Lost

How it had happened again was beyond her. Maybe she didn't understand men, but Myra was left delirious after her third sexual encounter with Yu Bing. She had thought it would be okay, and she would have just have it as another night of fun, but it had turned out highly perplexing. What did it all mean? Were they mere partners in bed, or did he want more from her? She reminded herself that while she liked him, she was not going to become a surrogate for Lu Lu.

She was young, and she had desires of her own. The aftermath of the first and second encounter was that she wanted more, but the third encounter was unplanned and totally unexpected. It was the weather playing a joke on them. With the current stormy weather, she wasn't able to get home very soon. The roads were flooded and there had been some minor landslides according to the news report. And then, she had got high after drinking all that alcohol, and to her surprise he just allowed it to happen a third time.

So, what was next? Did he want to see her again? She admitted to herself the sex was fantastic, but apart from being his pretend girlfriend, she didn't know who she was in his heart.

Yu Bing sensed she was not asleep, and moved to hold her tighter to him. It was the second time they had spent the night together naked in the same bed, and he was starting to get used to her petite body. He fondled her hair and gave her a little poke. "Are you not going to sleep?"

"I'm just thinking how I can go to university tomorrow with this extreme weather," she said.

"Myra, do you like anyone at school?" he asked, laying her down on the bed and tickling her on the chin. She squirmed at his tickles, but then answered, "No."

"Are you looking to start an actual relationship anytime soon?"

Again, her answer was no. She also said she wanted to study and graduate with honours.

He remembered how she had said she liked him during their encounter at Bali. He was being thick-skinned, but he really wanted to know if it was true, so he asked her. She put on a large smile, and told him that she was just drunk. Maybe he shouldn't have asked such a silly question.

"I was young when I liked you, Yu Bing. I understand you only see me as a sister. I've heard you say that before."

He felt he was contradicting himself by saying that. If he had seen her as a sister, he wouldn't have bedded her, by all means. She was someone important to him, whether it was now or then. He had just made that statement because he had thought it would help his father in accepting his interest in Lu Lu. He had made that statement when he had been jogging with his father early this year, before he was invited to the party where he had kissed Myra for the first time. He hadn't expected Myra to have been present at the park when he had made that false statement to his father, or that he would get to see her in person later. The last time he had seen her in person had been three years ago, when she had just reached legal age. But now, he was starting to feel that he wanted her, while he appeared to no longer feel anything for Lu Lu. He couldn't fathom all this.

He tried to ask her the impossible. "What if one day I liked you? Would you like me back?"

She eyed him peculiarly and said, "Under what reason should I like you? I did like you as a child, and back at Bali I was under the effects of alcohol, but I was just muttering nonsense. I just wanted to add some spice to the moment by saying I liked you. You said I'm still young, so how can I like or love someone at this age?" As much as it would be a dream come true for her if he liked her someday, she found it awkward that they were already doing it with each other without being in a relationship. She found it more complacent for her to deny her feelings for Yu Bing, since it was highly unlikely that they would end up a real couple. She was adamant about not admitting her feelings to him, for the sake of her own face.

She realized his eyes was fixated on her nude figure, and she hastily sheltered herself under the duvet. "Don't look at me now," she yelled at him, embarrassed.

"Why not?" he teased back. "After all, you gave yourself willingly to me again last night."

"Er .... It's not night any more. It's 2 a.m. now." She was dead beat and slightly sore after too much 'exercise' the night before. "I probably need to go in a few hours."

"You can't sleep?"

She smiled sheepishly. She had been absorbed in deep thought that it kept her awake throughout the night. She looked up to see his lips almost touching hers.

"I don't know why, but it feels so good to kiss you."

With his words, he was already clutching her small frame to his tightly, and kissing her so senselessly that she forgot her concerns for the particular time that their lips were lost in each other.

When she woke up five hours later, she was snuggled deeply against him, and they were warming each other's bodies with their own heat. He was already awake, and watching her like an eagle. She jolted up immediately. "I have school soon, Yu Bing. I can't possibly reach home in time to change."

He lay her down, and returned from a quick trip to the wardrobe with a tee shirt that looked like it would fit her. "I was given this by an uncle that was too small and it's a bit girly. Perhaps you could wear this."

She accepted it readily, and rushed into the bathroom, only to freeze as she was confused by his sophisticated bath system. Forgetting that she was in the nude, she called for Yu Bing, who laughingly explained to her the bath system. She quickly shooed him out of the bathroom when she realized the direction of his eyes.

"What time is your lesson?" he asked, while driving her to her university.

"Nine."

"It's already 8.30, are you hungry?"

She shook her head. "I'm not really a morning, or breakfast person."

"I'll see you after your classes. We'll have an early lunch then. I'll be meeting Mr. Wang for a bit."

"Okay."