have to continue working for Luis?'

'No, FUCK! That wasn't the plan.'

His breath was heavy as he tries to control his emotion.

'Calm down and don't think anything else.'

It didn't take long for him to change his clothes again and and fix his wounds. After the butler applied the medicine to his wound they immediately left for her burial ceremony.

Arriving at the place, Sean didn't have the courage to go near her. It was full of people and he knows that he has the ability to get close to her and blend with the people so no one would notice him but, he doesn't have the strength to do so.

He leaned into the tree where he's hiding using his hand and cover his mouth using the other. Tears flowed down his cheeks again as he stare at her coffin being burried onto the ground.

A sob escape from his mouth,

then another one after another.

"M-momm..."

I keep calling her name hoping for her to hear me from where I'm standing. My vision were blurred by the tears but I didn't took my eyesight away from her.

When the people started leaving, I decided to leave too so no one would see me. Although my relationship with Mom isn't known by public, I still need to be careful. I don't know all of the people who attended her funeral and who knows, maybe there's a spy among them.

Getting inside the car made me feel heavy, I don't want to go. I still want to stay here but...I know that I can't, right now.

My tears keep falling but I can't do anything, I don't even know how to stop it. So I just let it flow.

Arriving back at the mansion, I took my way to my room at a past pace. Locking the door and slumping myself on the bed. I thought that I don't have any more tears to shed but when I was left alone in my quiet and lonely room, I burst into tears yet again.

But I just let it flow as it does while calling her.

I don't know how many hours I spent crying, all I know was that I fell asleep after that.

So when I woke up seeing Mom's face, I thought that I was dreaming. How could she be here when she's clearly dead, that's why I ran towards the window and slid the curtains that was covering it.

The sunlight that passed through the transparent window reach her face and that's when I slapped my face real hard.

My desire to be with her even in a dream were big but feeling the cold floor when I run to the window made me realize something, that I wasn't dreaming.

It wasn't a dream.

And I wanted to make sure of it so I did that.

When I felt the pain from hitting myself, I couldn't stop my tears from falling again.

How many times did I cry yesterday that I still have more tears to shed right now? Was it not enough for me to cry the whole day yesterday?

But that doesn't matter to me right now, just seeing her there sitting on my bed and smiling made me focus on her. It's warm, I feel a sensation that was really nice and too good that it made me cry.

'Though all I know is that it was what people called a 'tears of joy'.

I run towards her as if my life depends on it, I was scared that if I didn't hold her sooner she would vanish and I don't want that. She stroke my back while hugging me and those warm hands, I really miss them.

She explained everything that happened to her to me, although it sounds impossible it doesn't matter. I just need her alive to stay with me.

Our days came back to normal, it was even better because she doesn't need to leave anymore for her work. I'm really happy right now.

Those days that I thought wouldn't last finally came to an end.

It's because of that Luis, if it wasn't for him she doesn't need to suffer anymore. Even in the past and until now, it's always him who made her life miserable.

I wanna convince her to hide and stop meddling to the underworld but I know her, she won't stop to make everything even. She'll surely get her revenge.

And now it's because of him why we're not okay. It's him, always him.

I should have done it before even when I don't have evidence.

'Now let's put the last one. Like this and.. finished.'

"All I need to do now is find her so we can get out of here together."

"Intruder!!" I was taken aback when someone screamed while pointing at me.

"Tsk." and I didn't have a choice but to run just so that they won't get me.

'What floor was Luis's office? Was it at the top floor?

I threw a bomb to those who keeps running after me. Well, good luck for them.

A loud Boom was heard and the building even shook because of the bomb I thew. Now I'm free. No one's following me anymore.

That's what I thought before a voice was heard in every floor saying where my location is.

I moved faster than before while shooting every CCTV'S that I run into until I reach it.

The door where Luis and Mom is. There was two bodyguard standing there protecting the door but before they even noticed me I already shoot them.

Kicking the door open and there she was, I found her.

"What the hell are you doing here?!!" she said after jumping on the table and pointing the gun at Luis.